Day 33, Monday, September 21, 2009

Aloha! Just a little snapshot of peace for you today.

How is everyone on this International Day of Peace. Peaceful, I hope.

Peace is with you always. Just like love, it's always here. You just may be distracted from its presence 'cuz your attention is elsewhere.

So, ho'oponopono, self I-dentity and I-dentity theft.

P.S. This week speaking of ho'oponopono (I'm going to do a squidoo page called ho'oponopono hotline as sort of a forum for finding out about ho'oponopono and sharing experiences as you practice it) and other things with a Hawaiian theme, there's a web presence, www.mahalo.com, that looks quite interesting. Mahalo is the Hawaiian word for "thank you". They are based out of Santa Monica and have only been around for two years, but it looks like an interesting concept. I just have other things I feel like I should get done first...okay, I don't like the word should. Let me rephrase, I like to think of myself as more of a FIFO (that's accounting lingo for first in first out) kind of gal.

Anyway, back to understanding better now how the ho'oponopono and the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." are perfect.

So, ho'oponopono is 10 words you repeat to yourself.
I love you.
I'm sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.

Ho'oponopono is about taking full responsibility for personal well-being. As Dr. Joe Vitale and Dr. Hew Len call it, the place of Zero Limits or Peace of I, self peace. How "woo woo" to write about this today.

The I love you is directed at Divine Love with the intention of connecting with this presence (which is the truth of who you really are, BTW) and sharing your love.

"I'm sorry. Please forgive me." that is for you. Divine Love is secure in Its Identity and in Divine Mind there is NEVER (and I repeat NEVER) a reason for forgiveness. There's nothing to forgive. It's ALL GOOD there.

How I am perceiving it now is that if you don't at this very moment of NOW...this magical, wonderful, amazing, divine moment of NOW...I-dentify with yourself as the truth of you as you were created by Divine Love, as your Higher Self, as the epitome of flowing and glowing well-being, love, peace, health, wealth, joy, beauty, et al, then you are technically stealing from yourself in that moment.

You are buying into the virus. You are on the hamster wheel. You are basically being blind to the truth.

I mean think about it. If someone stole what you felt was yours, you'd probably be angry. Well, technically, when you take full responsibility for your well-being, you understand that the only person who can really steal from you (even though outwardly it may appear someone else has stolen from you) IS YOU!!!

Now if someone harms you, don't you expect them to apologize so you may forgive them? Well when you get to this level of embracing full responsibility for your well-being (and possibly using ho'oponopono as a tool to help you with this process), in any moment you are not aligned with Divine LOVE, flowing and glowing well-being, you are stealing from yourself and the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." is then your way of atoning for your self-theft.

Hopefully, 'cuz at this point you do understand the truth of who you are (even if you are not yet able to embrace its fullness in manifestation in every glorious present moment of now), you are happy to forgive yourself. And you end with "thank you."

Now I have to say that in the beginning of embracing ho'oponopono and this whole total responsibility thing, the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." part of the process felt somehow wrong. There really wasn't much joy vibration in that part for me. It somehow seemed like I was continuing to vibrate in alignment with being wrong or bad or something like that.

So I am thrilled to have found a way to put it in a more loving context. If my child hurt them self because they didn't know better, would I be upset? Would I think they are bad or wrong or something like that? No. I would simply love them and move forward.

I understand now that it is a very loving thing for me to do for me, as I ask myself to forgive myself for all the ways I have kept myself from fully loving and enjoying flowing and glowing well-being in my life in every present moment of NOW. And as I love myself this much, I radiate a more concentrated vibration of divine love, well-being and peace.

This morning someone called my home phone number asking for "Rosie" again. I had to almost laugh because as they asked for someone who clearly isn't me, it made me remember what I have been sharing on this blog with letting it be that easy for me to remember that I am not the virus and I don't have to "cop" to having any attributes of the "virus" even if I haven't fully manifested in every area the truth of my well-being self, my Peace of I.

And I was thinking that as I become more secure in my true identity, my Peace of I, instead of feeling like I want to run away from those who seem to want to "suck" me back into the virus, I will know instead there is no need to run. I will be able to stand strong and confident in divine truth and being this self-generating beacon of divine light and love and flowing and glowing well-being, I will be like a tuning fork for the divine.

If you don't know what a tuning fork is, well, a tuning fork when activated brings everything around it into vibrational alignment with it.

That must be like the bonus plan. You be your truth, Peace of I, flowing and glowing well-being, and with no effort, simply by being who you are, you are able to help others shift their vibrational frequency in tune with your own.

How divine!


(P.S. remind me I want to mention right of consciousness knowledge this week also and Deepak Chopra's new book)

P.P.S. I'm still on my virtual iCurrencyCleanse promotion tour. The same with inspired giving. You find out more about both by visiting http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Peace be with you. Of course, as peace is in you.

Day 16, Friday, September 4, 2009

Have you ever had one of those nights where you felt inspired to create something, but since it was bed time and you SHOULD be sleeping...instead of just getting up and doing it, you keep going over and over it in your mind?

Can I get an, "AMEN"? Amen!

I love Brad Yates' EFT ho'oponopono video. I added it to the Currency Cleanse page on the friends of the law of attraction site 'cuz I value it so much. Then I found out that he doesn't say it in the video in the same order as they refer to it in the Zero Limits book by Dr. Joe Vitale and Dr. Hew Len. Also, in the book they are specific about directing the words, "I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you." to LOVE, the Higher Power.

So I wanted to make a video but I do not like being on camera, I didn't really want to ask anyone else to be in it and I have limited editing skills. What is the answer? Why not have it be semi-serious in the sense the information is solid, yet why not make it a little cheesy and hopefully then a little fun. You know put a little joy and smile into it.

And ta da. Today I created that video. It actually came out a little better and was a little easier than I thought even though I forgot a few things I had wanted to put in it and would have liked to have made it a bit shorter. Still, all in all...just for my own joy and pleasure...and then hopefully yours...I share my video creation with the internet universe.

In case you think I have forgotten about my pet projects, currency cleanse and the big idea of adding donate buttons on every website so people can easily practice inspired giving from the heart...anonymously...with no expectation...I haven't.

To see my video, you need to go to the Currency Cleanse page. You can magically be transported by clicking here. Once there you can click on the appreciation and giving page to find out more about the inspired giving.

Anyway, ain't life grand? Technology too? And as I am feeling good and loving life, I am also flowing and glowing with well-being. And so it is.

Day 15, Thursday, September 3, 2009

Today I plan on giving myself a huge, heapin' guilt-free dose of self-honesty. Here goes.

Back during one of the times after we had broken up and then were thinking about getting back together, the man who I at the time was the love of my life and I couldn't live without, told me one of his main reasons for not wanting to be with me is that I didn't seem to have much self-love. Ouch.

How could I not love myself? I probably gave myself 85% of my daily thoughts worth of reasons why I wasn't worthy of self-love yet. Today, almost 10 years later through my spirituality that percentage probably hovers somewhere around 50%.

I also can see I have some judgment towards people who are physically in ill health on a continuous basis. And I can see how doctors and all the energy on health care and people having so much focus on health insurance, etc. (I haven't had health insurance for at least 7 years and have more than saved a ton of money paying for any health care out of my own pocket than putting any worry on this). Whether they realize it or not, doctors need patients to survive. And so a part of them has a vested interest in keeping all of this going.

After I read Zero Limits, I realized that all of us in the self-help and spirituality mix are pretty much in the same boat. If it appears my livelihood is based on helping broken people, then I have a vested interest in perpetuating broken people because I need them.

It's part of why I started American Well-Being LLC. According to Abraham-Hicks, at least to be fair, in my interpretation, right here and now I am already everything worthy of love...I am already whole, perfect, fabulous, wonderful, brilliant, flowing and glowing well-being and All is Well...right here and now and in every marvelous, miraculous moment of now. So, why am I not experiencing this here and now?

That seems like the million dollar question.

Today is also the start of the second month or day 33 of my actual 100-day journey I told myself I was starting because day 100 would be the day I turn 50 in earth years. 1/3rd of the way through and in all honesty I'm not sure how much progress I feel I've made. Yet, doesn't that have to be okay?

This morning I again woke up not feeling the best emotionally and why don't I wake up just feeling joy? And part of me doesn't want the answer so much as the solution.

And another part of me knows the solution is love. Love. Love. Love. Not just any love, but unconditional love. Can I only love myself if....?

Is that why I am so pushing to have adoring fans who love my blog, or think I'm great 'cuz I am promoting currency cleansing with no thought of gain except the healing for our economy or with my Big Idea for inspired giving? If others think I am this wonderful and jump on the bandwagon, then can I love myself? I mean sometimes, I can't even love myself (here's some honesty for you) if I don't make the bed. And I can see that sometimes I push myself to see how far I can go with something before I think I might be punished. But punished by who or whom or what?

And all of it brings me back to Zero Limits and ho'oponopono. Technically, there is no out there. Technically, everyone else is perfect (and me too but if I am not experiencing myself as perfect that's where the cleaning comes in). So there is no punishment, but self-punishment. There is no judgment, but self-judgment. And what will it take for me to love myself.

Here's some more honesty. If truth be told I can see I even have a hard time saying I love myself unconditionally or feeling like it is a worthy pursuit to be more self-loving. After all...look at me, I am a mess. Okay, I am not really a mess. But sometimes with the way I treat and think about myself, you might think this is the truth.

It's all relative. Currently, I live in a four-plex which is owned by my life partner's family. At one point because every unit is actually pretty nice considering it is a four-plex (3 bedrooms and 2 baths), the more I decorated it to my taste, the more I loved it and felt like it was the taj mahal. That was a little over a year ago. And ever since, I am less satisfied because I want to live in walking distance to my beloved ocean. You know, like I say on Twitter. I am an ocean dork. I love it.

Has my home changed? No. Just my thought about it. And I know my energy is torn about leaving because my man loves it here with his family. Plus, every day all of his sister's grand children are here playing and being kids. As I watch them, I become more and more convinced about wanting to find a way to return to that place of innocence of a child. I am not sure what age it might be yet or around what age, but there is a time when they have no self-consciousness about there body or how they look or if the universe will grant their desire or any of that.

As I was sitting at the computer contemplating what I wanted to do next, while my brain was trying to help me figure out what was the best next step, something that they mention in Zero Limits is when I am at this place of Zero Limits I can hear the inspiration from the divine. And then I don't even have to decide whether or not I should act on that inspiration because I already know the answer is yes.

I also love how Zero Limits talks about how we like to think we know and we like to think we have the answers and then we will arrive and everything will be magical from that moment forward. So, I love Dr. Len's honesty that even at this point if he is honest, he doesn't really know the why for everything...he still isn't always sure what is a memory playing which has come up in awareness or an inspiration. And so he keeps on cleaning.

So I say take it with a grain of salt when someone says they have your answers. And I am going to try to make it enough that even if my place that I hold in all of this cosmic consciousness is one of silently cleaning, cleaning, cleaning in order to live more and more fully from an open heart in each miraculous moment of now, to let myself be content with that. For I more and more do understand that for every celebrity...for every star...they can't play their role without their fans and followers playing theirs.

And perhaps that is a key to the Peace of I. Every role is important. Every cog. Every spark of the divine. How can I love myself now? How can I love myself in this moment? Especially knowing that I am loved divinely in this moment. I am blessed divinely in this moment. Can't I see it? Can't I feel it? Can't I receive it? Can't I radiate it...flow it and glow it?

Some might say, if you wish to see it...get different eyes. It's my understanding that is the meaning behind the one eye on the pyramid. Until then or perhaps in combination with this understanding, I again continue to convince myself that ho'oponopono is such a wonderful answer and solution as it continues to cleanse my lenses that I perceive the world with until I reach my desitination of zero limits.

Plus, I have to say that one thing I have let go of (or am aware of and willing to let go more and more of) is being helped. I am open to all help. And yet, I continue to see how it is mostly an inside job.

And so can I love myself right now? How about now? And for those of you correct English snobs out there (I love you), you may be thinking, "of course you can. Ask a better question." Will I love myself unconditionally right now? How about now?

And I say through all of this conversation with myself, I am happy to recommit to love. To self love, to loving everything and anything in every moment to the best of my ability. I feel like in this challenge I have sort of through the back door asked for all the ways I haven't loved myself to show up so I can now love them. As I have also committed to taking 100% responsibility for my flowing n glowing well-being, if stuff does come up LOVE is always the answer.

Although having just read that, I would like to shout out to the Universe that this doesn't mean I am looking for you to bring me reasons to love necessarily. It seems to me that if I learned anything from Zero Limits is that love doesn't need a reason. Love is who I am. Love is what I do. Only love. Always love. Flowing love. Glowing love. Radiating love.

I know there is a part of me that will fight this, it already is resistant to it. It already is telling me that love is not the answer...that love is not how I get my desires fulfilled. Still, I remember when I first read Deepak Chopra's book on Snychrodestiny and how he mentions something to the effect that there will come a time when my desire will merge with divine desire...what is best for the collective consciousness as a whole...and it seems to me that time is approaching for me.

Deepak Chopra has long talked about the known being a prison. I was contemplating the other day that when I graduated from High School I could have never contemplated the different technologies and things like that to have made some sort of concrete plan and map of my life.

And I want to let go of the things like, "this happened because ______". I desire to get to that place that there is only one reason. What shows up in my awareness shows up because it is a vibrational match to what is in my consciousness. However, the universe is taking care of me is because I feel taken care of to that degree.

Like I told myself before, if in every moment I do not question why did this show up or it what has shown up is good or bad or worthy of love...of my love...for any and all of this is RESISTANCE...and I simply love it all with my heart as open as I may allow it to be...and this is my consciousness...then pretty soon my outer will match my inner (for sadly there is a time lag...okay, let me love that too). And then maybe I won't wake up anymore feeling low...everyday I will wake up feeling only joy and love.

And as I hear the kids upstairs watching, Finding Nemo, one of my favorite movies EVER, I am reminded to "Just Keep Swimming".