Wealth is a state of being, not a decision.

Back in 1994 this friend of mine who is an Eckist (she belongs to a church called Eckankar) who was lovely enough to share her temple and some of their seminars and the like with me. Eckankar has what they refer to as a living spiritual master who might sort of be likened to the Pope for Catholics.

In the beginning when we would go to events and I knew this Master would be there, I would always be nervous because I thought that a Master was someone who could see all your faults and everything you'd ever done wrong and what a bad person you were and I hope you get the gist.

Later, I was enlightened enough to understand that nothing could be further from the truth. A true spiritual master sees each of us with Divine Eyes or with spiritual perfection. This is actually the way Jesus was technically such a powerful "healer". Jesus, the Christ, saw straight through whatever illusion his brother or sister child of God was under the "spell" of (literally a spell, which all mistaken beliefs...and let me be clear that a mistaken belief is one in discord with the truth of our divine self) which was manifesting as some form of illness.

Also, as Jesus, the Christ, was a tuning fork for Divine Love he was able to connect with that spark and return his brother or sister back to harmony with their innate flowing and glowing divine love well-being. As Jesus, the Christ, is and every shall be a tuning fork for the Divine it makes me wonder if the popular "WWJD?" would have been a more accurate slogan if it would have been "WWJB?" Who would Jesus be?

You know I almost didn't write this blog post and was going to save it. And then I realized, why? I am doing this just as much for anyone who reads this as I am doing it for my self. Why wait? The time is NOW. And remember, I have elevated myself to the unlimited plan. So, who's counting? And even if someone is counting, why should I let that deter me? If they have a blog, they can determine how many posts a day they will write. This is my blog.

Oooooh a little bit of a rant. I kind of enjoyed that.

Okay, so the real reason I was inspired to continue on is that as we make the transition from feeling like wealth is a decision to understanding that just like love, wealth is a state of being. Wealth is always and ever present. If we are not perceiving it, it is because we are being distracted by the virus of scarcity and/or trained to believe wealth can be absent and can only be present under certain conditions or certain "doings".

So, as you make the transition, even if outwardly it appears like nothing has changed, seek to keep looking again in each moment to see the wealth that is ever present.

I know something I tend to do is look outside to validate if I am "doing it right" inwardly with my consciousness. And if it hasn't shown up yet I tend to become frustrated and assume it won't. So, I'll stop looking for it and stop expecting it and assume there must be some other "secret" or "trick" I need to find out about and then....

Did you know God's delays are not God's denials?

Did you know that our consciousness isn't even really about asking. Manifestation isn't really about asking. It's more about a projection of intention and attention like the old time film projectors. Each frame of the film starts off blank and then filled based on the energy and vibration we radiate via our intention and attention. In other words, the answer is always "Yes". Yes to whatever is on the "film". Whatever is on the film is what gets condensed into matter and becomes material. Imagine then how your film may look in the universal projector if you are intending wealth while having your attention on the virus of scarcity. If your attention is distracted by the virus of scarcity, how can you expect to "see" wealth? The wealth that is ever present and the ONLY thoughts on the subject entertained in Divine Mind.

And if your mind needs for the time being to stick to the Law of Attraction paradigm of ask, believe, receive...then perhaps it is helpful to define specifically what the process of "asking" actually means to the universe and in regards to this universal law.

As with yesterday's design (which many of my designs come out of my desire to create a touchstone for me to help me remember something I desire to remember), I created today's with the idea that it is up to me (by taking full responsibility for my well-being) to see the ever present wealth and be aligned with the truth that wealth is who I AM.

What I found was interesting is that right after creating it and knowing I would include the design in this blog post and create a CafePress shop for it (not MySoti in this case because CafePress offers the ability to put the design on items that really would be more appropriate to being a touchstone like stickers or mouse pads or journals and such, to visit the shop, click here) the thought floated right up into my awareness that perhaps this was wrong or inappropriate or others would think I was bad for being so crass as to depict someone seeing dollar signs.

And yet, how perfect. It just goes to show that I have judgements about wealth and money in my consciousness that are not aligned with Divine Truth. As these float to the surface of my awareness it is an opportunity to cleanse them and replace them. 'cuz if they are in my consciousness, they are stealing from my wealth and full flowing and glowing divine love well-being experience I would be having in this present moment. Bring on the ho'oponopono.

And how will I know when I may cease with the cleansing? When I look at the design and only love surfaces.

Okay, I think I'm done. I got some cleaning to do. Blessings and Love to all of you. Happy Cleaning.

How to be a "Power Generator" for the planet.

Thank you so much to Rebecca Marina, Prosperity Queen, for this exercise.

How to be a "Power Generator" for the planet.

In a recent meditation, spirit asked me to share a simple exercise with you.

Most of you who get my letters are "light workers".

You are doing a great service to others on the planet just by your willingness to share light.

Here is a "Power Generator" exercise from spirit:

A. Think of yourself as a power generator. Imagine you are absorbing millions of watts of light from sun or any of God's creation. Fill yourself up to overflowing. Then, imagine you are spraying this energy all over the world. Imagine you are traveling the universe on a magic carpet and spraying Light everywhere you go.

Why do this simple exercise?

Spirit says, there are many who feel so low, they cannot even conceive of absorbing any light by themselves. By being a Human power generator for them--you help a great deal. It is like "pre-digested spiritual food" for someone so weak they cannot feed themselves.

I bless you for listening and for doing the exercise. You may not know the tremendous good you do 'til you get back home to the other side.

You can find out more about Rebecca at http://www.rebeccamarina.com

Okay, I find it interesting how much I had been thinking about this exercise and that it might be a great practice and how it would be good to share.

Yet, as I was retyping it to include here (which actually was my only intention) I realized how much we can allow ourselves to blindly accept a diagnosis and treatment.

And how about a month ago, I would have been all over this.

Now I've told myself I have taken that leap (even though it really only was like a baby step) and jumped out of the hamster wheel into living from divine love, flowing and glowing well-being truth.

As I was watching last night's episode of the season premier of House the thought flowed in about my new favorite saying that begged me to design something around it, "fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity."

Well, seeing anyone or anything as less than flowing and glowing well-being as the way to manifest flowing and glowing well-being is like screwing for virginity.

I know I couldn't really come up with something more succinct and clever. I live with that.

Again, though, that is what Dr. Hew Len mentions. And it ties in with my design from yesterday with the peace signs placed in the eyes. How can I see discord and disease and anything but perfection "out here" and think that will ever allow me to see flowing and glowing divine love well-being "out here". I don't know what the icon for perfection or flowing and glowing well-being would be, but if I'm not seeing it...how can I ever expect it to manifest.

So, again it comes back to being so secure in who YOU ARE and who I AM and what everything is in truth the way it was meant to be perceived with divine vision, is that it is all perfect...all the glory of God made manifest. And to not allow myself to get sucked in to believing anything that isn't real or perceiving or seeing with my physical eyes anything that isn't real. And if I do, then I ask myself to forgive myself for this.

You know, I've known for over two years that their are only thoughts of wealth in divine mind. And I've paid for and sought out all sorts of practices that will help me manifest money and wealth. Only to feel like the real "trick" or "secret" and I don't even want you to pay me for this because you will only believe it will work if you are in a vibrational match with any of what I talk about in my blog.

Again, it's like the fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity. It's like the love is a state of being, not a decision. Well, wealth is a state of being, not a decision. At this point I truly believe that in divine mind there is never a debate about whether the I AM THAT I AM is poor or rich. Divine Mind has right of consciousness knowledge. Divine Mind knows thyself. Divine Mind knows it is the epitome of wealth and thus only sees and experiences wealth. Thoughts of poverty or not enoughness, etc. are never even engaged or contemplated.

Now I understand the real "trick" in all of this is that you may look with your physical eyes and think, feel or say "but I'm not rich, where's my money, I can't pay my bills" or whatever variation on that theme you tell yourself in any given moment. And know I am not immune. To me this has always been my "issue".

And I could even on some levels intuit over the last two years that all the continuing to feel lack is my "issue" was holding me back from the very thing I desired. And with the knowing Divine Mind only thinks wealth, I somehow understood that doing what Divine Mind does was the answer. Yet, I continued to feel like how can I claim my wealth and say I am wealthy and ONLY think thoughts of wealth when I look with my physical eyes and don't see it.

And I continued to stay on that hamster wheel of "so I just have to figure out how to get money, start a business, win the lottery, etc." and all the time there is another part of me that wanted the "Heaven on Earth" kind of understanding that my wealth comes ONLY from SOURCE regardless of my perceptions.

So, again, I can see that I MUST cease from letting myself be distracted from the shiny objects my gaze my be led to look at that try to convince me that the virus of lack and poverty are real. Now isn't that Mastery? I master my vision, inwardly and outwardly, to ONLY see the truth...to only perceive the truth...to only vibrate in harmony with the truth of flowing and glowing divine love well-being.

And for whatever reason, the idea that wealth is a state of being, not a decision...well, I just know that will help me Master what I seek to master.

Then I will no longer be "secreting" for wealth is like screwing for virginity. I will be "being divinely wealthy for wealth is like abstaining from sex for virginity."

And in those moments of NOW before I reach the tipping point where my consciousness just automatically takes over this process for me and I truly become on every level "being divinely wealthy", I most certainly will continue with my ho'oponopono.

To the divine as I make the love connection, I say, "I love you."
To myself for stealing from my perfect well-being with a mistaken thought, word, deed or feeling, I will lovingly say, "I'm sorry. Please forgive me."
To myself for the forgiveness and to Divine Love for cleaning and clearing this imperfect vibration and replacing it with pure Divine Love, I lovingly say, "Thank you."

And so it is.

And to all of you out there who show up in my life to either help me clear all in my consciousness unlike divine love and flowing and glowing well-being or to all of you who show up in my life simply to share the love, I say,
"Thank you. I love you."

you know what they say about appreciation...

...especially if you are "feeling" it...you know, heart-felt, authentic, genuine.

So a shout out of appreciation to the three gals who co-created the co-creator social network, Sandy Grason, Lilou Mace and Laura. http://www.cocreatingourreality.com

Also, to Stahsha S. of Heaven on Earth LA and everyone who was present for the Grand Opening and made it the unique and wonderful experience it was. http://www.heavenonearthla.com

Okay, if I really got going I'd have to thank me and God and life and love and peace and the internet and digital cameras and blogspot and google and twitter and facebook and yahoo and being able to type and living so close to the ocean and well, I'm still on the internet over 3 hours after I thought I was going to finish doing what I wanted to do. So, I'll leave you with my stream of appreciation and perhaps it may inspire you to....

Day 31, Saturday, September 19, 2009

As mentioned yesterday, I had the immense pleasure of attending the opening of the Heaven on Earth LA Center (7122 Beverly Blvd, LA, CA 90036, 310.804.3093 http://www.heavenonearthla.com)

You know sometimes I am so thrilled that I've had the opportunities I've enjoyed on my spiritual path to spend a lot of time alone doing what I desire and having very little "seeming" outside influence on how I define and see myself. It seems like it makes it easier to stay in the peace as much as possible and be more observant whose voice is in my head, etc.

It also helped me notice that for the most part I didn't care so much about how I looked or what I was doing unless I felt the need to be out in public or interacting with others.

So with the new and oh, so wonderful shift in perception of myself about love and well-being and beauty and wealth and health and those types of things...as a reminder, since these are descriptions of divine identity then these are descriptions of my I-dentity. That these are states of being. Unchangeable. Not decisions about me. And these attributes of my true I-dentity are always present even if I choose not to see them or define myself in such a way.

It's like binary code. They are always ON unless I purposely turn them off and choose to think I am something I am not.

And the thing about deciding I would not let myself get sucked in to any sort of "I need to be healed, something is wrong with me" which I consider living life as if you are the hamster running on the wheel in the cage.

Anyway, what was wonderful about yesterday, besides all the new wonderful things and other divine brothers and sisters I was introduced, is that it was a chance to see how much I could maintain this self I-dentity.

I really noticed how much I am caught up in the whole body image thing and that I have some sort of bizarre expectation that if I don't look a certain way who will really want to know me or like me.

And while as I write this I can see very clearly how totally silly this is and how I don't even expect it of anyone else...it still is in me. So, instead of resist it, I chose to love it as much as I could. And truth is when I was really in the moment of filming what was going on and enjoying myself, I really didn't have it in my awareness.

I did notice at one point when someone felt my shoulders and asked me what was wrong with me that I was so tight in my shoulders, instead of (remember my phone analogy of someone calling asking for Rosie and me easily being able to say, that's not me...you have the wrong number) mentioning my new truth and embracing this opportunity to say that's not me, I am flowing and glowing with well-being, etc., I let myself experience this person's healing.

Here's what could be a little interesting. I know on one level what this person was doing was sharing their gift with me and extending this service as a form of love. Yet every time I affirm that I am in need of healing, I've turned off the light of truth that is who I am.

Remember when I said that initially, being honest, I got into spirituality to feel better about me. To love myself more. At the time, I didn't understand that I am spiritual. It is the very essence of my being. And no matter how many spiritual exercises I do, none of them can ever technically make me more spiritual than you or any other spiritual being on this planet or in the universe or the cosmos, etc. Only to realize this now about love and well-being and wealth and health and beauty and joy and you get the gist.

Well, it's clear this next step by not engaging in the virus, by being clear about the truth of who I AM is so very desirable if for no other reason that it now keeps me from stealing from myself.

If I am wealth and I know I am wealth and I am always wealth...no one or nothing can change this or ever take this away from me. It's not something I have. It's not something I choose. It is who I am. I walk away from all the thoughts, feelings and beliefs that have held me hostage and believing that somehow, some way someone else can ever keep me from my wealth or that wealth comes from any one or any thing or any way than SOURCE.

Okay, that's enough for today.

Day 24, Saturday, September 12, 2009

I love the people on FB who seem really appreciative for everything. I want to be that being 24/7. I have time, right? I am eternal.

I'm also not a huge fan of James Arthur Ray, but he is a FB friend and today I loved his post. "Since you can choose your own beliefs, choose three new, empowering beliefs that will assist you in living the life you desire and deserve."

I believe I mentioned in an earlier blog that I've been having tons of inspiration. Almost more than I can handle in the sense of getting them out in a seeming timely fashion. One inspiration was to create a "what if" channel on YouTube.

I sort of have to laugh 'cuz I didn't get it at first that I could have my own YouTube channel and now that I am loving (and I would have never guessed I would love this...so you never know unless you try) using my digital movie camera and have over 50 "shows" on my channel (and not that I am the greatest or anything but ametuer, but I like that I am ametuer)...I get it.

So, I so could see clearly in my mind a channel dedicated to "what if's". Beyond the awesome occurrence of seemingly having an inspiration simply show up in your consciousness, the "what if" seems to be a very close relation to imagination and the creative process.

My actual inspiration has to do more with asking those wonderful well-beings under 10 years of physical age things like, "What if cows are purple, then what color do you think their milk will be?" or "What if you were president." or "What if you were a super hero, what super power would you have?" Things like that.

And then with the way you can grow a channel and get subscribers and connect with hub pages and squidoo lenses and the like so you get some income coming in via ads, etc. to somehow connect it all so that the kids who participate could get money donated to their school. And somehow fashion it so that kids would have real experience ways of the different things they can do and create on the internet.

This is my challenge to you and I today in marrying the "what if" with the you can believe anything, "what if you replaced three disempowering beliefs with three empowering ones, how do you feel your life would change?"

Now go.

And you know what? I had a thought I wanted to share in today's blog and it totally escaped me and so I started writing all this and as I finished, it popped back in. Interesting. Amazing.

It did have a "what if" reference and it had to do with living in the moment. And it had to do with what if we really were be able to not only let go of every past moment so far, but we forgot everyone of those past moments...so each moment was fresh...refreshed and fresh. It sort of blows my mind because there would be no continuity. But then I would let go of what appears to be a somewhat crippling belief that for the most part for me is if it has never happened for me before, what has changed that makes me expect something I desire (and has neverhappened for me before) will suddenly appear for me today?

Which I know is a silly belief because lots of things I have never experienced before happen in my life.

I think sometimes it is like the saying, you can make anything with a really good recipe or really great instructions. And for some things I feel like I just want that definitive set of instructions and then move on. Somehow I can't seem to get my hand on that recipe. Which makes me think, "what if I did?"

P.S. I continue to take the time every day to ask for the currency to be cleansed. And just as I wrote this maybe I should update so that if you have asked once, then subsequent practice should be appreciating the willingness of the Divine to maintain the cleansing of our currency. "What if" someone asked me for the same thing every day? How would I feel? Okay, this is interesting.

Also, if you would be so willing, I will continue to promote "inspired giving". To check out "inspired giving", click here. After, you can check out currency cleanse by clicking on the currency cleanse page. Thank you.

Day 23, Friday, September 11, 2009

Whoo Hoo!

I had written earlier that I was waking up with the need to amp my vibe 'cuz I didn't just wake up feelin' good and lovin' life, which is the American Well-Being catch phrase.

Now here it is only day 23 and this morning I did wake up feelin' good and lovin' life...really appreciative. And I have so much I want to do regarding Big Ideas for on-line presences and the like and yet, when I actually got to my computer and started going through my routine...I'm just not feelin' it.

I know part of it is 'cuz I spent almost all day yesterday "chained" (there's a feeling word for you) to my computer. And while I loved what I was doing, and technically what I did a second ago should have no influence on what I am inspired to do in this wonderful, amazing, magical present moment of NOW...I can see that I do allow that to influence how I feel.

Remember, I want to be the thermometer, not the thermostat. Still, I am going to honor that and look to do something that easily amps my vibe and I feel good enjoying. I'm not sure what that is yet, but I wanted to write about how I can let it be okay for me to go and do what I feel inspired to go and do.

Feelings...open heart...love it.

And I continue to toy with the phrase I am longing to design something around.

Any comments:

Where love is fear is not. Fear is not where love is.
Love is where fear is not. Where fear is not love is.
Love is where fear is not. Where fear is not is love.

I won't say which I am leaning toward. I love that it helps me remain in trust in the support, love and blessings of the Divine and the Universe. And how this focus on this journey helps me be more aware of identifying myself as a being who is flowing and glowing with divine love well-being. I have this excellent guided meditation I can listen to that reminds me that the truth of me is that I am not my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions, etc. I am zero limits. I am the glory of God made manifest. I am pure potential in every moment of NOW, which is technically all there is. Don't look outside to define me. Look within. Feel within. Open my hear. Love is the most powerful solvent for fear. For where fear is love is not. Love is where fear is not. And now we have come full circle.

And so it is.

P.S. I would still love for anyone who is reading this to look into currency cleansing. Click here to find out more about it. And I created the malibu currency cleanse video which includes the exact intention you need to align with (and includes simply listening as your declaration of intent to the universe) and a lovely shout out of appreciation to the Divine for all the wealth being circulated in your life.

Thank you. I love you.

Day 19, Labor Day 2009

Tiara Tuesday

I almost forgot and then the universe gave me a nudge. One of my FB friends' profile photog is of her wearing a tiara. I am going to be creating hub pages and squidoo lenses and think I should do one for Tiara Tuesday. It's really a state of mind...a feeling. If you wear a Tiara how do you feel? And really it is about feeling your royal Divine self that the Celtic Goddess (I was going to look this up) Dana talks about when channelled by Doreen Virtue. Tuesday 'cuz of the alliteration with Tiara.

This morning I was going to go to Point Dume in Malibu to film the sunrise and maybe do a little hike and even boogie board in the water. I left the house to late though. What's a little humorous to me is that I am not a morning person. I love being up later and sleeping in. So, one would think I maybe overslept. And I did set the alarm on my cell phone to make sure I did awake in time.

I couldn't sleep. Insomnia has never been something I've wrestled with. I usually can sleep anytime, anywhere. I am blaming it on the "challenge". I have so many ideas coming in. Well, I've always been a idea person, but I feel like these are inspired flowing and glowing well-being type of ideas. And so, if I have been entrusted with them I don't want to let them pass by. And now I realize I can make pages for Tiara Tuesday.

Anyway, so it wasn't I didn't get up in time, it was I didn't give myself enough time to get to Point Dume to feel comfortable about getting settled and in place to film before the actual sun comes up. And I'm intent on this 'cuz I already have plenty of digital images of sunset. Although, this moring as I was watching the sunrise from home, it made me think if I saw a photo of sunrise or sunset could I tell the difference. I don't know. Does it matter. I love that I my desire to do this is simply because I feel I would enjoy it.

So, Tiara Tuesday tomorrow. Why not? I mean someone came up with the Red Hat idea and look how that took off. I guess this is sort of on that same line. I also have ticket to see the Bonnie Hunt Show. I love her. Her movie, Return To Me. I love, love, love it. When I found out I was going, I watched it again but with the commentary. The movie seemed like such a labor of love and a sort of love note to the city of Chicago, where Bonnie grew up.

I don't like to be the screaming fan type. In a way I don't feel anyone deserves that sort of blind adoration. And yet, as I write this maybe we all do. However, I can admire and honor what they have created...I like that. So even though the idea for Tiara Tuesday came from watching Ellen, if I really had huevos I would get everyone together I am going with to see Bonnie's show tomorrow and we'd all wear Tiaras and we'd bring Bonnie one. So, we'll see how that goes. I mean why not, eh? No excuses. No one should be able to tell me if I can wear a tiara or not.

I think that is enough for today.

Except, of course, for my P.S. Just two more days until September 9, 2009 (090909). I'm still promoting currency cleanse. I am still for visioning and connecting with the vibration of currency and Global Fiscal Fitness flowing and glowing with well-being even beyond September 9, 2009. I think it is called maintenance. And I have already been practicing every day for the last couple of weeks. It takes maybe two minutes tops. Two minutes to cleanse and bless money, the money matrix and the fiscal fitness for the globe. Seems like a great investment to me considering that the truth is we are divine and eternal and loved and blessed and flowing and glowing with well-being. And so it is. Thank you. I love you.

Day 18, Sunday, September 6, 2009

No blog yesterday. Why? Can't remember...does it matter? No. I have one direction...NOW and forward. Wait! Is that two directions?

Speaking of direction, for someone who is normally more in their head and feels better about them self for being "smart" (yeah, if I'm so smart...) I am really appreciative for this 100-day focus on living from my heart or in my mind heart being symbolic of coming more from love than what is the smart choice.

When I am not in the moment (especially if I am involved in something that needs my full attention), I note is most when I am in fear. Worry is a form of fear. Feeling like if I don't see it now in my physical realm then how will it be there when I want it in my physical realm in the future is a form of fear. And if I am in fear, I am not in love. Worry is not a form of love. And I'll say it, I don't feel sacrifice is actually a form of love as much as we'd like to think it is.

I think living a life of divine love in body, mind and spirit means that you live abundantly and so the open-heart, divine love life would be win/win.

What amazes me sometimes is the thoughts I have been having these days. I already said I don't really enjoy the energy of the word challenge. Would divine love really necessitate a challenge? I'd like to think, "no". So I am calling this a journey.

As I was pondering this, it occurred to me since we are asked to set intentions/goals a sort of chicken/egg kind of thing. My intention, of course, is to live life with a more open heart. I didn't even dare to assume at the end of just 100 days I could expect to have journeyed all the way to a full open heart. Interesting.

Do I really know what that would look like, so to speak? How do I really know if I have arrived? Can I assume that like a GPS or mapquest or Jack Canfield that as I take a step needing to only see the next 200 yards ahead, I will be guided to my destination?

Or if the truth is as I also suspect that as a child of the divine I am already flowing and glowing well-being and so if I don't see or experience myself this way then do I really need to go anywhere so much as I need to wake up and clean and clear all the mistaken ways I experience myself so I can see, like Dorothy, I had it all along and I just need a nudge from another to see I've had it all along (the ability to live my life with a full open-heart...to live my life divinely in every moment)?

Please know I don't relook these over for English or grammar errors. I write it as it comes out of my head.

And what is my motivation?

Why would I even desire to do this?

And I will be honest that much of my motivation is that I feel my life will be more naturally joyous by changing my consciousness in this manner. Again, though, how will I know. And I think to a certain extent ('cuz our minds are very much question answering mechanisms even if the answer isn't what you want to hear or may not even be divine truth...in other words a lie), as one of my Facebook Friends identifies herself as living a charmed life, I feel like this is how I will feel about my life by committing to this journey. Since I don't wish to be a copy-cat and very much appreciate non-conformity, I didn't want to use "charmed" which is why I mention "divine".

Truth is and I don't really know where it has come from, I would like to reach God-consciousness and/or unearth it from within. That's where I was inspired to call it my "divine" life. And someone else may actually already be using it, but since I don't know about them and so am not intentionally copying...I am going to adopt this for myself.

And if I am really honest with myself, (as I feel I have written earlier) I can see that my pursuit of spirituality is rooted in my desire to love myself more fully and divinely. I'm not sure where this came from. And perhaps LOVE is just that strong that we are instinctively drawn to what feels more like love.

So I find it interesting as I muse about how it is easy for me to love myself when I feel like I am being a "good" girl, so to speak, which includes anytime I am practicing my spirituality or open-heart love. What about when I am not? I can see I am still in knee-jerk, collective consciousness mode where I then judge and self-punish or self-limit.

My point...it is easy to love when every thing is hunky-dory. Not so much so otherwise. I have put it out there that I would love to work with women and men who have body appreciation and love issues. It seems we are so messed up with our beliefs here with so many mixed messages. It seems from my observations that we feel to look beautiful or hot or sexy or desirable or any words like that, it must in some way involve pain or sacrifice or whatever. And I am not just speaking about overweight people. I am talking about bulemics and anorexics. And for women especially, the pull and tug between wanting to seem desirable to some and not wanting to seem desirable to others and or the fear of rape and abuse and the like. Or that their beauty and youth is what is really their ticket to love and/or being supported by a man and what happens if they lose that just to name a few things.

I love when I take a class on attracting wealth and one of the things that always seems to come up is that most people feel they only deserve wealth if they work really, really hard at something they hate and that others feel is the way you should get money. So I was surprised to find that I had actually found myself having a belief surface that I deserved to have fat in certain parts of my body or cellulite or anything like that because I love ice cream and refuse not to eat it.

And I know from what Abraham Hicks talks about and others who are more spiritually clear than I (at least two others that I trust) that because it really is an inside game and technically there is no deserve or even don't deserve...there's simply what is IS (a match to your current consciousness). I mean I also noticed that I would not judge someone eating ice cream if they are thin, but if I think they are fat...my knee-jerk is they shouldn't be eating that.

It isn't the ice cream. It's our beliefs about the ice cream. And it shows how powerful we actually are. Ice cream takes its cue from us. If we think we can eat it and stay thin and we eat it with love, etc., then we will. If we eat it and think it is going to keep us fat or make us fat or we deserve to be fat 'cuz we eat it...then if we aren't fat yet, chances are we will be.

It brings me full circle to being in the moment as much as I am able to allow myself and loving everything, including myself. Love. Love. Love. Love is always the answer. Love is the most powerful solvent. Love is a heart thing and not a mind thing.

It brings me to flowing and glowing well-being 'cuz this is really the truth of who I am. And like squidoo that I just found out about and am impressed with because they talk about lenses and they already have a tradition of giving...so I am going to put up an inspired giving page on Squidoo. But part of loving myself is seeing myself NOW as more of the Dorothy metaphor where I am being helped to understand that I have always been flowing and glowing well-being. And it is by unearthing this and continuing to EYEdentify more and more with this truth of me that not only will I see my life as full of flowing and glowing well-being, I will be flowing and glowing with well-being.

So does it really matter if I am on a journey to or in the process of unearthing who I already am...as long as when the 100 days is up I am living more of the divine, open-heart life it was my desire to live? What do you think?

P.S. I am still promoting the 090909 currency cleanse. I'm not sure I would know what a world flowing with global fiscal fitness would look like or be like either...in truth...when I try to imagine it. It's just that since love the most powerful solvent, I gotta figure it can't hurt. To find out more, go to www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com and click on the currency cleanse page. Or click here.

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Okay, I am always a little sad when I use OMG, but it had to be done.

I got an email from Brad Yates today mentioning his new program Confidence Beyond Belief that he created with Steve G. Jones, Hypnotherapist. As I was watching Steve's video (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z8sBTx3ODO8&feature=channel), he started mentioning exactly what it seemed I was eluding to earlier. Circumstances and/or anything in the outer world do not define me. It is how I feel about me, knowing thyself, knowing the truth of who I am in the eyes of the Divine, that defines me. Thus, whether I'm on an island doing nothing or in the most raggedy of clothes or even appearing to be homeless from an outer perspective or if I live in a mansion and have a billion dollars...none of that changes how loved, blessed, confident, etc. I feel...I flow and glow and radiate.

So a shout out to Brad Yates and Steve G. Jones for helping me nutshell.

I am flowing and glowing well-being (whether I see it or not) and ALL IS certainly and always WELL. I love you. Thank you.

Day 15, Thursday, September 3, 2009

Today I plan on giving myself a huge, heapin' guilt-free dose of self-honesty. Here goes.

Back during one of the times after we had broken up and then were thinking about getting back together, the man who I at the time was the love of my life and I couldn't live without, told me one of his main reasons for not wanting to be with me is that I didn't seem to have much self-love. Ouch.

How could I not love myself? I probably gave myself 85% of my daily thoughts worth of reasons why I wasn't worthy of self-love yet. Today, almost 10 years later through my spirituality that percentage probably hovers somewhere around 50%.

I also can see I have some judgment towards people who are physically in ill health on a continuous basis. And I can see how doctors and all the energy on health care and people having so much focus on health insurance, etc. (I haven't had health insurance for at least 7 years and have more than saved a ton of money paying for any health care out of my own pocket than putting any worry on this). Whether they realize it or not, doctors need patients to survive. And so a part of them has a vested interest in keeping all of this going.

After I read Zero Limits, I realized that all of us in the self-help and spirituality mix are pretty much in the same boat. If it appears my livelihood is based on helping broken people, then I have a vested interest in perpetuating broken people because I need them.

It's part of why I started American Well-Being LLC. According to Abraham-Hicks, at least to be fair, in my interpretation, right here and now I am already everything worthy of love...I am already whole, perfect, fabulous, wonderful, brilliant, flowing and glowing well-being and All is Well...right here and now and in every marvelous, miraculous moment of now. So, why am I not experiencing this here and now?

That seems like the million dollar question.

Today is also the start of the second month or day 33 of my actual 100-day journey I told myself I was starting because day 100 would be the day I turn 50 in earth years. 1/3rd of the way through and in all honesty I'm not sure how much progress I feel I've made. Yet, doesn't that have to be okay?

This morning I again woke up not feeling the best emotionally and why don't I wake up just feeling joy? And part of me doesn't want the answer so much as the solution.

And another part of me knows the solution is love. Love. Love. Love. Not just any love, but unconditional love. Can I only love myself if....?

Is that why I am so pushing to have adoring fans who love my blog, or think I'm great 'cuz I am promoting currency cleansing with no thought of gain except the healing for our economy or with my Big Idea for inspired giving? If others think I am this wonderful and jump on the bandwagon, then can I love myself? I mean sometimes, I can't even love myself (here's some honesty for you) if I don't make the bed. And I can see that sometimes I push myself to see how far I can go with something before I think I might be punished. But punished by who or whom or what?

And all of it brings me back to Zero Limits and ho'oponopono. Technically, there is no out there. Technically, everyone else is perfect (and me too but if I am not experiencing myself as perfect that's where the cleaning comes in). So there is no punishment, but self-punishment. There is no judgment, but self-judgment. And what will it take for me to love myself.

Here's some more honesty. If truth be told I can see I even have a hard time saying I love myself unconditionally or feeling like it is a worthy pursuit to be more self-loving. After all...look at me, I am a mess. Okay, I am not really a mess. But sometimes with the way I treat and think about myself, you might think this is the truth.

It's all relative. Currently, I live in a four-plex which is owned by my life partner's family. At one point because every unit is actually pretty nice considering it is a four-plex (3 bedrooms and 2 baths), the more I decorated it to my taste, the more I loved it and felt like it was the taj mahal. That was a little over a year ago. And ever since, I am less satisfied because I want to live in walking distance to my beloved ocean. You know, like I say on Twitter. I am an ocean dork. I love it.

Has my home changed? No. Just my thought about it. And I know my energy is torn about leaving because my man loves it here with his family. Plus, every day all of his sister's grand children are here playing and being kids. As I watch them, I become more and more convinced about wanting to find a way to return to that place of innocence of a child. I am not sure what age it might be yet or around what age, but there is a time when they have no self-consciousness about there body or how they look or if the universe will grant their desire or any of that.

As I was sitting at the computer contemplating what I wanted to do next, while my brain was trying to help me figure out what was the best next step, something that they mention in Zero Limits is when I am at this place of Zero Limits I can hear the inspiration from the divine. And then I don't even have to decide whether or not I should act on that inspiration because I already know the answer is yes.

I also love how Zero Limits talks about how we like to think we know and we like to think we have the answers and then we will arrive and everything will be magical from that moment forward. So, I love Dr. Len's honesty that even at this point if he is honest, he doesn't really know the why for everything...he still isn't always sure what is a memory playing which has come up in awareness or an inspiration. And so he keeps on cleaning.

So I say take it with a grain of salt when someone says they have your answers. And I am going to try to make it enough that even if my place that I hold in all of this cosmic consciousness is one of silently cleaning, cleaning, cleaning in order to live more and more fully from an open heart in each miraculous moment of now, to let myself be content with that. For I more and more do understand that for every celebrity...for every star...they can't play their role without their fans and followers playing theirs.

And perhaps that is a key to the Peace of I. Every role is important. Every cog. Every spark of the divine. How can I love myself now? How can I love myself in this moment? Especially knowing that I am loved divinely in this moment. I am blessed divinely in this moment. Can't I see it? Can't I feel it? Can't I receive it? Can't I radiate it...flow it and glow it?

Some might say, if you wish to see it...get different eyes. It's my understanding that is the meaning behind the one eye on the pyramid. Until then or perhaps in combination with this understanding, I again continue to convince myself that ho'oponopono is such a wonderful answer and solution as it continues to cleanse my lenses that I perceive the world with until I reach my desitination of zero limits.

Plus, I have to say that one thing I have let go of (or am aware of and willing to let go more and more of) is being helped. I am open to all help. And yet, I continue to see how it is mostly an inside job.

And so can I love myself right now? How about now? And for those of you correct English snobs out there (I love you), you may be thinking, "of course you can. Ask a better question." Will I love myself unconditionally right now? How about now?

And I say through all of this conversation with myself, I am happy to recommit to love. To self love, to loving everything and anything in every moment to the best of my ability. I feel like in this challenge I have sort of through the back door asked for all the ways I haven't loved myself to show up so I can now love them. As I have also committed to taking 100% responsibility for my flowing n glowing well-being, if stuff does come up LOVE is always the answer.

Although having just read that, I would like to shout out to the Universe that this doesn't mean I am looking for you to bring me reasons to love necessarily. It seems to me that if I learned anything from Zero Limits is that love doesn't need a reason. Love is who I am. Love is what I do. Only love. Always love. Flowing love. Glowing love. Radiating love.

I know there is a part of me that will fight this, it already is resistant to it. It already is telling me that love is not the answer...that love is not how I get my desires fulfilled. Still, I remember when I first read Deepak Chopra's book on Snychrodestiny and how he mentions something to the effect that there will come a time when my desire will merge with divine desire...what is best for the collective consciousness as a whole...and it seems to me that time is approaching for me.

Deepak Chopra has long talked about the known being a prison. I was contemplating the other day that when I graduated from High School I could have never contemplated the different technologies and things like that to have made some sort of concrete plan and map of my life.

And I want to let go of the things like, "this happened because ______". I desire to get to that place that there is only one reason. What shows up in my awareness shows up because it is a vibrational match to what is in my consciousness. However, the universe is taking care of me is because I feel taken care of to that degree.

Like I told myself before, if in every moment I do not question why did this show up or it what has shown up is good or bad or worthy of love...of my love...for any and all of this is RESISTANCE...and I simply love it all with my heart as open as I may allow it to be...and this is my consciousness...then pretty soon my outer will match my inner (for sadly there is a time lag...okay, let me love that too). And then maybe I won't wake up anymore feeling low...everyday I will wake up feeling only joy and love.

And as I hear the kids upstairs watching, Finding Nemo, one of my favorite movies EVER, I am reminded to "Just Keep Swimming".

Day 12 Monday, August 31, 2009

Life is good.

The tag line for american well-being llc is "feelin' good and lovin' life". I didn't really mean to write that...it just sort of came out. It's how I am feelin' as I write this, which I find sort of interesting since I am about to mention giving (more or less).

I was inspired this weekend after a class I participated in to start offering 20-minute on phone sessions with me for those who have physical body issues and would love to have me teach them some fast and easy tools to work with this on an energetic level.

These sessions will not be free. I am charging $1 for a session and will only schedule four sessions per day.

And I'm just going to put it out there why I am willing to do this for only $1 in such a seemingly informal format.

I don't like those email capture pages that go on and on and on and on when truth is if you are reading it you attracted it for some reason. People don't like to be sold, they like to buy. Search your heart. You will know if it is worth it or not without reading all that other crap (I mean stuff).

I don't like how someone wants to charge your over $100 for something (my fee for an hour session is $77) and offer a money back guarantee. To me, let me try it and see you can deliver and then let me pay you for it. This is why I have a donate button on my www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com web presence. If after sharing our 20-minutes together and investing $1 for the knowledge you feel the information has inspired you and enhanced the well-being in your life, then if your heart prompts you I am open to receiving those types of gifts. In fact, I so would much rather receive money you are inspired from your heart to give than receiving $100 that you forwarded with fear energy all over it.

If you are tired of feeling bad about your physical body, I have some easy to learn and easy to use tools to help you relieve and let go of those feelings.

If you are interested, please email me at lbjork9999@yahoo.com telling me you are interested and the best ways for me to contact you to set up a day and time.

And truth be told, you are also doing me a favor. One of my tools I use and we will share is ho'oponopono. So during our sessions I will be clearing energy for me and for you. So, thank you for your willingness to help you and me. I really appreciate the help. And I am excited to meet all who take me up on this offer.

Here's to our flowing and glowing more and more energy in harmonious alignment with our divine well-being.

And so it is.

Day 7, Wednesday, August 26, 2009

So today would have been my dad's 76th birthday. Happy Birthday, Dad. Thank you for the blessings you helped my soul experience. I hope wherever you are in your soul's journey it is filled with love and blessings. My dad passed over ten years ago.

So, if you are reading this, where's day 1 through day 6? I had already set up a google account for blog spot under a business my son and I share, http://www.beerchillin.us. What's a so called spirituality fanatic doing with a business that more or less promotes beer? That's another story. And the real gist of our business is we sell beer steins and promote beer as a way to chill...not to get drunk. And the stein as a way of enjoying your sudsy beverage in a way that makes you feel rich as you drink whatever beer you enjoy. As a way to celebrate and toast to the good life.

Since the account is in my name, when I decided to do this blog Google wouldn't let me cancel this account to set up another. And try as I might to get them to and/or figure out how to add the blog I started be part of this account...I couldn't figure it out.

This seemed a great compromise since I was only five days into the old one and everything I've written I have also posted to my CCOR (co-creators of reality) page.

After today, this blog and my CCOR page will track again. Whoo hoo!

If you are interested in my CCOR page, you can click here.

If you are interested in the CCOR page for the 100 day open-heart challenge, click here.

Today, I was excited to see that Dr. Joe Vitale's book Attract Money Now is available to download in digital form for reading. If you would like to get your own copy, click here.

I read it. I loved it. And yet, to be honest, I was a little sad by it 'cuz he includes everything I've been feeling and sensing as truth but didn't have the confidence to write myself. And there is a part of me that feels like why try? Why reinvent the wheel when he has expressed it so wonderfully. And it sort of makes me rethink what it is I feel like I have been going for with the business I wished to start. And so there is some sadness.

And yet, part of me feels like in as much as it has derailed me a little, I still feel committed to living more from my heart. And that what Dr. Joe Vitale describes as Dr. Hew Len's philosophy of life where you actually get to the point of not even needing intention (except that I still must have to have the attention to follow what Dr. Hew Len teaches, eh?) is such an open heart place.

Also, as I was writing stuff (if I read a how-to type book, I like to write out things that sort of shout-out to me as something I want to remember from the book as a way of reinforcing the teaching), it occurred to me that while my time reading the book and spreading the word is well-spent, I am still in love with the whole ho'oponopono concept and how it applies to living with an open-heart.

Dr. Hew Len basically puts it out there that in every moment I should be silently saying the 10 ho'oponopono words (I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you.) to myself and to the divine. This tracks with my intention to be 100% impeccable. And to be more like God consciousness in the sense that Dr. Hew Len doesn't limit what I see as divine as being simply other humans. It's all divine. It's all energy.

What occurred to me in the context with the Law of Attraction is that if in evey moment I simply practice as Dr. Hew Len describes and continue to repeat (or as much of every moment as I am able and think of it consciously until I get to every moment) the 10 words, well, when is the point of attraction? Right. The point of attraction is in the point of attention, which is in the present moment.

It stands to reason then that if in every moment I am continually reciting the 10 words (and maybe, I cheat a little, but don't think it can hurt 'cuz I like to repeat what Brad Yates says in his ho'oponopono video and you can see a lot of this and more if you, click here) and pepper in the "Thank you for the blessings I have. Thank you for the blessings I am receiving" then in every moment I am vibing more and more in harmony with divine love.

And as I vibe more in harmony with divine love, then what could there be to fear. What must show up...what I must then start attracting on a moment to moment basis is only going to be more and more in harmony with divine love. Sometimes I like to misspell harmony and spell it har-money, as harmony with the divine is harmony with all aspects of well-being, which include health, wealth, beauty, love, joy, peace, etc.

I mentioned too, that ho'oponopono is simple. It's easy to remember. It almost makes it easier to have me be told to just do it all the time 'cuz then I don't have to remember when to do it and when not to do it. And here's what seems like it will be the other benefit: it helps me let go of resistance. It is helping me let go of deciding if what is showing up is something I should like or not, instead it simply frees me to love it and then say next. Or as the prayer implies. By repeating it, it frees me up to either forgive myself for whatever was in my consciousness that I attracted it into my awareness. Then I appreciate it and love it and bless it and send it on its way for the next best, more in alignment with divine love and well-being experience to show up.

And I have to say that this sort of thing has opened the door for me to love a seeming virus threat and love it out of my life. And it opened the door from unexpected cash to start flowing in from places I so didn't expect.

Okay, so all in all, the book was worthy of the read. I would recommend it. And how can you go wrong with such wonderful information shared freely and requiring only an investment of your time.

It's going to be exciting to see how my life is different at the end of the 100 days. On day 83 I will turn 50 in earth years. I've always had a feeling I would live past 100 physical years in this lifetime and in a fabulous and fit and full of well-being way. This could be an awesome way to herald in the second half of this glorious incarnation.

And so it is.

P.S. Brad Yates has a wonderful (at least in my opinion) program he did in conjunction with Dr. Joe Vitale that incorporates EFT, called Money Beyond Belief. Probably the best $49 investment I've made in a long time. One of the things included in the program is a short audio to tap on embracing change. Had I known at how helpful just this short audio would be, well... If you are interested in finding out more about this program, please click here.

Welcome

This is my blog.

How original is that?

I know...so many blogs. Why bother?

I want to record my journey, the journey that tracks my decision to participate in the 100-day open heart challenge which started on August 20, 2009. So, I am really writing this for me. I promised myself I would not get hung up on whether what I was writing was good or perfect English or anything anyone cared about. Yet, I would still put it out there and mention it on Twitter (go #TwitterPower) and just let whoever seemed attracted to be attracted in whatever way they felt attracted.

And so it is!