Day 30, Friday, September 18, 2009

LOVE IS a state of being...not a choice.

Thank God for the 100-day open-heart challenge. I noticed someone else in the network had an AHA moment yesterday and I have to say mine was the above understanding.

How could I not feel glorious today? I was able to make the leap from "LOVE IS where fear is not...where fear is not IS LOVE.", which is a true statement...but sort of to the next level as it is not the entire story. LOVE IS ALWAYS PRESENT...and thus, real. Fear is simply an illusion 'cuz if you take your attention off it, you find it disappears.

So, like I said yesterday, let me off the hamster wheel. I was thinking that at this point I built stepping off into something so huge that I feel like stepping off will be like a huge drop and something to fear...like I could somehow get hurt (which is sort of silly for I am divine and eternal) only to find the step down is only an inch or so. All that fear. All that worry.

You know just like love is always present, wealth is too. Love is abundant by definition. Same with health. Same with flowing and glowing well-being.

It's always here...always.

You know I had lunch with my friend yesterday and was talking about the decision I thought I had to make and how I just couldn't understand how I could continually tell and treat someone like I love them because I do, do, do and they just couldn't believe it because of their own definition and beliefs about love.

Have you every had that happen as you say something? It's almost like I wanted to yell out, "BINGO!" or "Yahtzee!" or "Ding, ding, ding!" Love is always present, health, wealth, beauty and every good thing that describes Divine LOVE. And it's almost like I keep asking for manifestations of Divine Love to show up in my life and they are here NOW, but I am not perceiving them. So, here is Divine LOVE practically yelling, "here, I am here, see me, I love you. I've always loved you. I'll keep on loving you until the end of time, which technically is never going to happen. So, get off the treadmill 'cuz there is nothing wrong with you and there technically is no one who can take away love from you or wealth or health or beauty except you."

I'd been calling it SELF eye-dentity theft. But I wasn't trusting my own unfolding. I bet it was a year ago where I had one of those AHA moments. I still have a landline at home. I'm not entirely sure why. I continue to contemplate getting rid of it. I think it's 'cuz I like its reception and I have it connected to one of those answering machines so I can screen calls.

Anyway, one day about a year ago someone left a message for Rosie. My name is Lori. It was so easy for me to simply flat-out, 100% tell myself "that's not me!" and be done with it. Don't look back. And it occurred to me that if I wanted to get off that hamster wheel then I would use that analogy for thinking about myself as I move forward as anything but the truth of my divine self.

Remember as Rumi said, "You are not just a drop in the ocean. You are the mighty ocean in the drop."

Last night I was so jazzed up with it all I could barely sleep.

I was so inspired I created a design in my head, but decided to wait until today to create it digitally.

You know when I first got on the spiritual path and I would read things like don't watch the news and stop gossiping and stuff like that because it affects your vibe, I was so into it at the time I remember thinking "what will I talk to people about then?"

And in this new level, part of me feels like if I don't have to worry about anything anymore and I know I don't need to be "fixed" or "healed" anymore, what will I do now? And/or what will I talk about with people now?

The thoughts flowed in something to the effect that now your motivation and desires will shift from fear-based and what do I have to do to survive to experiencing simply for the joy of it. "Let me try this. That was fun. Let me try that now." And so on.

Of course, I must "pimp" my new design here.

I think it is so interesting when we stop to really look at our beliefs and the like how so many are very contradictory and really not reasonable.

It's why I loved this saying when I saw it and it seemed to "beg" me to design something around it. The fact it involves promoting PEACE didn't hurt either.

"Fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity."

Enjoy!

And P.S. I'm still cleansing currency. I'm still about inspired giving. And I have started a new blog about t-shirt designing. So, if you design t-shirts, please contact me. I'd love to feature you in the blog.

And is this a coincidence? Don't tell me Divine Love doesn't love a great "wink" to us all. Tomorrow, through a friend of a friend, I will be digitally filming the grand opening of a place for all sorts of spiritually-based activities to take place in Beverly Hills. The name of the venue, Heaven on Earth. A sign?

Love to all and Namaste.



As mentioned earlier, the shirt shown below is the same design as the shirt above but tailored to those who like the designs on their t-shirts to be a little less out there.

Love IS a state of being...not a decision.

What a day.

You may not even ever want to read what I wrote earlier today for September 17th.

Then I had a great lunch with my friend Ericka. All the while feeling like I have a decision to make.

You know it just seemed like today was that day when you have been ill and you are all scrunchy and restless and itchy and scratchy...that place right before you know the fever will break. And then there you are...well.

You know when I started American Well-Being, I did because on one level I could really understand that concept that if inwardly I claimed my truth (I AM DIVINE LOVE) then I'd vibe with that and everything that would eventually start showing up in my life would vibe with that.

I might come from this place for a minute or two and then I'd look outward again and nothing much would seem to have changed...so I would doubt myself and my resolve and choose...decide whether I should love myself based on the outer.

I was so excited about coming up with the "LOVE IS where fear is not...where fear is not IS LOVE" quote. Won't every one just want to know me and be my friend now and won't the money start flowing in even more and aren't I such a bright star and blah blah...open my eyes and none of that manifested.

Truth is I realize in going through today...LOVE IS all there is. Love is everywhere. Love is all around. Love is where fear is. It's more like if I am where fear is, it's like I am ignoring love and have chosen to focus on fear.

Which brings me right back to ho'oponopono. I love you. The first 3 of the 10 words. Again, not a decision, but a fact...a truth. I love you, Divine LOVE is technically what the vibe and intent is. The last 7 words, "I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you." seem like they can be explained sort of similar to walking in a room full of love and totally ignoring it 'cuz you are focused only on seeing fear...so you are sort of like, "sorry, I didn't see you there...didn't mean to ignore you. thanks." Divine LOVE wasn't really hurt by you ignoring it, it's just we have manners and it's the thing to do.

So, in all of this gyration I went through today, I again got to thinking about how I received that book, The 4-Hour Workweek, as a gift for my birthday last year. And I wanted to earn my living via the internet and only having to work 4-hours a week. I basically wanted to use Tim's recipe and make it work for me in my life. And initially what I really wanted to do was have my t-shirt designs be such a big hit on the internet that that would be the 4-hour workweek business blah blah.

I also wanted to do something...earn money based on my spiritual journey...thus the American Well-Being. Anyway, I filled out something on-line the other day where it asked me if I was an expert in something. I didn't have an answer. So as a lot of all of this was filtering through my consciousness today, I realized that the two things I really desire are to be successful with my t-shirt designs and be an expert with well-being.

The thing is...even if I don't become those things or even if I do...neither outcome can technically have an effect on the truth of who I am. Technically, it shouldn't even have an effect on my well-being or whether I love myself or not. I am love. I am a child of the divine. I am blessed. As the Rumi quote states, "You are not just a drop in the ocean. You are the mighty ocean in the drop." What's not to love about that?

So, I am grateful for the clarity. I am grateful to understand that I was afraid to really put myself out there and consider myself a well-being expert 'cuz I was afraid I'd be revealed as a fraud for not practicing what I preach. When the truth is to see or define me as anything but the mighty ocean in the drop, is fraud. Is self I-dentity theft.

I am grateful for the peace. I am grateful for the love. I am grateful for further uncovering the truth.

You know I was sort of thinking of it like this morning I was sort of like that Jaycee gal who had been missing for 18 years and was finally found and returned to her "real" parents. For 18 years she lived a seemingly horrible existence believe herself to most likely deserve her life and that this is who she was ONLY to find out that wasn't true.

So, of course, she will have times when she may feel like she's still that gal even though she knows the truth is that she is not.

The thing I am now seeking to keep going through the remainder of these 100 days is to stop being distracted by the virus. Stop thinking I am ill or something is wrong with me that needs to be fixed or that I need to know the secret of something or someone to heal me...blah, blah, blah.

Instead, I am seeking to focus on the truth that I already am flowing N glowing wellbeing NOW NOW NOW. It's not a choice. It's not a decision. It is who I am. I am wellbeing. I am divine. I am eternal. I am love. I am joy. I am peace. I am beauty. I am wealth. I am health. I am the Glory of God made manifest. I am loved. I am blessed. I am a blessing.

No one's opinion matters. Only mine. It is my inner vision of my SELF that determines what my outer experience will be. And no matter how much I see me as the truth and or know you as the truth of who you are, if you walk into my room and are only looking for fear-based manifestations...you will project that on me and not even see me as the truth.

So, I choose to stop "acting" and choose to be...choose "being well being"

Well, that is oh so much enough for today. Thanks to all of you who share this with me. Thank you God, Divine Love. I love you.

LOVE IS where fear is not...where fear is not IS LOVE

Okay, I couldn't wait until tomorrow.

I came up with this saying 'cuz I noticed that despite being in the CCOR Open-Heart Challenge and how long I've been on this spiritual journey, I am still amazed at how much I find myself in fear in the present moment. And if I am in fear...am I in love? I don't think so.

And as I mention on my american well-being website, I feel it is helpful to have what I refer to as "touchstones". To me a touchstone is something that helps you remember something you are trying to remember or a goal or something like that.

Here's the design in BIG format:


Here's the design smaller, placed over the heart:


Here's a design that isn't all hearts and colorful, in case you don't go for that:


Remember I mention that when I create something like this it is as a touchstone. While I love MySoti, if you like the colorful with the hearts design and would like to be able to have it on stickers or buttons or things like that, then click here.

Enjoy.

Day 25, Sunday, September 13, 2009

Well, 25% of the way through the 100-day open-heart challenge. Feelin' good and lovin' life.

Yesterday, I did a bit more blogging than I intended. I say "that's okay" 'cuz I was inspired to do so.

There's a Deepak Chopra quote, "When I see and feel the life beat of Spirit in every object, I evolve to a higher level of transformation called 'God Consciousness'."

I mention this 'cuz I know I've mentioned before that part of why I got on the spiritual path was to feel better about myself. And to be honest, to feel better about myself compared to others who weren't as spiritual as me. Like somehow that would give me favor with the Divine.

Only to find out that there isn't a single spiritual practice I can practice that can make me more spiritual than I already am. I was created spiritual and technically there is only spirit either in form or in potential.

I'd have to say that I used to have a much narrower view of love. I bring this up because today I accompanied my Uncle to one of his favorite things, a classic car show. The one in Belmont Shores, which is a neighborhood of Long Beach, California. And one of the best attended car shows of the season.

My uncle can tell you things about cars that I wouldn't even pretend to know...his knowledge almost encyclopedic. He'd probably be a great friend for Jay Leno.

Anyway, as we were driving back from the event I was thinking about how much love really was flowing and glowing at this event. Even if a lot of it was for seeming inanimate objects. For again, to believe the divine is not in every atom of energy seems to be another misconception.

Or to admire the beauty. Again, even though I am not a big fan of this kind of thing, I challenge anyone to look at some of the cars that were displayed and not just be blown away by the beauty of some of these amazing vehicles that have been loved and pampered by their owners.

I will leave it at that and send my uncle appreciation for sharing his love with me in this way.

P.S. I am still for currency cleanse and inspired giving. Both can be explored further by visiting http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Also, below is one of my favorite spiritually inspired t-shirt designs. Today, I include the design in primary colors with the choice of having it big on the shirt or smaller with over the heart placement. If you like the design, but are more inclined to pastel colors, that is what I will be including in tomorrow's blog.

A little blurb about my inspiration for the design. I love the meaning of the word namaste as it is a greeting to honor the divine in us all regardless of race, color, creed, etc. That is why I used multiple colors and multiple fonts. Enjoy.





As always, thank you so much for your time to read my blog and/or participate in currency cleanse, inspired giving or buying a t-shirt with one of my designs. Bless you and namaste.

Day 23, Friday, September 11, 2009

Whoo Hoo!

I had written earlier that I was waking up with the need to amp my vibe 'cuz I didn't just wake up feelin' good and lovin' life, which is the American Well-Being catch phrase.

Now here it is only day 23 and this morning I did wake up feelin' good and lovin' life...really appreciative. And I have so much I want to do regarding Big Ideas for on-line presences and the like and yet, when I actually got to my computer and started going through my routine...I'm just not feelin' it.

I know part of it is 'cuz I spent almost all day yesterday "chained" (there's a feeling word for you) to my computer. And while I loved what I was doing, and technically what I did a second ago should have no influence on what I am inspired to do in this wonderful, amazing, magical present moment of NOW...I can see that I do allow that to influence how I feel.

Remember, I want to be the thermometer, not the thermostat. Still, I am going to honor that and look to do something that easily amps my vibe and I feel good enjoying. I'm not sure what that is yet, but I wanted to write about how I can let it be okay for me to go and do what I feel inspired to go and do.

Feelings...open heart...love it.

And I continue to toy with the phrase I am longing to design something around.

Any comments:

Where love is fear is not. Fear is not where love is.
Love is where fear is not. Where fear is not love is.
Love is where fear is not. Where fear is not is love.

I won't say which I am leaning toward. I love that it helps me remain in trust in the support, love and blessings of the Divine and the Universe. And how this focus on this journey helps me be more aware of identifying myself as a being who is flowing and glowing with divine love well-being. I have this excellent guided meditation I can listen to that reminds me that the truth of me is that I am not my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions, etc. I am zero limits. I am the glory of God made manifest. I am pure potential in every moment of NOW, which is technically all there is. Don't look outside to define me. Look within. Feel within. Open my hear. Love is the most powerful solvent for fear. For where fear is love is not. Love is where fear is not. And now we have come full circle.

And so it is.

P.S. I would still love for anyone who is reading this to look into currency cleansing. Click here to find out more about it. And I created the malibu currency cleanse video which includes the exact intention you need to align with (and includes simply listening as your declaration of intent to the universe) and a lovely shout out of appreciation to the Divine for all the wealth being circulated in your life.

Thank you. I love you.

Day 22, Thursday, September 10, 2009

How soon we may forget? Tomorrow is 9-11. Eight years later. I can still remember the moment I saw the tragedy on TV as I was getting ready for work that morning. What was most bizarre to me is that normally I didn't watch TV news or any TV for that matter as I got ready for work. That day I did.

Perhaps it is a good thing to forget. Forgetting keeps me more in the moment of NOW. Feeling bad can NEVER EVER help me vibrate in the present moment in harmony with feeling good. And I, while risking much strong disagreement, can see both sides. I see ours. However, I could also see if I was brought up and nurtured in an environment like those of the hijackers, I can see theirs. Our country does seem to have somewhat of a bully, savior, do what I say sort of vibe.

Okay, that isn't even really what I meant to write about. What I did mean to write about now I feel like I can't even remember. And I must be okay with that. Oh, yes! To be right or to be in peace. Someone on Facebook invited me to join a cause and I declined with the Mother Teresa, if your cause is against something and not for something than I am not interested.

Only to have the person who invited me write back. And truth is, I could have written my declination with a little more tact in word and feeling. Truth was (it had something to do with dolphins) I am so for loving and the highest good for dolphins, but I have a lot on my plate. So beyond taking a few moments to love them and pray for their highest good, I was out no matter what.

So, when this invitee wrote me back, I could have tried to plead my case more in an attempt to seem right about my response or I could simply stay in the peace and be more honest and loving in response. Thankfully, I chose peace.

On a more positive note, I am thrilled I connected with my mommy today. We have had an interesting relationship over the years and in the last at least five years, it has been my intention to simply love her as divinely and unconditionally as I am able in any given moment. We have made a pact to try to connect at least once a week by phone. And this week after a couple of attempts, we finally connected this morning.

I had forgotten about a video we had taken of the outside of her home 'cuz it had recently been repainted in the least used color of the homes in her association in her Arizona home. And it did look quite nice. However, I had never gone over it and done what I do so I could upload it to YouTube and they could see it and enjoy it whenever they like. So, I got that done. And I also went through my 105 minutes of footage I took of yesterday's Santa Monica 100 year anniversary footage.

I have such a new found respect for film editors. Like the new found respect I had for truck drivers when in 2001 I did quite a few 1,500 mile trips in my vehicle. And I have a lot of respect because I am such an amatuer and do the very minimum with the digital images I acquire. I can only imagine when there are multiple cameras, etc.

Just in case, my YouTube channel is 4americanwellbeing.

Okay, enough for today. Love everything for it is all divine, please and thank you.

Always remember: where love is fear is not. Fear is not where love is.

And so I am feelin' good and lovin' life.

Day 11, Sunday, August 30, 2009

Yeah Angels! Had a fun time at the ballpark. Had my first ballpark hot dog. Yum. And best of all, we had great seats, the tickets were a gift and we had two extra tickets that someone bought from us for $20 (which was a really good deal for them as they were $70 face value). So that paid for our parking and one beer. My buddy Torii and Vlad really came to hit. And we won. Woo hoo!

Okay, how exciting. I was just interrupted to answer the phone and my oldest son called to let me know congratulations is in order. He asked his girlfriend to marry him and she said yes. Wedding in 2011.

So, isn't life grand? I think so.

What I also wanted to share was that I agreed to filming job for my friend, Bill. He wanted me to film him at his Sunday morning Tai Chi so he can get better. It was a lovely park and all was going well until one of the gals who is in the group decided she didn't want to be filmed...never mind don't put this on YouTube...even after I assured her I wouldn't put it on YouTube nor was it going to be for anything but instructional purposes for Bill.

Her words were she wanted me to erase every part of the video that she was in. I sort of took it to erase her out of it...not erase everything, which I find to be not unreasonable. And I wanted to accommodate her. I wanted to honor her wishes. I don't enjoy having my image captured in any way either.

As I was leaving I wanted to explain to her again that I would do everything I could to honor her wishes, but I didn't know how to erase just her image from the video. What was interesting to me is that even though she mentioned she was honoring her heart (and isn't this all about my 100 day open heart journey?) by requesting this of me (and I so understood where she was coming from)...it was almost as if she wasn't hearing me. Or as if she didn't expect her desire to be honored by me.

So as I decided to give up trying to explain that I would do what I could to honor her request as it appeared to be falling on deaf ears and was pointless at this point, I couldn't help but be somewhat bothered.

There really is very little drama in my life anymore that seems to directly be something I am involved in. Although, I find now via ho'oponopono that this means I am ready for the next level, full...100% responsibility for everything that shows up in my life even if it isn't something that is a "problem" I am experiencing directly. The very fact it has shown up in my awareness means it is in my consciousness and so it needs to be cleaned and cleared and replaced with divine "zero limits" love and well-being.

If I didn't deal with this it would get stuck in my consciousness and I would have to deal with it at some point.

What is so wonderful is that I have ho'oponopono as a tool to love it and release it. So, I have honored her request and said those magic 10 words until I felt at peace with it all.

I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.

Bless you. Bless me. Bless it all. It's all divine.