Day 58, Friday, October 16, 2009

How's this for synchro-destiny?  I've been hungrily reading Deepak Chopra's new book, Reinventing the Body, Resurrecting the Soul.  I've noticed lately that what seems to be unfolding in my life and questions I am asking are coming up at the same time I find Dr. Chopra is about to finish and publish a new book that answers my questions.  As for me and my physical body, this is perfect for me right now.  I feel a new personal challenge going on to practice what he teaches in his new book for the next 50 days.

At the same time just ten minutes before I found it on Facebook is Lilou's YouTube conversation with Dr. Chopra about the book.  Loved it!

You know what though?  It made me cry.  Cry because I find that I love myself enough to want to heal my stuck energy.  And cry because I have so much stuck energy in my body I've been carrying that I really didn't either want to be aware of or for whatever reason and it was like with this book I have given myself the permission to let it go.  Permission to be less hard on myself.  Permission to stop competing with the outer and understanding that it is really just me competing with something I can never win 'cuz I'll always change the bar or what the barometer is for winning.

Writing a blog called flowing and glowing well-being, I find reference in this book to following what he so eloquently shares I just know will surely enhance the flowing of well-being and my glowing with well-being in my life.  I am so grateful.

I also found it interesting how I am seeing so clearly the power of a decision.  For now I am going to leave it at that.

Okay, as I read over what I've written to this point just to make sure it doesn't sound too wacky, it occurred to me that I started the 100-day challenge with the same sort of excitement having just learned about ho'oponopono.  And I think the thing that can be frustrating about energy work is that we may not be able to immediately "see" in our physical experience how something might actually be beneficial for us.  So, (okay, I'll speak for myself) I tend to abandon it and move to something new and what must certainly be better and more effective.  Yet, as I lay on my bed doing one of the exercises that Dr. Chopra suggests, the awarness did come into my mind that what I was doing was similar to the "I love you. I'm sorry.  Please forgive me. Thank you." of ho'oponopono.

As you breathe in and simply the intention to reconnect with your physical body and live, love and enjoy more holistically (including your whole self in your experiences)...you are basically declaring to the ALL that you love yourself enough to do this for yourself.  As you continue to breathe in with the intent of the exhale releasing any stuck and discordant (not in harmony with divine love) energy while saying your are sorry to yourself for believing you are anything less than the truth of who you are...and as the "please forgive me?" is asked and love answers by bringing into play its cleaning solvent power which allows you to release this discordant energy and as you exhale you release this energy from your being, which Divine Love immediately replaces with divine love energy.  While the whole process can last mere seconds, it can feel as if you've left behind 10 pounds of discordant weight you've been carrying in your physical body.  And so the words "thank you" easily come to mind.

So, it's interesting how I can seemingly forget about ho'oponopono and then come back to its simplicity. 

I also got a kick out of seeing one of the books at Barnes and Noble...the new one by Sherri Shepard, titled Permission Slips.  It didn't make me necessarily want to read it...just that it is amazing what can happen when we give ourselves permission to decide and allow the answers to come.

I also love how it seems I am more aware how this process is helping me expand my definitions of what something included in meaning or how something needs to look.  I had an example, but it has slipped away.  I will simply then sign off now content to have reminded myself of this awareness. 

I love you.  Thank you.


allows love to be the only motivation for life.

Day 43, Thankful Thursday, October 1, 2009

Hey all. Happy Thankful Thursday. I wonder if that is why Thanksgiving is on Thursday.

Anyway, I don't believe in accidents anymore. If I did, I might consider starting a blog called Happy Accidents.

And I would be thankful today for Happy Accidents.

I have been realizing more and more how much I love getting out with my HD Video Camera and filming stuff. It gets me out and outside my box to experience something new. So, how can I get paid for that?

In the meantime, I've been realizing from the opportunity I had to film Heaven on Earth LA's grand opening that I could use a better camera...so what would that be if I am serious and then how do I learn how to use it and what software do I use to edit with and how do I learn how to use that.

Let me back up a moment. For the $100 I paid for my current camera and the $100 I paid for the Sony Vegas Software for editing, it is a small investment for fairly good results for those who just want to be casual about it. I did find out a top of the line low-light technology Sony HD video camera for $1000 that would be just fine most likely if I still want to be more or less amateur. And in doing a bit of looking around, I found out that if you want to be a professional filmmaker, there is a $3000 Sony camera that takes everything to a new level.

What is cool is that I did want to know what that camera was and through a Happy Accident did find out? So, it helps me be thankful that when you ask, you are answered.

Still, I can't seem to find a book on working with these types of cameras to get the most out of them. No Dummies books etc. And no Dummy book on using Sony Vegas software and things to do to be more professional with your editing and also supposedly the software has the capability of allowing me to put together DVDs that can be played in a DVD player and I have no idea how to do that either.

Here's my Happy Accident. I need to find out more about using my editing software for the Heaven on Earth LA project. So, I figured of all the Barnes and Nobles I know of in LA, I'd go to the biggest one I could think of with the assumption they'd have a larger selection and just might have something I could use as a reference. Plus, I hadn't been to the Grove for a while and it is right next to the Farmers Market, which is celebrating its 75th Anniversary this year. The Grove is also a sort of celebrity hangout 'cuz it is also next to CBS Television City. Why not combine a fact finding expedition with an opportunity to get some video?

Looking through the books, which I didn't find any for Sony Vegas Software to help me, I found a book on Blogging as a profession.

About a week ago with all the ads all over for the new season of Californication coming up, it popped into my head that it would be cool to come up with something called Californivacation. I love my city. I love SoCal, as we call Southern California. I could so do a video/photo blog of different places to visit in SoCal.

One of the things I have talked about before with friends is that there truly is so much more to SoCal than I feel the stereotypical traffic and Hollywood and beaches.

And so today, I started my Californivacation: SoCal Style blog. Yesterday, I was a little down for reasons that really don't even matter now and today I am back. What brings me back faster and easier than ever before is knowing I am Divine.

What I loved yesterday when I visited Stahsha, the gal who owns Heaven on Earth LA, mentioned that was awesome is reminding me we are whole beings and to be as present as possible. We are Divine Beings having human experiences. Embrace it all. And I love the idea of Heaven on Earth. Do you think that those in Heaven worry about health or wealth? At least my idea of Heaven was that everything is right with me and now I get to make my rules. Like eating all the ice cream I could ever desire to eat and always being beautiful and perfect body shape. That's what I feel about well-being.

First, we are already well-being in truth. To think/feel we are not is lying. Now that we know that nothing is wrong us how do we want it to be?

So on this awesome Thankful Thursday, I am thankful for life, for me, for my divinity, for flowing and glowing well-being, for the internet, for blogging, for loving where I live and wanting to experience and share it, for our 100-day open-heart challenge and for all of you who read this and I share life with.

Thank you. I love you.

Day 41, Another Glorious Tiara Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Happy Tiara Tuesday everyone.

No blog on Sunday. The pinata was a huge hit and yet I was quite interested in the difference between a kid's party where everyone ones a shot at hitting the pinata or they are sad and this party where none of my 27-year old cousin's male friends wanted a shot. Ended up only my cousin, his mom and his dad and then my cousin again were game. Of course, in all fairness I never intended on taking a shot myself and I'm not sure what all of this says about anything, but...

Needless to say, I was on quite a high.

And then yesterday, not so much. A video I'm putting together for Heaven on Earth crashed on me a couple of times and my internet access was denied for whatever reason.

The real tragedy is that I am so much more aware of when I let outward "anything" define me as being somehow less than. Then it really makes those 10 ho'oponopono words all the more meaningful as I say, "I love you. I'm sorry. I forgive you. Thank you." As much as I am not too thrilled that I notice how much I do this, I am very thrilled that every day I do love myself more and that I truly am sorry and forgive myself for seeing me as something other than the glory of Divine Love Intelligence made manifest that I know I am. And for at least stopping the hamster wheel and stepping out even if I am not completely out.

This morning I woke up with a realization that I have all these great realizations and I know I am Divine and I know I am stepping out of the hamster wheel and claiming my flowing and glowing well-being and stop resisting what is illusion and put my attention on what is REAL and Divine, but I am attempting to do so with my same human mind/thinking when I need to make the transition to Divine Mind and Divine Heart and Divine everything if I really seek to transition...to be clear...to be restored to the perfection from which I emanated and seeing me the way Divine Love Intelligence sees me.

All this only today when I was able to get back online to find that someone had sent me a virtual Tiara on Facebook to remind me today is Tiara Tuesday. I included a copy of this virtual Tiara in this blog. And that it was perfect to be off line 'cuz I would have gone ahead and uploaded the video to YouTube only to find that the person I am basically doing it for probably would not have been as happy without being able to see it first and she is going to get that chance tomorrow.

You know I had meant to mention the Laughing Buddha 40-day Fast that I was planning to start on October 1 and invite any to join me who desired to. I was inspired to create it from lent and wondered if in a way it was the original intent of lent. Lent is about giving up something for 40 days with the idea that if you can give something up for 40 days you can give it up forever. And I could go into a lengthy bunch of words here about what I really mean by that and how it doesn't seem to be like that anymore, but that's not my point.

I tied it into the Laughing Buddha 'cuz I like to think that the laughing Buddha laughs because once he was able to be free of illusion, he realized how silly some of our fears and the like are that we have.

So to marry the two, think of one disempowering belief you have that you could give up for 40 days. And you'd need to come up with an opposite because you want it to be less about putting attention on what you don't want and more about putting attention on what you do want OR I guess more precisely how you no longer wish to identify yourself and how you now choose to identify yourself.

And for me the ultimate was to stop seeing me as illusion and see me more the way Divine Love Intelligence sees me and at least three times a day thank Divine Love Intelligence for restoring me to the perfection from which I emanated.

I still may do this starting October 1. It's just that today I decided I was going to put together a Tiara Tuesday class that I would facilitate at Heaven on Earth LA. I haven't got it all figured out yet and I am not sure that I want to feel like I have it all figured out in order to let it shape itself organically out of the intention. But the intent behind the class is that the Tiara is symbolic of our divine identity. That in the 60 to 90 minutes together it is about practicing coming more from what we feel it would be like to "BE" via Divine Mind than our own mind.

In other words, truly in this class everyone is created equal. We are all divine children of God. We are all the rulers of the rules in our own Queendoms (which is our personal consciousness). From the place of Divine Mind and Divine Love Intelligence each of us is an Albert Einstein, Bill Gates, Oprah, Mother Teresa, etc. from the aspect of possibility. And that we don't let past ways we've identified ourselves and/or how much money we appear to have in the moment decide for us what we can experience or create.

In this class there are Zero Limits, all possibilities. We are eternal and divine and blessed and loved. In this class there are no problems. There is only wealth and health and flowing and glowing well-being, as much as we are able.

And we understand that we are all created equal because each of us has access to the same possibilities in consciousness as any of the rest of us. The same ability to change beliefs and feelings in any given moment of now.

Of course, you don't need to attend the class to do this for yourself every Tuesday. You don't even need a physical tiara to participate. You can use this virtual one as the tiara you wear in your imagination.

What you are doing is rehearsing. Ever notice the word rehearsing is re-hear-sing.

I know a lot of classes are about visioning what you want in order to bring it about. I also can see this and maybe I don't even want to call it a class as much as an experience...The Tiara Tuesday Experience...because it will be more about practicing how to rule your own consciousness Kingdom...practicing how to have consciousness work for you and not vice-versa so that your Kingdom is a joyous Kingdom whatever your definition of joyous is.

What I was getting at is that if what is currently on our "vision boards" based on our human mind, think what might be on our vision board when we get good at utilizing our Divine Minds?

So, Happy Tiara Tuesday. Who knows, maybe I will see some of you at Heaven on Earth LA sharing the practice of getting comfortable with our Divine Identities.

And while I still am so thrilled to have had the realization that to judge somethings as Divine and others as not as JUDGMENT (I never really thought it was before), in my Queendom the idea of these shared Tuesday Experiences really makes my thoughts of Tiara Tuesday and my enjoyment of Tiara Tuesday seem that much more Divine.

thank you. I love you for sharing this blog with me by reading it.

P.S. I still am cleansing that currency. Thrilled to. And have a next level to add in the sense that every time you release wealth into circulation, you remind yourself that you are stimulating the flow of wealth circulation making it that much stronger, healthier and faster for it to return to you. And again with the remembering who we are, our Divine Identity, that money works for you.

P.P.S. Still all about Inspired Giving too. To find out more go to http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Oh and remember...Love isn't a choice, just like health, wealth, joy and beauty and well-being are not choices in the sense that they are always ON and ever present in each glorious moment of NOW. You may decide not to "see" or acknowledge their existence in the moment (that is a choice) but they are ever present.

So, with lots and lots of love and blessings I remind you that you are already flowing and glowing with well-being here and now and always...you must be by definition and the identity you have in the eyes of Divine Love Intelligence. You can resist this truth or acknowledge it and flow with it.

And you know, I believe there isn't any wrong in resisting it or punishment either. It's simply that in the same way if I chose to type a "P" instead of an "A", resistance will create resistance experiences and flow will create flow experiences.

Every Tuesday, I'll be practicing seeing you glowing and flowing 'cuz that's how I choose for it to be in my Queendom. In my Queendom I see everyone as the truth of who they are even if they don't see it themself. And I will ask myself for forgiveness using ho'oponopono if I see anyone or anything in my Queendom as being anything but the way I choose for it to be. I love you. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. For in my Queendom I take full responsibility for Total Well-Being.

Namaste.

How to be a "Power Generator" for the planet.

Thank you so much to Rebecca Marina, Prosperity Queen, for this exercise.

How to be a "Power Generator" for the planet.

In a recent meditation, spirit asked me to share a simple exercise with you.

Most of you who get my letters are "light workers".

You are doing a great service to others on the planet just by your willingness to share light.

Here is a "Power Generator" exercise from spirit:

A. Think of yourself as a power generator. Imagine you are absorbing millions of watts of light from sun or any of God's creation. Fill yourself up to overflowing. Then, imagine you are spraying this energy all over the world. Imagine you are traveling the universe on a magic carpet and spraying Light everywhere you go.

Why do this simple exercise?

Spirit says, there are many who feel so low, they cannot even conceive of absorbing any light by themselves. By being a Human power generator for them--you help a great deal. It is like "pre-digested spiritual food" for someone so weak they cannot feed themselves.

I bless you for listening and for doing the exercise. You may not know the tremendous good you do 'til you get back home to the other side.

You can find out more about Rebecca at http://www.rebeccamarina.com

Okay, I find it interesting how much I had been thinking about this exercise and that it might be a great practice and how it would be good to share.

Yet, as I was retyping it to include here (which actually was my only intention) I realized how much we can allow ourselves to blindly accept a diagnosis and treatment.

And how about a month ago, I would have been all over this.

Now I've told myself I have taken that leap (even though it really only was like a baby step) and jumped out of the hamster wheel into living from divine love, flowing and glowing well-being truth.

As I was watching last night's episode of the season premier of House the thought flowed in about my new favorite saying that begged me to design something around it, "fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity."

Well, seeing anyone or anything as less than flowing and glowing well-being as the way to manifest flowing and glowing well-being is like screwing for virginity.

I know I couldn't really come up with something more succinct and clever. I live with that.

Again, though, that is what Dr. Hew Len mentions. And it ties in with my design from yesterday with the peace signs placed in the eyes. How can I see discord and disease and anything but perfection "out here" and think that will ever allow me to see flowing and glowing divine love well-being "out here". I don't know what the icon for perfection or flowing and glowing well-being would be, but if I'm not seeing it...how can I ever expect it to manifest.

So, again it comes back to being so secure in who YOU ARE and who I AM and what everything is in truth the way it was meant to be perceived with divine vision, is that it is all perfect...all the glory of God made manifest. And to not allow myself to get sucked in to believing anything that isn't real or perceiving or seeing with my physical eyes anything that isn't real. And if I do, then I ask myself to forgive myself for this.

You know, I've known for over two years that their are only thoughts of wealth in divine mind. And I've paid for and sought out all sorts of practices that will help me manifest money and wealth. Only to feel like the real "trick" or "secret" and I don't even want you to pay me for this because you will only believe it will work if you are in a vibrational match with any of what I talk about in my blog.

Again, it's like the fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity. It's like the love is a state of being, not a decision. Well, wealth is a state of being, not a decision. At this point I truly believe that in divine mind there is never a debate about whether the I AM THAT I AM is poor or rich. Divine Mind has right of consciousness knowledge. Divine Mind knows thyself. Divine Mind knows it is the epitome of wealth and thus only sees and experiences wealth. Thoughts of poverty or not enoughness, etc. are never even engaged or contemplated.

Now I understand the real "trick" in all of this is that you may look with your physical eyes and think, feel or say "but I'm not rich, where's my money, I can't pay my bills" or whatever variation on that theme you tell yourself in any given moment. And know I am not immune. To me this has always been my "issue".

And I could even on some levels intuit over the last two years that all the continuing to feel lack is my "issue" was holding me back from the very thing I desired. And with the knowing Divine Mind only thinks wealth, I somehow understood that doing what Divine Mind does was the answer. Yet, I continued to feel like how can I claim my wealth and say I am wealthy and ONLY think thoughts of wealth when I look with my physical eyes and don't see it.

And I continued to stay on that hamster wheel of "so I just have to figure out how to get money, start a business, win the lottery, etc." and all the time there is another part of me that wanted the "Heaven on Earth" kind of understanding that my wealth comes ONLY from SOURCE regardless of my perceptions.

So, again, I can see that I MUST cease from letting myself be distracted from the shiny objects my gaze my be led to look at that try to convince me that the virus of lack and poverty are real. Now isn't that Mastery? I master my vision, inwardly and outwardly, to ONLY see the truth...to only perceive the truth...to only vibrate in harmony with the truth of flowing and glowing divine love well-being.

And for whatever reason, the idea that wealth is a state of being, not a decision...well, I just know that will help me Master what I seek to master.

Then I will no longer be "secreting" for wealth is like screwing for virginity. I will be "being divinely wealthy for wealth is like abstaining from sex for virginity."

And in those moments of NOW before I reach the tipping point where my consciousness just automatically takes over this process for me and I truly become on every level "being divinely wealthy", I most certainly will continue with my ho'oponopono.

To the divine as I make the love connection, I say, "I love you."
To myself for stealing from my perfect well-being with a mistaken thought, word, deed or feeling, I will lovingly say, "I'm sorry. Please forgive me."
To myself for the forgiveness and to Divine Love for cleaning and clearing this imperfect vibration and replacing it with pure Divine Love, I lovingly say, "Thank you."

And so it is.

And to all of you out there who show up in my life to either help me clear all in my consciousness unlike divine love and flowing and glowing well-being or to all of you who show up in my life simply to share the love, I say,
"Thank you. I love you."

Day 30, Friday, September 18, 2009

LOVE IS a state of being...not a choice.

Thank God for the 100-day open-heart challenge. I noticed someone else in the network had an AHA moment yesterday and I have to say mine was the above understanding.

How could I not feel glorious today? I was able to make the leap from "LOVE IS where fear is not...where fear is not IS LOVE.", which is a true statement...but sort of to the next level as it is not the entire story. LOVE IS ALWAYS PRESENT...and thus, real. Fear is simply an illusion 'cuz if you take your attention off it, you find it disappears.

So, like I said yesterday, let me off the hamster wheel. I was thinking that at this point I built stepping off into something so huge that I feel like stepping off will be like a huge drop and something to fear...like I could somehow get hurt (which is sort of silly for I am divine and eternal) only to find the step down is only an inch or so. All that fear. All that worry.

You know just like love is always present, wealth is too. Love is abundant by definition. Same with health. Same with flowing and glowing well-being.

It's always here...always.

You know I had lunch with my friend yesterday and was talking about the decision I thought I had to make and how I just couldn't understand how I could continually tell and treat someone like I love them because I do, do, do and they just couldn't believe it because of their own definition and beliefs about love.

Have you every had that happen as you say something? It's almost like I wanted to yell out, "BINGO!" or "Yahtzee!" or "Ding, ding, ding!" Love is always present, health, wealth, beauty and every good thing that describes Divine LOVE. And it's almost like I keep asking for manifestations of Divine Love to show up in my life and they are here NOW, but I am not perceiving them. So, here is Divine LOVE practically yelling, "here, I am here, see me, I love you. I've always loved you. I'll keep on loving you until the end of time, which technically is never going to happen. So, get off the treadmill 'cuz there is nothing wrong with you and there technically is no one who can take away love from you or wealth or health or beauty except you."

I'd been calling it SELF eye-dentity theft. But I wasn't trusting my own unfolding. I bet it was a year ago where I had one of those AHA moments. I still have a landline at home. I'm not entirely sure why. I continue to contemplate getting rid of it. I think it's 'cuz I like its reception and I have it connected to one of those answering machines so I can screen calls.

Anyway, one day about a year ago someone left a message for Rosie. My name is Lori. It was so easy for me to simply flat-out, 100% tell myself "that's not me!" and be done with it. Don't look back. And it occurred to me that if I wanted to get off that hamster wheel then I would use that analogy for thinking about myself as I move forward as anything but the truth of my divine self.

Remember as Rumi said, "You are not just a drop in the ocean. You are the mighty ocean in the drop."

Last night I was so jazzed up with it all I could barely sleep.

I was so inspired I created a design in my head, but decided to wait until today to create it digitally.

You know when I first got on the spiritual path and I would read things like don't watch the news and stop gossiping and stuff like that because it affects your vibe, I was so into it at the time I remember thinking "what will I talk to people about then?"

And in this new level, part of me feels like if I don't have to worry about anything anymore and I know I don't need to be "fixed" or "healed" anymore, what will I do now? And/or what will I talk about with people now?

The thoughts flowed in something to the effect that now your motivation and desires will shift from fear-based and what do I have to do to survive to experiencing simply for the joy of it. "Let me try this. That was fun. Let me try that now." And so on.

Of course, I must "pimp" my new design here.

I think it is so interesting when we stop to really look at our beliefs and the like how so many are very contradictory and really not reasonable.

It's why I loved this saying when I saw it and it seemed to "beg" me to design something around it. The fact it involves promoting PEACE didn't hurt either.

"Fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity."

Enjoy!

And P.S. I'm still cleansing currency. I'm still about inspired giving. And I have started a new blog about t-shirt designing. So, if you design t-shirts, please contact me. I'd love to feature you in the blog.

And is this a coincidence? Don't tell me Divine Love doesn't love a great "wink" to us all. Tomorrow, through a friend of a friend, I will be digitally filming the grand opening of a place for all sorts of spiritually-based activities to take place in Beverly Hills. The name of the venue, Heaven on Earth. A sign?

Love to all and Namaste.



As mentioned earlier, the shirt shown below is the same design as the shirt above but tailored to those who like the designs on their t-shirts to be a little less out there.

Love IS a state of being...not a decision.

What a day.

You may not even ever want to read what I wrote earlier today for September 17th.

Then I had a great lunch with my friend Ericka. All the while feeling like I have a decision to make.

You know it just seemed like today was that day when you have been ill and you are all scrunchy and restless and itchy and scratchy...that place right before you know the fever will break. And then there you are...well.

You know when I started American Well-Being, I did because on one level I could really understand that concept that if inwardly I claimed my truth (I AM DIVINE LOVE) then I'd vibe with that and everything that would eventually start showing up in my life would vibe with that.

I might come from this place for a minute or two and then I'd look outward again and nothing much would seem to have changed...so I would doubt myself and my resolve and choose...decide whether I should love myself based on the outer.

I was so excited about coming up with the "LOVE IS where fear is not...where fear is not IS LOVE" quote. Won't every one just want to know me and be my friend now and won't the money start flowing in even more and aren't I such a bright star and blah blah...open my eyes and none of that manifested.

Truth is I realize in going through today...LOVE IS all there is. Love is everywhere. Love is all around. Love is where fear is. It's more like if I am where fear is, it's like I am ignoring love and have chosen to focus on fear.

Which brings me right back to ho'oponopono. I love you. The first 3 of the 10 words. Again, not a decision, but a fact...a truth. I love you, Divine LOVE is technically what the vibe and intent is. The last 7 words, "I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you." seem like they can be explained sort of similar to walking in a room full of love and totally ignoring it 'cuz you are focused only on seeing fear...so you are sort of like, "sorry, I didn't see you there...didn't mean to ignore you. thanks." Divine LOVE wasn't really hurt by you ignoring it, it's just we have manners and it's the thing to do.

So, in all of this gyration I went through today, I again got to thinking about how I received that book, The 4-Hour Workweek, as a gift for my birthday last year. And I wanted to earn my living via the internet and only having to work 4-hours a week. I basically wanted to use Tim's recipe and make it work for me in my life. And initially what I really wanted to do was have my t-shirt designs be such a big hit on the internet that that would be the 4-hour workweek business blah blah.

I also wanted to do something...earn money based on my spiritual journey...thus the American Well-Being. Anyway, I filled out something on-line the other day where it asked me if I was an expert in something. I didn't have an answer. So as a lot of all of this was filtering through my consciousness today, I realized that the two things I really desire are to be successful with my t-shirt designs and be an expert with well-being.

The thing is...even if I don't become those things or even if I do...neither outcome can technically have an effect on the truth of who I am. Technically, it shouldn't even have an effect on my well-being or whether I love myself or not. I am love. I am a child of the divine. I am blessed. As the Rumi quote states, "You are not just a drop in the ocean. You are the mighty ocean in the drop." What's not to love about that?

So, I am grateful for the clarity. I am grateful to understand that I was afraid to really put myself out there and consider myself a well-being expert 'cuz I was afraid I'd be revealed as a fraud for not practicing what I preach. When the truth is to see or define me as anything but the mighty ocean in the drop, is fraud. Is self I-dentity theft.

I am grateful for the peace. I am grateful for the love. I am grateful for further uncovering the truth.

You know I was sort of thinking of it like this morning I was sort of like that Jaycee gal who had been missing for 18 years and was finally found and returned to her "real" parents. For 18 years she lived a seemingly horrible existence believe herself to most likely deserve her life and that this is who she was ONLY to find out that wasn't true.

So, of course, she will have times when she may feel like she's still that gal even though she knows the truth is that she is not.

The thing I am now seeking to keep going through the remainder of these 100 days is to stop being distracted by the virus. Stop thinking I am ill or something is wrong with me that needs to be fixed or that I need to know the secret of something or someone to heal me...blah, blah, blah.

Instead, I am seeking to focus on the truth that I already am flowing N glowing wellbeing NOW NOW NOW. It's not a choice. It's not a decision. It is who I am. I am wellbeing. I am divine. I am eternal. I am love. I am joy. I am peace. I am beauty. I am wealth. I am health. I am the Glory of God made manifest. I am loved. I am blessed. I am a blessing.

No one's opinion matters. Only mine. It is my inner vision of my SELF that determines what my outer experience will be. And no matter how much I see me as the truth and or know you as the truth of who you are, if you walk into my room and are only looking for fear-based manifestations...you will project that on me and not even see me as the truth.

So, I choose to stop "acting" and choose to be...choose "being well being"

Well, that is oh so much enough for today. Thanks to all of you who share this with me. Thank you God, Divine Love. I love you.

Day 20, Tiara Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Just got back from The Bonnie Hunt Show taping. I really enjoyed it. As far as the open heart "journey" goes, I love when things like going to Bonnie Hunt present themselves in my life. In many ways, I feel like the more you live from an open heart and stay in the love...the more fun opportunities present themselves to you in your life where you really just need to show up and enjoy. And then be quite grateful to the Universe and yourself for. As amazing as God and the Universe and all of it is divine and wonderful, the universe can not bring you what you have not opened a door for it to bring you via your vibration and consciousness. So remember to love yourself and appreciate yourself too.

Okay, that was sort of the fluff. I feel like what I am going to write now is pretty amazing and could potentially enhance the flowing and glowing well-being in most people's lives.

You know I wrote earlier about squidoo and focus and lenses and eyes and pupils and seeing divinely and all these "vision"-type metaphors. One of my favorite is "when the pupil is ready the teacher appears". Notice I purposely wrote pupil, as yes, it is a synonym for student, but it also is an eye/vision word.

As I've mentioned, I've been flirting with physical body appreciation and love and perhaps a product I could create and for sure one2one sessions with people who wanted help with this. Ever since I first read the 7 Spiritual Laws of Success by Deepak Chopra, which to me was my real herald into spirituality, it totally rang true to me that I should be able to effect any change or create anything with the power of my mind. I am still not as adept at it as I would like, but I am so convinced (and even more convinced with the advent of the collective consciousness with the Law of Attraction) that I continue to practice what I think is possible.

As a quick aside before I get to the meat of this, I have to say that there appear to be two spiritual practice types. Those who practice with the inclusion that their physical body is their temple and so have not really let it go or have always had a great body image and those like me who always felt I was too fat even when I used to be a size 6 and now I would feel like that was thin and awesome...who always felt I had a weight problem (and who sometimes contemplates that it is interesting how my weight issue also seems to correspond with another wait issue, a tendency to procrastination...which still can be synthesized down to not enough self-love, confidence, esteem...choose your name of choice).

Anyway, I love the internet. You know I used to hate email. Okay hate is a strong word, but I was less than fond of it. Now I love the way Twitter and Facebook and Squidoo and YouTube and the like with one post can reach everyone who might be interested in what I have to say and then if they see it great and if they don't that's okay and when they see it is great. And vice-versa. I can see and read about so many different things I may not have otherwise searched for or knew was available and what is going on with others in their lives and the like. And I can do it at a time that works for me. In other words, it's all good.

And I love how this affords the opportunity to knowing one person then means I am soon introduced to someone they know that I am happy to know about and so on and so on. This sort of thing happened with Brad Yates who is now promoting a project he did with Steve G. Jones on confidence. Steve G. Jones is a very awesome and effective hypnotherapist. So knowing Brad who then decides to work with Steve, leaves me confident to check Steve out. And then add him as a Facebook Friend. And now I see what Steve has to offer. And before I know it, I've bought (see I don't like to be sold, but I love to buy...which is the mantra of Jeffrey Gitomer I learned from his book Little Platinum Book of Cha-Ching) one of the many, many titles Steve offers, which happens to be on body appreciation.

I loved the download. It seems powerful and effective. And to be a great answer and tool. And because I am ready for this, a powerful and effective tool showed up. When the pupil is ready... I think I've listened to it four or five times already. Here's what I feel will not only help me flow and glow more gloriously with well-being, but may enhance yours too.

I wrote that it had occurred to me while listening to a teleclass I took on abundance that one of the things they need to remind people of the most is that they deserve wealth. That hearing this got me to thinking about how many of us whether we conscioulsy picked up these beliefs or not do feel we deserve to be poor and deserve to be fat or ugly or any of the things that are in disharmony with well-being because we know we are bad and have done bad things and deserve to be punished and God never said it would be easy and our religions say we are born sinners and can never really trully be saved and any number of bizzare when you really take a look at them in the light of awareness things that we have just bought into through our lives and day-to-day living.

And as I was listening to this Steve G. Jones download for about the third time, a thought popped into my head that I have and so others probably have some beliefs that are something to the effect that it is wrong to be listening to a hypnosis tape which is brainwashing me into believing something that isn't true about me and how dare I think that it can be effective without me having to diet and starve myself and eat foods I don't particularly find enjoyable and then beat myself up about how much I should exercise...kind of like the way they treat fat people on that show "The Biggest Loser". If you are overweight, isn't this what you deserve. How dare you let yourself go? How dare you not follow all the rules of eating healthy and blah, blah? Or as I mentioned in a previous blog post, how if eating ice cream is truly bad then you would have a judgment about it whether a thin person or a fat person is eating it. And yet, I know, even for myself I have these judgments. If I see a thin person eating so-called fattening things, I think nothing of it. But if I see an overweight person, I judge them.

Anyway, I was thinking about how I had this awareness of a belief that it was somehow wrong or could be considered wrong to listen to hypnosis with the expectation that I will morph into my ideal body size with repeated listening. That's when other thoughts started flooding in.

That's when I started thinking that a loving...no...a divinely loving Creator of all that is...the I AM THAT I AM, which divinely loving to me is even a step above and even more of a higher, finer loving vibration than unconditional love, which unconditional love by definition is love not based on any condition...well, this divinely loveing Creator would in my opinion NEVER and I mean NEVER EVER expect me or anyone to think I deserved to be poor or ugly or fat or sick or homeless or hungry...you get the drift. That this loving Creator would actually prefer we think thoughts of the truth as often in every amazing moment of NOW as we would allow ourselves to think/feel in every amazing moment of NOW.

That if we have beliefs or feelings in our consciousness that say we somehow deserve to and should think/feel/identify with ourselves in a particular way that is in disharmony with flowing and glowing well-being because that is how we seem to appear to ourselves and the world in the physical...that those voices or those "this is what you should's" are not from the Divine but from some human belief that you picked up somewhere along the way that you are in no way, shape or form obligated to hold onto or ever feel or think again.

So if affirmations or hypnosis tapes or EFT or ho'oponopono or anything like that helps you to reidentify yourself and think/feel in more amazingly wonderful present moments of now things that are aligned with love and flowing and glowing well-being (and not fear...remember where love is fear is not and fear is not where love is) this must reasonably be perfect for you.

I mean I think it is amazing that the Divine loves us so much that we are allowed to lie to ourselves for as long as we desire to lie to ourselves, but I just can't imagine that the Divine has ever expected us to have to lie to ourselves out of some perverse desire to see us, his children, suffer.

It is just these sort of lies (beliefs and feelings in disharmony with flowing and glowing well-being which is the truth of who we are...our true Divine identity) that may be in our current personal consciousness that ho'oponopono is designed to also assist you with dissipating.

Phrase 1: I love you. Designed to be directed to the Divine to connect with LOVE.
Phrase 2: I'm sorry. Designed to ask LOVE to forgive you for your error in thought/feeling...the lie you've convinced yourself is true about you and/or your identity and/or even the identity of another child of the Divine and ultimately in disharmony with flowing and glowing well-being.
Phrase 3: Please forgive me. In the eyes of LOVE, the Divine, this is not for the Divine necessarily since the the Divine loves you more than unconditionally forgiveness technically does not exist in the mind of the Divine. It is for you. For you to forgive yourself for somehow picking up this disharmony in your consciousness. And it is the cue for Divine LOVE to clean and dissolve this vibration from your consciousness.
Phrase 4: Thank you. With the dissolving, a void is left in your consciousness. The thank you is to thank Divine LOVE for cleaning, dissolving and filling the void with a vibration in harmony with flowing and glowing well-being.

Others are welcome to see them selves, me and anything any way they like. For me to stay in harmony with my true identity and to flow and glow more fully and brightly with well-being, it is for me to see everyone (including me) and everything as Divine, which in truth it is.

To sum up: 1. You deserve to be flowing and glowing with well-being as much as possible in every amazingly magnificent moment of now that you are able to allow yourself.
2. This means thinking/feeling about you (and others...which I suggest work on you first and then how you perceive others and everything...for there really is no distinction between what is sacred and what is not for it is all Divine and therefore, sacred), identifying you as being flowing and glowing with well-being in as many moments of now as you are able to allow yourself. And if for a while you need to have a crutch (which I don't really like the vibe of that word) or whatever they call that stick they use when a tree is growing to help it grow straight and strong in order to have more of your moments be moments where you think/feel more in alignment with flowing and glowing well-being...then you go girl (or boy, as the case may be). Remember where love is fear is not and fear is not where love is.
3. In the absence of using a tool like affirmations or EFT or hypnosis or visualization and the like, ho'oponopono is a magnificent tool. This tool practically screams out for you to bring everything in disharmony with flowing and glowing well-being so you can connect with Divine LOVE to clean, dissolve and replace this disharmony with harmony.

And so it is.

As a P.S. I want to formally congratulate Mike Dooley and www.tut.com for having their 7th year anniversary today. For those who do not know about the inspiration Mike Dooley had 7 years ago to start writing emails to those who wished to receive them as if they were inspiring messages from the Universe to the recipient. And you can also become a member of tut.com as membership has so many more priveleges in addition to those fabulous emails.

And 090909, as I write this which is tomorrow, is the big day for the global observance of the currency cleanse. I would be so thrilled to have as many energy workers as possible to participate in the event and see what love can do for the health of our global fiscal fitness. To find out more about the currency cleanse, please visit http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com/Currency_Cleanse.html

Thank you. I love you.