Day 58, Friday, October 16, 2009

How's this for synchro-destiny?  I've been hungrily reading Deepak Chopra's new book, Reinventing the Body, Resurrecting the Soul.  I've noticed lately that what seems to be unfolding in my life and questions I am asking are coming up at the same time I find Dr. Chopra is about to finish and publish a new book that answers my questions.  As for me and my physical body, this is perfect for me right now.  I feel a new personal challenge going on to practice what he teaches in his new book for the next 50 days.

At the same time just ten minutes before I found it on Facebook is Lilou's YouTube conversation with Dr. Chopra about the book.  Loved it!

You know what though?  It made me cry.  Cry because I find that I love myself enough to want to heal my stuck energy.  And cry because I have so much stuck energy in my body I've been carrying that I really didn't either want to be aware of or for whatever reason and it was like with this book I have given myself the permission to let it go.  Permission to be less hard on myself.  Permission to stop competing with the outer and understanding that it is really just me competing with something I can never win 'cuz I'll always change the bar or what the barometer is for winning.

Writing a blog called flowing and glowing well-being, I find reference in this book to following what he so eloquently shares I just know will surely enhance the flowing of well-being and my glowing with well-being in my life.  I am so grateful.

I also found it interesting how I am seeing so clearly the power of a decision.  For now I am going to leave it at that.

Okay, as I read over what I've written to this point just to make sure it doesn't sound too wacky, it occurred to me that I started the 100-day challenge with the same sort of excitement having just learned about ho'oponopono.  And I think the thing that can be frustrating about energy work is that we may not be able to immediately "see" in our physical experience how something might actually be beneficial for us.  So, (okay, I'll speak for myself) I tend to abandon it and move to something new and what must certainly be better and more effective.  Yet, as I lay on my bed doing one of the exercises that Dr. Chopra suggests, the awarness did come into my mind that what I was doing was similar to the "I love you. I'm sorry.  Please forgive me. Thank you." of ho'oponopono.

As you breathe in and simply the intention to reconnect with your physical body and live, love and enjoy more holistically (including your whole self in your experiences)...you are basically declaring to the ALL that you love yourself enough to do this for yourself.  As you continue to breathe in with the intent of the exhale releasing any stuck and discordant (not in harmony with divine love) energy while saying your are sorry to yourself for believing you are anything less than the truth of who you are...and as the "please forgive me?" is asked and love answers by bringing into play its cleaning solvent power which allows you to release this discordant energy and as you exhale you release this energy from your being, which Divine Love immediately replaces with divine love energy.  While the whole process can last mere seconds, it can feel as if you've left behind 10 pounds of discordant weight you've been carrying in your physical body.  And so the words "thank you" easily come to mind.

So, it's interesting how I can seemingly forget about ho'oponopono and then come back to its simplicity. 

I also got a kick out of seeing one of the books at Barnes and Noble...the new one by Sherri Shepard, titled Permission Slips.  It didn't make me necessarily want to read it...just that it is amazing what can happen when we give ourselves permission to decide and allow the answers to come.

I also love how it seems I am more aware how this process is helping me expand my definitions of what something included in meaning or how something needs to look.  I had an example, but it has slipped away.  I will simply then sign off now content to have reminded myself of this awareness. 

I love you.  Thank you.


allows love to be the only motivation for life.

Day 47, Monday, October 5, 2009

You know, I was so inspired to write stuff for this blog in the beginning. 

Now I've lagged off to every other day.  Not that this is a bad thing nor do I want to imply I am disappointed with me, 'cuz in the past those words may have inspired such feelings in me. 

It's just that I have so many great ideas coming in, I almost can't seem to keep up.

Tomorrow is another Tiara Tuesday and my friend, Ericka's birthday.  Accordingly, I plan on spending a little less time at my laptop.

I still am currency cleansing, advocating inspired giving and wellbeing.  And even more, ho'oponopono, which as I write this just answered one of my own "how can I?" questions.  There you go.

Blessings and Namaste.

Day 41, Another Glorious Tiara Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Happy Tiara Tuesday everyone.

No blog on Sunday. The pinata was a huge hit and yet I was quite interested in the difference between a kid's party where everyone ones a shot at hitting the pinata or they are sad and this party where none of my 27-year old cousin's male friends wanted a shot. Ended up only my cousin, his mom and his dad and then my cousin again were game. Of course, in all fairness I never intended on taking a shot myself and I'm not sure what all of this says about anything, but...

Needless to say, I was on quite a high.

And then yesterday, not so much. A video I'm putting together for Heaven on Earth crashed on me a couple of times and my internet access was denied for whatever reason.

The real tragedy is that I am so much more aware of when I let outward "anything" define me as being somehow less than. Then it really makes those 10 ho'oponopono words all the more meaningful as I say, "I love you. I'm sorry. I forgive you. Thank you." As much as I am not too thrilled that I notice how much I do this, I am very thrilled that every day I do love myself more and that I truly am sorry and forgive myself for seeing me as something other than the glory of Divine Love Intelligence made manifest that I know I am. And for at least stopping the hamster wheel and stepping out even if I am not completely out.

This morning I woke up with a realization that I have all these great realizations and I know I am Divine and I know I am stepping out of the hamster wheel and claiming my flowing and glowing well-being and stop resisting what is illusion and put my attention on what is REAL and Divine, but I am attempting to do so with my same human mind/thinking when I need to make the transition to Divine Mind and Divine Heart and Divine everything if I really seek to transition...to be clear...to be restored to the perfection from which I emanated and seeing me the way Divine Love Intelligence sees me.

All this only today when I was able to get back online to find that someone had sent me a virtual Tiara on Facebook to remind me today is Tiara Tuesday. I included a copy of this virtual Tiara in this blog. And that it was perfect to be off line 'cuz I would have gone ahead and uploaded the video to YouTube only to find that the person I am basically doing it for probably would not have been as happy without being able to see it first and she is going to get that chance tomorrow.

You know I had meant to mention the Laughing Buddha 40-day Fast that I was planning to start on October 1 and invite any to join me who desired to. I was inspired to create it from lent and wondered if in a way it was the original intent of lent. Lent is about giving up something for 40 days with the idea that if you can give something up for 40 days you can give it up forever. And I could go into a lengthy bunch of words here about what I really mean by that and how it doesn't seem to be like that anymore, but that's not my point.

I tied it into the Laughing Buddha 'cuz I like to think that the laughing Buddha laughs because once he was able to be free of illusion, he realized how silly some of our fears and the like are that we have.

So to marry the two, think of one disempowering belief you have that you could give up for 40 days. And you'd need to come up with an opposite because you want it to be less about putting attention on what you don't want and more about putting attention on what you do want OR I guess more precisely how you no longer wish to identify yourself and how you now choose to identify yourself.

And for me the ultimate was to stop seeing me as illusion and see me more the way Divine Love Intelligence sees me and at least three times a day thank Divine Love Intelligence for restoring me to the perfection from which I emanated.

I still may do this starting October 1. It's just that today I decided I was going to put together a Tiara Tuesday class that I would facilitate at Heaven on Earth LA. I haven't got it all figured out yet and I am not sure that I want to feel like I have it all figured out in order to let it shape itself organically out of the intention. But the intent behind the class is that the Tiara is symbolic of our divine identity. That in the 60 to 90 minutes together it is about practicing coming more from what we feel it would be like to "BE" via Divine Mind than our own mind.

In other words, truly in this class everyone is created equal. We are all divine children of God. We are all the rulers of the rules in our own Queendoms (which is our personal consciousness). From the place of Divine Mind and Divine Love Intelligence each of us is an Albert Einstein, Bill Gates, Oprah, Mother Teresa, etc. from the aspect of possibility. And that we don't let past ways we've identified ourselves and/or how much money we appear to have in the moment decide for us what we can experience or create.

In this class there are Zero Limits, all possibilities. We are eternal and divine and blessed and loved. In this class there are no problems. There is only wealth and health and flowing and glowing well-being, as much as we are able.

And we understand that we are all created equal because each of us has access to the same possibilities in consciousness as any of the rest of us. The same ability to change beliefs and feelings in any given moment of now.

Of course, you don't need to attend the class to do this for yourself every Tuesday. You don't even need a physical tiara to participate. You can use this virtual one as the tiara you wear in your imagination.

What you are doing is rehearsing. Ever notice the word rehearsing is re-hear-sing.

I know a lot of classes are about visioning what you want in order to bring it about. I also can see this and maybe I don't even want to call it a class as much as an experience...The Tiara Tuesday Experience...because it will be more about practicing how to rule your own consciousness Kingdom...practicing how to have consciousness work for you and not vice-versa so that your Kingdom is a joyous Kingdom whatever your definition of joyous is.

What I was getting at is that if what is currently on our "vision boards" based on our human mind, think what might be on our vision board when we get good at utilizing our Divine Minds?

So, Happy Tiara Tuesday. Who knows, maybe I will see some of you at Heaven on Earth LA sharing the practice of getting comfortable with our Divine Identities.

And while I still am so thrilled to have had the realization that to judge somethings as Divine and others as not as JUDGMENT (I never really thought it was before), in my Queendom the idea of these shared Tuesday Experiences really makes my thoughts of Tiara Tuesday and my enjoyment of Tiara Tuesday seem that much more Divine.

thank you. I love you for sharing this blog with me by reading it.

P.S. I still am cleansing that currency. Thrilled to. And have a next level to add in the sense that every time you release wealth into circulation, you remind yourself that you are stimulating the flow of wealth circulation making it that much stronger, healthier and faster for it to return to you. And again with the remembering who we are, our Divine Identity, that money works for you.

P.P.S. Still all about Inspired Giving too. To find out more go to http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Oh and remember...Love isn't a choice, just like health, wealth, joy and beauty and well-being are not choices in the sense that they are always ON and ever present in each glorious moment of NOW. You may decide not to "see" or acknowledge their existence in the moment (that is a choice) but they are ever present.

So, with lots and lots of love and blessings I remind you that you are already flowing and glowing with well-being here and now and always...you must be by definition and the identity you have in the eyes of Divine Love Intelligence. You can resist this truth or acknowledge it and flow with it.

And you know, I believe there isn't any wrong in resisting it or punishment either. It's simply that in the same way if I chose to type a "P" instead of an "A", resistance will create resistance experiences and flow will create flow experiences.

Every Tuesday, I'll be practicing seeing you glowing and flowing 'cuz that's how I choose for it to be in my Queendom. In my Queendom I see everyone as the truth of who they are even if they don't see it themself. And I will ask myself for forgiveness using ho'oponopono if I see anyone or anything in my Queendom as being anything but the way I choose for it to be. I love you. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. For in my Queendom I take full responsibility for Total Well-Being.

Namaste.

Day 38, Saturday, September 26, 2009

Hey, all you party people.

Isn't life amazing?

Isn't this 100-day challenge the bomb?

I believe you know how I would answer those questions.

So, I totally missed what I wanted to designate as "False Friday". And partly because I realized that I was having some issues with seeing me as Truth and not as "false".

Maybe the way to explain it is that I had this amazing insight that "If I am judging some things as divine and others as not...well, that is judgment, eh?" And with the truth of ho'oponopono, when I see or believe or perceive me based on what my physical eyes see and not my Divine eyes, then it so brings home with an even more "feeling" feeling the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me."

I found myself fearful about the physical size of my body and/or the seeming amount of my cash in hand in the moment. Only to realize that if I am placing attention on me as being overweight and not who I am in the view of Divinity, then I am putting more energy on manifesting me as being overweight. You know, 'cuz it is where my attention is. And as far as the amount of money I appear to have.

Well, I continue to be committed to currency cleansing and blessing all wealth that comes to me, but also that what if my belief, 'cuz Divinely it is true, that as I have money or any wealth and I am thrilled to circulate it that what I am doing is stimulating the FLOW of wealth. And that even though it should be enough (and remember I don't enjoy the word "should" 'cuz on one level I understand that we are all already PERFECT just as we are and so it is NEVER my job to should you) to simply flow wealth, I also benefit on the backend because I know that as I flow out, more is flowing in to me for my enjoyment.

So, part of me was worried 'cuz I will be joyously participating in the celebration of my cousin's 27th birthday on Sunday, September 27th and what could I give him that would be mah-velous dahling?

It's interesting to me when I think about it that somehow he has been the person who I have had this sort of tradition where now it is like what can I give him that answers the question "something you've always never known you've wanted and yet...now that you have it...? And yet, because I still haven't flowed an actual manifestation of a billion dollars...isn't so much about the money but more about "how much fun can we make it?"

And I found myself at the beginning of this week in a sort of fear, panic mode thinking that I couldn't pull out my intention where this is concerned. What has been amazing about the 100-day challenge and all I am going through is that even though this was my "knee-jerk" response, the Higher Self of me was like don't let that voice sway you. Remember who you are? and so on.

So, here is is one day before the party and without my having to really figure it out, my wonderful (he is totally an angel) man, suggests we go to downtown L.A. to see if we might get inspired.

Downtown L.A. (close to the Fashion District...which is where this season's Project Runway, which I love 'cuz I am a sewer and am the kind of person who would see a pattern in a store that looked similar to what I had in mind but not quite there and I knew I could alter it to make it my own and I loved this) is the place where he feels comfortable. The place where it is almost a plus if you speak Spanish or some sort of Asian language and you are able to buy at about the most wholesale of a price possible.

As we walked around the maze (and seriously, it is like a maze 'cuz you could easily get lost amidst the halls and corridors and alleys, etc. where these shops are located) and knowing my cousin's love for the Dodgers and my now many joyous participations in Manny's grand niece's and nephew's birthday party that how much fun would it be to have mostly 27-year olds enjoy the pinata experience?

Seriously, my cousin technically doesn't NEED anything. To me when most of us are in that place where technically we don't NEED anything, what becomes more cherished is experiencing something that is fun but you didn't expect.

So, we got him a pinata. The thing I hadn't realized before moving here and enjoying all the different experiences I've enjoyed, is that the pinata comes empty. Or at least the to me what I envision as a pinata. As a side note, we were told the new hot pinata to have is one that is already loaded up with many different types of sports balls that birthday participants would be thrilled to end up with as a gift from the pinata experience.

I decided for a birthday party that is supposed to be more about fun and a party that will include mostly people his age is that I would fill it with things that could be practicle, but would also be a little more private. For instance, condoms, diapers, toilet paper and the great stand-by "chiclets". To me it would be fun to see who would go for what and especially since my cousin is a Vegan and most likely most of his friends are as well. So, the chiclets are the most food type thing we included in the pinata.

I also am psyched because our gift (my Man's, Manny and mine) will include Manny in charge of pinata placement. Manny didn't want to hit the pinata. So, his job while he is on my Aunt and Uncle's garage roof will be to dangle the pinata in such a way as to get participant's to take a swing without allowing them to connect with the pinata. These are powerful, older adults. We need and desire the fun to last as long as possible. My additional contribution will be filming the experience with the hope that all involved will be game to allow themselves to let the kid in them takeover and enjoy the entire pinata experience even though most of them will be in their late 20's.

I also want to share how on Thursday I had an amazing breakthrough where I just wanted to practically shout out to the entire universe how I realized that if I am judging certain things to be divine and others as not divine...that is judgment.

Also, that how interesting it is that judgmental is a combo pack of the words "judge" and "mental", which to me, more or less make them the poster children for beliefs and not facts.

So, today as I was walking around downtown L.A. where people who are more an affinity with immigrants, and recent like now or first level immigrants, go to do biz and where you can pretty much get anything wholesale price and about as low as you will find something in L.A., and when I compared that to my experience of last Saturday as I attended the Grand Opening of Heaven on Earth L.A..........I found myself realizing how easy it is to perceive last Saturday's experience as being Divine and how before today, I would have perceived today's experience as Divine, not so much.

But people, there is only divinity. And both are Divine. And if I am perceiving any other way, I am stealing and cheating my self.

The other thing that happened today that I loved is that my man, Manny, who I never would have expected to go with me to one of my spirituality-type places agreed to go. I am not going to try to assume his motivation for this blog post 'cuz truth is I may never actually know his true motivation. What was interesting to me is that the place we were close to that he agreed to go to is the Peace Labyrinth Gardens in L.A. And when we got there, it technically was closed. I didn't remember Saturday was their closed day.

When you find the place and pull into their driveway, you are greeted with a gate and an intercom system that requires you to push the button and to let them know why you are there. So in talking to the voice on the intercom we realized this is my third visit (last time I was also turned away). Second visit they were technically closed also. So, pity, whatever for my third visit and with my promise I would forever remember they are closed on Saturday, we were allowed to come in and walk the labyrinth.

What I found interesting is that three other people stopped us to inquire as to why we were there 'cuz Saturday's are closed to the public. You know 'cuz I have the consciousness that there are no accidents, which is a whole other thing in my mind. It's sort of like the thing I mention with stepping out of the hamster cage when it comes to having problems and then deciding I am going to accept the consciousness that problems only exist if you believe they do...

Anyway, what was such a gift or that I was so thrilled about is that it seems like any man I have ever been in a relationship with has not shared my spiritual bent. That's not to say they aren't Divine. And one of the things I love most about Manny is that he seems to be more of who I would love to be in the sense of expressing a person who is peaceful and happy and loves life and is generous, etc. without going through all the gyrations I feel I need to go through in order to be on his level.

Maybe the better way to explain it is that I don't really share my spirituality. And so to share this with him and feel like he loves me enough to share it with me even if he thinks I'm a "nut job"...well, it meant a lot to me.

So, I was so excited to have us walking the labyrinth together I sort of couldn't really remember the purpose of walking the labyrinth. And yet, how could I remember. There are probably as many good reasons to walk the labyrinth in a walking meditation as there are original snowflakes in the history of time.

I was able to share two of my favorites. One is that as you walk...you feel like you are more and more letting go of anything that is "troubling" you. And the other is that you use the entire time it seems to require to walk the entire labyrinth to be in gratitude. For if truth is that the more you are grateful, the more you attract things to be grateful for...well,

Yet, since I truly do not believe in coincidence (and I am so thrilled with the whole if you stay in the moment and in every moment realize that this moment is awesome and so you can trust that every present moment will be awesome even if you don't know at this moment how that will be true) there is obviously something in the fact we were allowed to participate even though we were reminded three times that this usually is not allowed, I'm also going to let myself be okay enough to not try to figure out what the deal was. Instead, I desire to simply be grateful that even though technically it was closed, we were allowed in.

So, life is wonderful. And if the length of this post because I missed just one day is an indicator to write every day...well, still, the message is the same. As we continue to correct our thoughts, feelings and beliefs to be more aligned with truth...our lives become so much more amazing and wonderful and without seeming to have so much "work" to do so.

Most every Friday evening I have dinner with my aunt and uncle who live in town. Because of my cousin's party, my aunt said maybe we should simply blow off this Friday. Only to have my friend come to me to get together Friday evening to help her with a letter of intent for a job she would love to have.

And so as I continue with this challenge and get more into ho'oponopono, I so have more of a feeling as I put those 10 words out there to the Divine, "I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you."

And I had a point that seemed worthy of writing about and sharing, it seems to escape me at this moment. And so I know it will emerge when it is more appropriate.

If nothing else, though, I can so see how much I have "seen" myself with human vision and not divine vision and defined myself as something so very, very much less than the way Divine perceives me. So, when I repeat the 10 words, there is so much more intent and emotion behind the words.

Okay, this is definitely enough for today.

Thank you again to all of you who read this whenever you find yourself attracted to this blog post. Thank you to all of you who share my life with me. Thank you to God and love. I do feel blessed. And, I know I am more and more flowing and glowing with well-being than I ever expected to.

Namaste.

P.S. Still loving currency cleanse and inspired giving. If you are interested in finding out more, http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

P.P.S. How would this change your life if:
1. You understood that in any moment you let go of money or wealth in whatever divine form, you knew your were stimulating the flow of wealth in your life, and
2. You continued to affirm that as the truth of You that You are, money WORKS for You (not vice-versa). For it is the joy of joys of the Universe and forms of Divinity to support us in ways that are joyous and amazing and awesome and blessed in every moment if we will simply believe this is the truth of the way Divine Love always intended for us.

Whoo hoo!

I love you.

Day 36, Thankful Thursday, September 24, 2009

So, my first Thankful Thursday.

I was thinking for those who read this blog and are willing to participate, that we could take it to a different level. Some how, some way those willing to participate keep a list of everything you are grateful for during your waking hours on Thursday and then Friday, we compare numbers.

Like you keep a running total during the day. It could be as simple as if you think of something, you write a tick mark on a sheet of paper and keep track of your tick marks for the day. Let's not make it so labor and time intensive that no one will end up sticking with it.

You know many advanced spiritual writings mention that a spiritual Master pretty much gets to the place where there really is only one thing to say and that is "thank you".

And here is what might make "Thankful Thursday" a little more fun. Don't limit your list to things or people from your past or your present. Remember, technically there is no space of time. So, you can include things that you expect (you know, what if desires were simply future memories...memories of the future) or call them future memories.



P.S. I'm promoting currency cleansing and inspired giving. And, ho'oponopono. You can find out more by visiting my website, http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Thank you to everyone who reads my blogs and is inspired to participate on any level. I appreciate you and your time. Namaste.

Day 35, Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I appreciate all the feedback I receive from my blog posts. I had some positive feedback to my Tiara Tuesday post and a request to find out if I have anything else like that to share.

The answer is that I really didn't. However, it seemed once the question was asked, then something popped in my mind:

"Tell the Truth Thursday"

My inspiration was that as much as a person is able they identify them self on Thursday as simply the truth of who they are as seen in Divine Mind with Divine vision. You know, You, flowing and glowing with divine love well-being.

I also have a 40-day Laughing Buddha Fast that I am going to talk about in the next day or two.

I really like the idea of Tell the Truth Thursday.

It's just that a couple of minutes later the thought, "Thankful Thursday" popped in. Sort of had a ring to it. Later I remembered why. It's one of the things you are encouraged to tweet about on Thursdays for those of you who participate in the Twitterverse.

I was thinking for those who read this blog and are willing to participate, that we could take it to a different level. Some how, some way those willing to participate keep a list of everything you are grateful for during your waking hours on Thursday and then Friday, we compare numbers.

You know many advanced spiritual writings mention that a spiritual Master pretty much gets to the place where there really is only one thing to say and that is "thank you".

And here is what might make "Thankful Thursday" a little more fun. Don't limit your list to things or people from your past or your present. Remember, technically there is no space of time. So, you can include things that you expect (you know, what if desires were simply future memories...memories of the future) or call them future memories.

Maybe Friday could be False Friday sort of the reverse of Tell the Truth Thursday. Instead of really working on telling the truth, instead you pay special attention to all the things that come up in your awareness that are false according to the truth of who you are. When these moments appear in your awareness, you say the ho'oponopono prayer to clean your consciousness of this falsehood. And then at least three times during Friday you connect with Divine Love and mention, "Thank You, God, for restoring me to the perfection from which I emanated."

Okay, I think that is enough for now.

P.S. I'm promoting currency cleansing and inspired giving. And, ho'oponopono.

Thank you to everyone who reads my blogs and is inspired to participate on any level. I appreciate you and your time. Namaste.

Note to self. I want to ponder the following in a future blog: When I don't see you as your true identity, am I stealing from both of us? If I preassume anything about you except the truth of who you are.

Wealth is a state of being, not a decision.

Back in 1994 this friend of mine who is an Eckist (she belongs to a church called Eckankar) who was lovely enough to share her temple and some of their seminars and the like with me. Eckankar has what they refer to as a living spiritual master who might sort of be likened to the Pope for Catholics.

In the beginning when we would go to events and I knew this Master would be there, I would always be nervous because I thought that a Master was someone who could see all your faults and everything you'd ever done wrong and what a bad person you were and I hope you get the gist.

Later, I was enlightened enough to understand that nothing could be further from the truth. A true spiritual master sees each of us with Divine Eyes or with spiritual perfection. This is actually the way Jesus was technically such a powerful "healer". Jesus, the Christ, saw straight through whatever illusion his brother or sister child of God was under the "spell" of (literally a spell, which all mistaken beliefs...and let me be clear that a mistaken belief is one in discord with the truth of our divine self) which was manifesting as some form of illness.

Also, as Jesus, the Christ, was a tuning fork for Divine Love he was able to connect with that spark and return his brother or sister back to harmony with their innate flowing and glowing divine love well-being. As Jesus, the Christ, is and every shall be a tuning fork for the Divine it makes me wonder if the popular "WWJD?" would have been a more accurate slogan if it would have been "WWJB?" Who would Jesus be?

You know I almost didn't write this blog post and was going to save it. And then I realized, why? I am doing this just as much for anyone who reads this as I am doing it for my self. Why wait? The time is NOW. And remember, I have elevated myself to the unlimited plan. So, who's counting? And even if someone is counting, why should I let that deter me? If they have a blog, they can determine how many posts a day they will write. This is my blog.

Oooooh a little bit of a rant. I kind of enjoyed that.

Okay, so the real reason I was inspired to continue on is that as we make the transition from feeling like wealth is a decision to understanding that just like love, wealth is a state of being. Wealth is always and ever present. If we are not perceiving it, it is because we are being distracted by the virus of scarcity and/or trained to believe wealth can be absent and can only be present under certain conditions or certain "doings".

So, as you make the transition, even if outwardly it appears like nothing has changed, seek to keep looking again in each moment to see the wealth that is ever present.

I know something I tend to do is look outside to validate if I am "doing it right" inwardly with my consciousness. And if it hasn't shown up yet I tend to become frustrated and assume it won't. So, I'll stop looking for it and stop expecting it and assume there must be some other "secret" or "trick" I need to find out about and then....

Did you know God's delays are not God's denials?

Did you know that our consciousness isn't even really about asking. Manifestation isn't really about asking. It's more about a projection of intention and attention like the old time film projectors. Each frame of the film starts off blank and then filled based on the energy and vibration we radiate via our intention and attention. In other words, the answer is always "Yes". Yes to whatever is on the "film". Whatever is on the film is what gets condensed into matter and becomes material. Imagine then how your film may look in the universal projector if you are intending wealth while having your attention on the virus of scarcity. If your attention is distracted by the virus of scarcity, how can you expect to "see" wealth? The wealth that is ever present and the ONLY thoughts on the subject entertained in Divine Mind.

And if your mind needs for the time being to stick to the Law of Attraction paradigm of ask, believe, receive...then perhaps it is helpful to define specifically what the process of "asking" actually means to the universe and in regards to this universal law.

As with yesterday's design (which many of my designs come out of my desire to create a touchstone for me to help me remember something I desire to remember), I created today's with the idea that it is up to me (by taking full responsibility for my well-being) to see the ever present wealth and be aligned with the truth that wealth is who I AM.

What I found was interesting is that right after creating it and knowing I would include the design in this blog post and create a CafePress shop for it (not MySoti in this case because CafePress offers the ability to put the design on items that really would be more appropriate to being a touchstone like stickers or mouse pads or journals and such, to visit the shop, click here) the thought floated right up into my awareness that perhaps this was wrong or inappropriate or others would think I was bad for being so crass as to depict someone seeing dollar signs.

And yet, how perfect. It just goes to show that I have judgements about wealth and money in my consciousness that are not aligned with Divine Truth. As these float to the surface of my awareness it is an opportunity to cleanse them and replace them. 'cuz if they are in my consciousness, they are stealing from my wealth and full flowing and glowing divine love well-being experience I would be having in this present moment. Bring on the ho'oponopono.

And how will I know when I may cease with the cleansing? When I look at the design and only love surfaces.

Okay, I think I'm done. I got some cleaning to do. Blessings and Love to all of you. Happy Cleaning.

How to be a "Power Generator" for the planet.

Thank you so much to Rebecca Marina, Prosperity Queen, for this exercise.

How to be a "Power Generator" for the planet.

In a recent meditation, spirit asked me to share a simple exercise with you.

Most of you who get my letters are "light workers".

You are doing a great service to others on the planet just by your willingness to share light.

Here is a "Power Generator" exercise from spirit:

A. Think of yourself as a power generator. Imagine you are absorbing millions of watts of light from sun or any of God's creation. Fill yourself up to overflowing. Then, imagine you are spraying this energy all over the world. Imagine you are traveling the universe on a magic carpet and spraying Light everywhere you go.

Why do this simple exercise?

Spirit says, there are many who feel so low, they cannot even conceive of absorbing any light by themselves. By being a Human power generator for them--you help a great deal. It is like "pre-digested spiritual food" for someone so weak they cannot feed themselves.

I bless you for listening and for doing the exercise. You may not know the tremendous good you do 'til you get back home to the other side.

You can find out more about Rebecca at http://www.rebeccamarina.com

Okay, I find it interesting how much I had been thinking about this exercise and that it might be a great practice and how it would be good to share.

Yet, as I was retyping it to include here (which actually was my only intention) I realized how much we can allow ourselves to blindly accept a diagnosis and treatment.

And how about a month ago, I would have been all over this.

Now I've told myself I have taken that leap (even though it really only was like a baby step) and jumped out of the hamster wheel into living from divine love, flowing and glowing well-being truth.

As I was watching last night's episode of the season premier of House the thought flowed in about my new favorite saying that begged me to design something around it, "fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity."

Well, seeing anyone or anything as less than flowing and glowing well-being as the way to manifest flowing and glowing well-being is like screwing for virginity.

I know I couldn't really come up with something more succinct and clever. I live with that.

Again, though, that is what Dr. Hew Len mentions. And it ties in with my design from yesterday with the peace signs placed in the eyes. How can I see discord and disease and anything but perfection "out here" and think that will ever allow me to see flowing and glowing divine love well-being "out here". I don't know what the icon for perfection or flowing and glowing well-being would be, but if I'm not seeing it...how can I ever expect it to manifest.

So, again it comes back to being so secure in who YOU ARE and who I AM and what everything is in truth the way it was meant to be perceived with divine vision, is that it is all perfect...all the glory of God made manifest. And to not allow myself to get sucked in to believing anything that isn't real or perceiving or seeing with my physical eyes anything that isn't real. And if I do, then I ask myself to forgive myself for this.

You know, I've known for over two years that their are only thoughts of wealth in divine mind. And I've paid for and sought out all sorts of practices that will help me manifest money and wealth. Only to feel like the real "trick" or "secret" and I don't even want you to pay me for this because you will only believe it will work if you are in a vibrational match with any of what I talk about in my blog.

Again, it's like the fighting for peace is like screwing for virginity. It's like the love is a state of being, not a decision. Well, wealth is a state of being, not a decision. At this point I truly believe that in divine mind there is never a debate about whether the I AM THAT I AM is poor or rich. Divine Mind has right of consciousness knowledge. Divine Mind knows thyself. Divine Mind knows it is the epitome of wealth and thus only sees and experiences wealth. Thoughts of poverty or not enoughness, etc. are never even engaged or contemplated.

Now I understand the real "trick" in all of this is that you may look with your physical eyes and think, feel or say "but I'm not rich, where's my money, I can't pay my bills" or whatever variation on that theme you tell yourself in any given moment. And know I am not immune. To me this has always been my "issue".

And I could even on some levels intuit over the last two years that all the continuing to feel lack is my "issue" was holding me back from the very thing I desired. And with the knowing Divine Mind only thinks wealth, I somehow understood that doing what Divine Mind does was the answer. Yet, I continued to feel like how can I claim my wealth and say I am wealthy and ONLY think thoughts of wealth when I look with my physical eyes and don't see it.

And I continued to stay on that hamster wheel of "so I just have to figure out how to get money, start a business, win the lottery, etc." and all the time there is another part of me that wanted the "Heaven on Earth" kind of understanding that my wealth comes ONLY from SOURCE regardless of my perceptions.

So, again, I can see that I MUST cease from letting myself be distracted from the shiny objects my gaze my be led to look at that try to convince me that the virus of lack and poverty are real. Now isn't that Mastery? I master my vision, inwardly and outwardly, to ONLY see the truth...to only perceive the truth...to only vibrate in harmony with the truth of flowing and glowing divine love well-being.

And for whatever reason, the idea that wealth is a state of being, not a decision...well, I just know that will help me Master what I seek to master.

Then I will no longer be "secreting" for wealth is like screwing for virginity. I will be "being divinely wealthy for wealth is like abstaining from sex for virginity."

And in those moments of NOW before I reach the tipping point where my consciousness just automatically takes over this process for me and I truly become on every level "being divinely wealthy", I most certainly will continue with my ho'oponopono.

To the divine as I make the love connection, I say, "I love you."
To myself for stealing from my perfect well-being with a mistaken thought, word, deed or feeling, I will lovingly say, "I'm sorry. Please forgive me."
To myself for the forgiveness and to Divine Love for cleaning and clearing this imperfect vibration and replacing it with pure Divine Love, I lovingly say, "Thank you."

And so it is.

And to all of you out there who show up in my life to either help me clear all in my consciousness unlike divine love and flowing and glowing well-being or to all of you who show up in my life simply to share the love, I say,
"Thank you. I love you."

Day 33, Monday, September 21, 2009

Aloha! Just a little snapshot of peace for you today.

How is everyone on this International Day of Peace. Peaceful, I hope.

Peace is with you always. Just like love, it's always here. You just may be distracted from its presence 'cuz your attention is elsewhere.

So, ho'oponopono, self I-dentity and I-dentity theft.

P.S. This week speaking of ho'oponopono (I'm going to do a squidoo page called ho'oponopono hotline as sort of a forum for finding out about ho'oponopono and sharing experiences as you practice it) and other things with a Hawaiian theme, there's a web presence, www.mahalo.com, that looks quite interesting. Mahalo is the Hawaiian word for "thank you". They are based out of Santa Monica and have only been around for two years, but it looks like an interesting concept. I just have other things I feel like I should get done first...okay, I don't like the word should. Let me rephrase, I like to think of myself as more of a FIFO (that's accounting lingo for first in first out) kind of gal.

Anyway, back to understanding better now how the ho'oponopono and the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." are perfect.

So, ho'oponopono is 10 words you repeat to yourself.
I love you.
I'm sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.

Ho'oponopono is about taking full responsibility for personal well-being. As Dr. Joe Vitale and Dr. Hew Len call it, the place of Zero Limits or Peace of I, self peace. How "woo woo" to write about this today.

The I love you is directed at Divine Love with the intention of connecting with this presence (which is the truth of who you really are, BTW) and sharing your love.

"I'm sorry. Please forgive me." that is for you. Divine Love is secure in Its Identity and in Divine Mind there is NEVER (and I repeat NEVER) a reason for forgiveness. There's nothing to forgive. It's ALL GOOD there.

How I am perceiving it now is that if you don't at this very moment of NOW...this magical, wonderful, amazing, divine moment of NOW...I-dentify with yourself as the truth of you as you were created by Divine Love, as your Higher Self, as the epitome of flowing and glowing well-being, love, peace, health, wealth, joy, beauty, et al, then you are technically stealing from yourself in that moment.

You are buying into the virus. You are on the hamster wheel. You are basically being blind to the truth.

I mean think about it. If someone stole what you felt was yours, you'd probably be angry. Well, technically, when you take full responsibility for your well-being, you understand that the only person who can really steal from you (even though outwardly it may appear someone else has stolen from you) IS YOU!!!

Now if someone harms you, don't you expect them to apologize so you may forgive them? Well when you get to this level of embracing full responsibility for your well-being (and possibly using ho'oponopono as a tool to help you with this process), in any moment you are not aligned with Divine LOVE, flowing and glowing well-being, you are stealing from yourself and the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." is then your way of atoning for your self-theft.

Hopefully, 'cuz at this point you do understand the truth of who you are (even if you are not yet able to embrace its fullness in manifestation in every glorious present moment of now), you are happy to forgive yourself. And you end with "thank you."

Now I have to say that in the beginning of embracing ho'oponopono and this whole total responsibility thing, the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." part of the process felt somehow wrong. There really wasn't much joy vibration in that part for me. It somehow seemed like I was continuing to vibrate in alignment with being wrong or bad or something like that.

So I am thrilled to have found a way to put it in a more loving context. If my child hurt them self because they didn't know better, would I be upset? Would I think they are bad or wrong or something like that? No. I would simply love them and move forward.

I understand now that it is a very loving thing for me to do for me, as I ask myself to forgive myself for all the ways I have kept myself from fully loving and enjoying flowing and glowing well-being in my life in every present moment of NOW. And as I love myself this much, I radiate a more concentrated vibration of divine love, well-being and peace.

This morning someone called my home phone number asking for "Rosie" again. I had to almost laugh because as they asked for someone who clearly isn't me, it made me remember what I have been sharing on this blog with letting it be that easy for me to remember that I am not the virus and I don't have to "cop" to having any attributes of the "virus" even if I haven't fully manifested in every area the truth of my well-being self, my Peace of I.

And I was thinking that as I become more secure in my true identity, my Peace of I, instead of feeling like I want to run away from those who seem to want to "suck" me back into the virus, I will know instead there is no need to run. I will be able to stand strong and confident in divine truth and being this self-generating beacon of divine light and love and flowing and glowing well-being, I will be like a tuning fork for the divine.

If you don't know what a tuning fork is, well, a tuning fork when activated brings everything around it into vibrational alignment with it.

That must be like the bonus plan. You be your truth, Peace of I, flowing and glowing well-being, and with no effort, simply by being who you are, you are able to help others shift their vibrational frequency in tune with your own.

How divine!


(P.S. remind me I want to mention right of consciousness knowledge this week also and Deepak Chopra's new book)

P.P.S. I'm still on my virtual iCurrencyCleanse promotion tour. The same with inspired giving. You find out more about both by visiting http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Peace be with you. Of course, as peace is in you.

Day 32, Sunday, September 20, 2009

Aaahhhhh!

So, check out that Heaven On Earth LA center, please. You won't be sorry. Especially, if you live in LA. And if you live in LA close to Beverly Hills or the hills of Hollywood...this is a great venue if you have a class you want to teach but need somewhere to teach it. This photo is of the facilities founder, Stahsha (her smile is about 1000 watts lit by pure joy), in the midst of a Flying Yoga pose. Flying Yoga is a lot about balance and posing, but also about trust. http://www.heavenonearthla.com

Today I don't wish to spend too much more time on the computer. I want to mention how I have noticed that with all the spirituality teaching emphasis on have it is so important to be a giver, I find my reason and logic wants to take that to a place where then it must not be so good to be a receiver. Thus, receiving is somehow wrong.

And so I find myself having to remind myself of the whole story. I use "whole" purposely. Think of the ocean. Think of our breath. What if we only exhaled? What if we lived in a world where everyone gave and no one received? How could you really then ever give to anyone.

Now with my new found enlightenment, we also move from giving to someone 'cuz you think they are in need. We are all created equal. If I am wealth. So are you. Ife I am health. So are you. I am divine. So are you. I can't then technically give you something you don't already have. So what then seems to become the ultimate gift? I feel the answer could be sharing. Let me share something I love with you. Not 'cuz it will fix you or heal you but because this experience will be one of joy and love and unique.

Anyway, I'm glad I got that out of me. I am looking to share with myself all the things I desire to remember.

Thanks for letting me share with you. Now I desire to do my t-shirt designer blog real quick before getting off the computer for the day.

Love and blessings to you all.

Remember, wealth in all its forms is divine and blessed. That's my currency cleanse plug for today.

Okay, remind me I wish to talk about the forgiveness for stealing from myself as the perfection of the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." in ho'oponopono. Thanks.

Love IS a state of being...not a decision.

What a day.

You may not even ever want to read what I wrote earlier today for September 17th.

Then I had a great lunch with my friend Ericka. All the while feeling like I have a decision to make.

You know it just seemed like today was that day when you have been ill and you are all scrunchy and restless and itchy and scratchy...that place right before you know the fever will break. And then there you are...well.

You know when I started American Well-Being, I did because on one level I could really understand that concept that if inwardly I claimed my truth (I AM DIVINE LOVE) then I'd vibe with that and everything that would eventually start showing up in my life would vibe with that.

I might come from this place for a minute or two and then I'd look outward again and nothing much would seem to have changed...so I would doubt myself and my resolve and choose...decide whether I should love myself based on the outer.

I was so excited about coming up with the "LOVE IS where fear is not...where fear is not IS LOVE" quote. Won't every one just want to know me and be my friend now and won't the money start flowing in even more and aren't I such a bright star and blah blah...open my eyes and none of that manifested.

Truth is I realize in going through today...LOVE IS all there is. Love is everywhere. Love is all around. Love is where fear is. It's more like if I am where fear is, it's like I am ignoring love and have chosen to focus on fear.

Which brings me right back to ho'oponopono. I love you. The first 3 of the 10 words. Again, not a decision, but a fact...a truth. I love you, Divine LOVE is technically what the vibe and intent is. The last 7 words, "I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you." seem like they can be explained sort of similar to walking in a room full of love and totally ignoring it 'cuz you are focused only on seeing fear...so you are sort of like, "sorry, I didn't see you there...didn't mean to ignore you. thanks." Divine LOVE wasn't really hurt by you ignoring it, it's just we have manners and it's the thing to do.

So, in all of this gyration I went through today, I again got to thinking about how I received that book, The 4-Hour Workweek, as a gift for my birthday last year. And I wanted to earn my living via the internet and only having to work 4-hours a week. I basically wanted to use Tim's recipe and make it work for me in my life. And initially what I really wanted to do was have my t-shirt designs be such a big hit on the internet that that would be the 4-hour workweek business blah blah.

I also wanted to do something...earn money based on my spiritual journey...thus the American Well-Being. Anyway, I filled out something on-line the other day where it asked me if I was an expert in something. I didn't have an answer. So as a lot of all of this was filtering through my consciousness today, I realized that the two things I really desire are to be successful with my t-shirt designs and be an expert with well-being.

The thing is...even if I don't become those things or even if I do...neither outcome can technically have an effect on the truth of who I am. Technically, it shouldn't even have an effect on my well-being or whether I love myself or not. I am love. I am a child of the divine. I am blessed. As the Rumi quote states, "You are not just a drop in the ocean. You are the mighty ocean in the drop." What's not to love about that?

So, I am grateful for the clarity. I am grateful to understand that I was afraid to really put myself out there and consider myself a well-being expert 'cuz I was afraid I'd be revealed as a fraud for not practicing what I preach. When the truth is to see or define me as anything but the mighty ocean in the drop, is fraud. Is self I-dentity theft.

I am grateful for the peace. I am grateful for the love. I am grateful for further uncovering the truth.

You know I was sort of thinking of it like this morning I was sort of like that Jaycee gal who had been missing for 18 years and was finally found and returned to her "real" parents. For 18 years she lived a seemingly horrible existence believe herself to most likely deserve her life and that this is who she was ONLY to find out that wasn't true.

So, of course, she will have times when she may feel like she's still that gal even though she knows the truth is that she is not.

The thing I am now seeking to keep going through the remainder of these 100 days is to stop being distracted by the virus. Stop thinking I am ill or something is wrong with me that needs to be fixed or that I need to know the secret of something or someone to heal me...blah, blah, blah.

Instead, I am seeking to focus on the truth that I already am flowing N glowing wellbeing NOW NOW NOW. It's not a choice. It's not a decision. It is who I am. I am wellbeing. I am divine. I am eternal. I am love. I am joy. I am peace. I am beauty. I am wealth. I am health. I am the Glory of God made manifest. I am loved. I am blessed. I am a blessing.

No one's opinion matters. Only mine. It is my inner vision of my SELF that determines what my outer experience will be. And no matter how much I see me as the truth and or know you as the truth of who you are, if you walk into my room and are only looking for fear-based manifestations...you will project that on me and not even see me as the truth.

So, I choose to stop "acting" and choose to be...choose "being well being"

Well, that is oh so much enough for today. Thanks to all of you who share this with me. Thank you God, Divine Love. I love you.

Day 27, Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Congratulations to our niece, Cynthia, and her life partner, Mario, on the birth of their baby boy this AM.

So, I have something going on in my personal life and I am not thrilled about it and I am not sure what I think about it or what I desire to to about it and the like.

And even though I woke up yesterday with the Abraham-Hicks "how would I like it to be?" and remember I am a creator not a reactor...the thermostat not the thermometer, I don't feel I followed my advice too well yesterday. I had even made a decision and then was doubting it and sort of put it out to the universe, "if this happens then I'll do 'x' and if that happens then I'll do 'y'." Still, I don't want to make the decision.

It had me(plus, how long it took to edit the footage from the Belmont Shores Car Show for uploading to YouTube) in enough of a state that I didn't even Blog yesterday. I know...alert the media.

This morning I woke up and wanted to Blog immediately 'cuz it suddenly occurred to me that I was really, really off base from what I had intended and was blogging about from the beginning of this 100-day challenge.

It wasn't supposed to be about thinking or making any choice really except, love it...love it all. If something was coming up that I normally would label with my thoughts as something I don't like (which is resistance) my new way of training myself was to not resist it...not judge it...simply see it as something in my consciousness ('cuz even though it isn't appearing in me...the fact it is appearing in my consciousness means it is in my consciousness) that needs to be healed with my love for it. My divine love for it.

Remember: love is the most powerful and FREE solvent.

So, today I seek to be less about judging (it just may be so perfect what is going on and I don't know how) and more about loving...loving it all. And asking for forgiveness for any of my mistaken beliefs so they can be eradicated and replaced with divine love energy.

Even if I may never understand the real nature of it all, I choose to be grateful today for the CCOR 100-day open-heart challenge for helping me focus on training myself to be the me I really desire to be, which is more like and in harmony with my divinity, which I believe means I am love and I be and do what love would be and do.

I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.

P.S. I am still cleansing that currency every day and am all about inspired giving. If you still haven't checked this out, just go to http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Also, as promised I am including a look at my pastel Namaste t-shirt designs. Both are the same except one is placed Big on the front of the t-shirt and the other is placed small over the heart.

Day 21, Currency Cleanse Event, Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Happy 090909 to all.

I am thrilled I made it to Point Dume (pronounced Du-may, which I happily learned today before getting my video out there and mispronouncing it). I fear I was a tidge late for the technical moment the sun rose on the horizon, but I'm not sure I could have seen it and if I couldn't my camera most likely wouldn't. Although, sometimes I get a kick out of what the camera does capture for it technically has no POV and simply records what is there as is. So sometimes when I review what I've filmed I am pleasantly amazed to see something I would have otherwise missed. I digress.

I am thrilled to have put together a video which is on YouTube but also now on the http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com/Currency__Cleanse page. It's my sort of love letter and spin on the currency cleanse video Peggy Black did (and yes, you can still find that video on YouTube and on the friends home page for now).

I was also thrilled to do my actual currency cleanse meditation moment parked at El Porto in Manhattan Beach this morning at 09:09 AM. I sort of had a chill and simultaneous buzz as I chose this particular time to feel connected with all that is Divine and those around the globe who may have been doing the same as I in that wonderful moment of space and time.

I was also a little surprised 'cuz I didn't plan it and 'cuz something seemed different at Point Dume compared to last time I was there. No wind. Very little wave action. And no surfers. But not at El Porto. They were lined up and riding the waves. Lots of action. I wish I could have stayed longer. For someone who doesn't consider herself to have trouble sleeping, I had another two hour sleep night or should I say at least last night I got two hours before leaving for Malibu.

Plus, I find it interesting how sometimes (and I wish I could figure it out better to duplicate it better) that old saying "careful what you ask for" really rings true. I felt like I had been spending so much time inside and on the computer and was actually feeling a little sorry for myself. Now truth is I wasn't totally sad 'cuz it had been so freakin' hot out that I was happy to be inside practically blowing my fan directly on me.

I mention this 'cuz on the way back from Malibu as I was listening to the Mark and Bryan show on KLOS, there was much mention of different events going on since today is 090909. Vegas expects to have record numbers of wedding ceremonies today. Love is in the air, people. It also is the day Santa Monica chose to formally celebrate the 100th anniversary of the pier with fireworks and the whole shebang. That's right, I said shebang.

Now we all know I am not the greatest or most talented film maker (I think I'm gonna get me a book on using my Sony Vegas Movie Studio software so I can get a bit more fancy) and I actually for now like it that way 'cuz then I just shoot what I like and I don't have to care about people critiquing. Still, as I mentioned to Manny I really think I want to go and film this. I mean how often does a 100th anniversary get celebrated for something? That's right. Don't get out your calculator. Every 100 years. I have a pretty good guess that I won't be around for the next one. And who knows who on YouTube may enjoy seeing what I capture with my digital view finder.

Please understand none of this is complaining. It is all part of my remembering my journey as I traverse this 100-day open-heart challenge.

I wish you a glorious rest of the day. If you are reading this before 09:09 PM on 090909, you still have a great opportunity to participate in the currency cleanse today. Thanks to all of you who read this and all who are participating in the currency cleanse. And if it is not to woo-woo, think of how my writing this now but your reading it now somehow transcends time and space to connect us and that of all the infinite beyond imagination of possible experiences either of us could be having in our present moment of NOW, this is the one we have somehow attracted and manifested. Woo Woo!

Day 16, Friday, September 4, 2009

Have you ever had one of those nights where you felt inspired to create something, but since it was bed time and you SHOULD be sleeping...instead of just getting up and doing it, you keep going over and over it in your mind?

Can I get an, "AMEN"? Amen!

I love Brad Yates' EFT ho'oponopono video. I added it to the Currency Cleanse page on the friends of the law of attraction site 'cuz I value it so much. Then I found out that he doesn't say it in the video in the same order as they refer to it in the Zero Limits book by Dr. Joe Vitale and Dr. Hew Len. Also, in the book they are specific about directing the words, "I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you." to LOVE, the Higher Power.

So I wanted to make a video but I do not like being on camera, I didn't really want to ask anyone else to be in it and I have limited editing skills. What is the answer? Why not have it be semi-serious in the sense the information is solid, yet why not make it a little cheesy and hopefully then a little fun. You know put a little joy and smile into it.

And ta da. Today I created that video. It actually came out a little better and was a little easier than I thought even though I forgot a few things I had wanted to put in it and would have liked to have made it a bit shorter. Still, all in all...just for my own joy and pleasure...and then hopefully yours...I share my video creation with the internet universe.

In case you think I have forgotten about my pet projects, currency cleanse and the big idea of adding donate buttons on every website so people can easily practice inspired giving from the heart...anonymously...with no expectation...I haven't.

To see my video, you need to go to the Currency Cleanse page. You can magically be transported by clicking here. Once there you can click on the appreciation and giving page to find out more about the inspired giving.

Anyway, ain't life grand? Technology too? And as I am feeling good and loving life, I am also flowing and glowing with well-being. And so it is.

Day 15, Thursday, September 3, 2009

Today I plan on giving myself a huge, heapin' guilt-free dose of self-honesty. Here goes.

Back during one of the times after we had broken up and then were thinking about getting back together, the man who I at the time was the love of my life and I couldn't live without, told me one of his main reasons for not wanting to be with me is that I didn't seem to have much self-love. Ouch.

How could I not love myself? I probably gave myself 85% of my daily thoughts worth of reasons why I wasn't worthy of self-love yet. Today, almost 10 years later through my spirituality that percentage probably hovers somewhere around 50%.

I also can see I have some judgment towards people who are physically in ill health on a continuous basis. And I can see how doctors and all the energy on health care and people having so much focus on health insurance, etc. (I haven't had health insurance for at least 7 years and have more than saved a ton of money paying for any health care out of my own pocket than putting any worry on this). Whether they realize it or not, doctors need patients to survive. And so a part of them has a vested interest in keeping all of this going.

After I read Zero Limits, I realized that all of us in the self-help and spirituality mix are pretty much in the same boat. If it appears my livelihood is based on helping broken people, then I have a vested interest in perpetuating broken people because I need them.

It's part of why I started American Well-Being LLC. According to Abraham-Hicks, at least to be fair, in my interpretation, right here and now I am already everything worthy of love...I am already whole, perfect, fabulous, wonderful, brilliant, flowing and glowing well-being and All is Well...right here and now and in every marvelous, miraculous moment of now. So, why am I not experiencing this here and now?

That seems like the million dollar question.

Today is also the start of the second month or day 33 of my actual 100-day journey I told myself I was starting because day 100 would be the day I turn 50 in earth years. 1/3rd of the way through and in all honesty I'm not sure how much progress I feel I've made. Yet, doesn't that have to be okay?

This morning I again woke up not feeling the best emotionally and why don't I wake up just feeling joy? And part of me doesn't want the answer so much as the solution.

And another part of me knows the solution is love. Love. Love. Love. Not just any love, but unconditional love. Can I only love myself if....?

Is that why I am so pushing to have adoring fans who love my blog, or think I'm great 'cuz I am promoting currency cleansing with no thought of gain except the healing for our economy or with my Big Idea for inspired giving? If others think I am this wonderful and jump on the bandwagon, then can I love myself? I mean sometimes, I can't even love myself (here's some honesty for you) if I don't make the bed. And I can see that sometimes I push myself to see how far I can go with something before I think I might be punished. But punished by who or whom or what?

And all of it brings me back to Zero Limits and ho'oponopono. Technically, there is no out there. Technically, everyone else is perfect (and me too but if I am not experiencing myself as perfect that's where the cleaning comes in). So there is no punishment, but self-punishment. There is no judgment, but self-judgment. And what will it take for me to love myself.

Here's some more honesty. If truth be told I can see I even have a hard time saying I love myself unconditionally or feeling like it is a worthy pursuit to be more self-loving. After all...look at me, I am a mess. Okay, I am not really a mess. But sometimes with the way I treat and think about myself, you might think this is the truth.

It's all relative. Currently, I live in a four-plex which is owned by my life partner's family. At one point because every unit is actually pretty nice considering it is a four-plex (3 bedrooms and 2 baths), the more I decorated it to my taste, the more I loved it and felt like it was the taj mahal. That was a little over a year ago. And ever since, I am less satisfied because I want to live in walking distance to my beloved ocean. You know, like I say on Twitter. I am an ocean dork. I love it.

Has my home changed? No. Just my thought about it. And I know my energy is torn about leaving because my man loves it here with his family. Plus, every day all of his sister's grand children are here playing and being kids. As I watch them, I become more and more convinced about wanting to find a way to return to that place of innocence of a child. I am not sure what age it might be yet or around what age, but there is a time when they have no self-consciousness about there body or how they look or if the universe will grant their desire or any of that.

As I was sitting at the computer contemplating what I wanted to do next, while my brain was trying to help me figure out what was the best next step, something that they mention in Zero Limits is when I am at this place of Zero Limits I can hear the inspiration from the divine. And then I don't even have to decide whether or not I should act on that inspiration because I already know the answer is yes.

I also love how Zero Limits talks about how we like to think we know and we like to think we have the answers and then we will arrive and everything will be magical from that moment forward. So, I love Dr. Len's honesty that even at this point if he is honest, he doesn't really know the why for everything...he still isn't always sure what is a memory playing which has come up in awareness or an inspiration. And so he keeps on cleaning.

So I say take it with a grain of salt when someone says they have your answers. And I am going to try to make it enough that even if my place that I hold in all of this cosmic consciousness is one of silently cleaning, cleaning, cleaning in order to live more and more fully from an open heart in each miraculous moment of now, to let myself be content with that. For I more and more do understand that for every celebrity...for every star...they can't play their role without their fans and followers playing theirs.

And perhaps that is a key to the Peace of I. Every role is important. Every cog. Every spark of the divine. How can I love myself now? How can I love myself in this moment? Especially knowing that I am loved divinely in this moment. I am blessed divinely in this moment. Can't I see it? Can't I feel it? Can't I receive it? Can't I radiate it...flow it and glow it?

Some might say, if you wish to see it...get different eyes. It's my understanding that is the meaning behind the one eye on the pyramid. Until then or perhaps in combination with this understanding, I again continue to convince myself that ho'oponopono is such a wonderful answer and solution as it continues to cleanse my lenses that I perceive the world with until I reach my desitination of zero limits.

Plus, I have to say that one thing I have let go of (or am aware of and willing to let go more and more of) is being helped. I am open to all help. And yet, I continue to see how it is mostly an inside job.

And so can I love myself right now? How about now? And for those of you correct English snobs out there (I love you), you may be thinking, "of course you can. Ask a better question." Will I love myself unconditionally right now? How about now?

And I say through all of this conversation with myself, I am happy to recommit to love. To self love, to loving everything and anything in every moment to the best of my ability. I feel like in this challenge I have sort of through the back door asked for all the ways I haven't loved myself to show up so I can now love them. As I have also committed to taking 100% responsibility for my flowing n glowing well-being, if stuff does come up LOVE is always the answer.

Although having just read that, I would like to shout out to the Universe that this doesn't mean I am looking for you to bring me reasons to love necessarily. It seems to me that if I learned anything from Zero Limits is that love doesn't need a reason. Love is who I am. Love is what I do. Only love. Always love. Flowing love. Glowing love. Radiating love.

I know there is a part of me that will fight this, it already is resistant to it. It already is telling me that love is not the answer...that love is not how I get my desires fulfilled. Still, I remember when I first read Deepak Chopra's book on Snychrodestiny and how he mentions something to the effect that there will come a time when my desire will merge with divine desire...what is best for the collective consciousness as a whole...and it seems to me that time is approaching for me.

Deepak Chopra has long talked about the known being a prison. I was contemplating the other day that when I graduated from High School I could have never contemplated the different technologies and things like that to have made some sort of concrete plan and map of my life.

And I want to let go of the things like, "this happened because ______". I desire to get to that place that there is only one reason. What shows up in my awareness shows up because it is a vibrational match to what is in my consciousness. However, the universe is taking care of me is because I feel taken care of to that degree.

Like I told myself before, if in every moment I do not question why did this show up or it what has shown up is good or bad or worthy of love...of my love...for any and all of this is RESISTANCE...and I simply love it all with my heart as open as I may allow it to be...and this is my consciousness...then pretty soon my outer will match my inner (for sadly there is a time lag...okay, let me love that too). And then maybe I won't wake up anymore feeling low...everyday I will wake up feeling only joy and love.

And as I hear the kids upstairs watching, Finding Nemo, one of my favorite movies EVER, I am reminded to "Just Keep Swimming".

Day 12 Monday, August 31, 2009

Life is good.

The tag line for american well-being llc is "feelin' good and lovin' life". I didn't really mean to write that...it just sort of came out. It's how I am feelin' as I write this, which I find sort of interesting since I am about to mention giving (more or less).

I was inspired this weekend after a class I participated in to start offering 20-minute on phone sessions with me for those who have physical body issues and would love to have me teach them some fast and easy tools to work with this on an energetic level.

These sessions will not be free. I am charging $1 for a session and will only schedule four sessions per day.

And I'm just going to put it out there why I am willing to do this for only $1 in such a seemingly informal format.

I don't like those email capture pages that go on and on and on and on when truth is if you are reading it you attracted it for some reason. People don't like to be sold, they like to buy. Search your heart. You will know if it is worth it or not without reading all that other crap (I mean stuff).

I don't like how someone wants to charge your over $100 for something (my fee for an hour session is $77) and offer a money back guarantee. To me, let me try it and see you can deliver and then let me pay you for it. This is why I have a donate button on my www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com web presence. If after sharing our 20-minutes together and investing $1 for the knowledge you feel the information has inspired you and enhanced the well-being in your life, then if your heart prompts you I am open to receiving those types of gifts. In fact, I so would much rather receive money you are inspired from your heart to give than receiving $100 that you forwarded with fear energy all over it.

If you are tired of feeling bad about your physical body, I have some easy to learn and easy to use tools to help you relieve and let go of those feelings.

If you are interested, please email me at lbjork9999@yahoo.com telling me you are interested and the best ways for me to contact you to set up a day and time.

And truth be told, you are also doing me a favor. One of my tools I use and we will share is ho'oponopono. So during our sessions I will be clearing energy for me and for you. So, thank you for your willingness to help you and me. I really appreciate the help. And I am excited to meet all who take me up on this offer.

Here's to our flowing and glowing more and more energy in harmonious alignment with our divine well-being.

And so it is.

Day 11, Sunday, August 30, 2009

Yeah Angels! Had a fun time at the ballpark. Had my first ballpark hot dog. Yum. And best of all, we had great seats, the tickets were a gift and we had two extra tickets that someone bought from us for $20 (which was a really good deal for them as they were $70 face value). So that paid for our parking and one beer. My buddy Torii and Vlad really came to hit. And we won. Woo hoo!

Okay, how exciting. I was just interrupted to answer the phone and my oldest son called to let me know congratulations is in order. He asked his girlfriend to marry him and she said yes. Wedding in 2011.

So, isn't life grand? I think so.

What I also wanted to share was that I agreed to filming job for my friend, Bill. He wanted me to film him at his Sunday morning Tai Chi so he can get better. It was a lovely park and all was going well until one of the gals who is in the group decided she didn't want to be filmed...never mind don't put this on YouTube...even after I assured her I wouldn't put it on YouTube nor was it going to be for anything but instructional purposes for Bill.

Her words were she wanted me to erase every part of the video that she was in. I sort of took it to erase her out of it...not erase everything, which I find to be not unreasonable. And I wanted to accommodate her. I wanted to honor her wishes. I don't enjoy having my image captured in any way either.

As I was leaving I wanted to explain to her again that I would do everything I could to honor her wishes, but I didn't know how to erase just her image from the video. What was interesting to me is that even though she mentioned she was honoring her heart (and isn't this all about my 100 day open heart journey?) by requesting this of me (and I so understood where she was coming from)...it was almost as if she wasn't hearing me. Or as if she didn't expect her desire to be honored by me.

So as I decided to give up trying to explain that I would do what I could to honor her request as it appeared to be falling on deaf ears and was pointless at this point, I couldn't help but be somewhat bothered.

There really is very little drama in my life anymore that seems to directly be something I am involved in. Although, I find now via ho'oponopono that this means I am ready for the next level, full...100% responsibility for everything that shows up in my life even if it isn't something that is a "problem" I am experiencing directly. The very fact it has shown up in my awareness means it is in my consciousness and so it needs to be cleaned and cleared and replaced with divine "zero limits" love and well-being.

If I didn't deal with this it would get stuck in my consciousness and I would have to deal with it at some point.

What is so wonderful is that I have ho'oponopono as a tool to love it and release it. So, I have honored her request and said those magic 10 words until I felt at peace with it all.

I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.

Bless you. Bless me. Bless it all. It's all divine.

Day 7, Wednesday, August 26, 2009

So today would have been my dad's 76th birthday. Happy Birthday, Dad. Thank you for the blessings you helped my soul experience. I hope wherever you are in your soul's journey it is filled with love and blessings. My dad passed over ten years ago.

So, if you are reading this, where's day 1 through day 6? I had already set up a google account for blog spot under a business my son and I share, http://www.beerchillin.us. What's a so called spirituality fanatic doing with a business that more or less promotes beer? That's another story. And the real gist of our business is we sell beer steins and promote beer as a way to chill...not to get drunk. And the stein as a way of enjoying your sudsy beverage in a way that makes you feel rich as you drink whatever beer you enjoy. As a way to celebrate and toast to the good life.

Since the account is in my name, when I decided to do this blog Google wouldn't let me cancel this account to set up another. And try as I might to get them to and/or figure out how to add the blog I started be part of this account...I couldn't figure it out.

This seemed a great compromise since I was only five days into the old one and everything I've written I have also posted to my CCOR (co-creators of reality) page.

After today, this blog and my CCOR page will track again. Whoo hoo!

If you are interested in my CCOR page, you can click here.

If you are interested in the CCOR page for the 100 day open-heart challenge, click here.

Today, I was excited to see that Dr. Joe Vitale's book Attract Money Now is available to download in digital form for reading. If you would like to get your own copy, click here.

I read it. I loved it. And yet, to be honest, I was a little sad by it 'cuz he includes everything I've been feeling and sensing as truth but didn't have the confidence to write myself. And there is a part of me that feels like why try? Why reinvent the wheel when he has expressed it so wonderfully. And it sort of makes me rethink what it is I feel like I have been going for with the business I wished to start. And so there is some sadness.

And yet, part of me feels like in as much as it has derailed me a little, I still feel committed to living more from my heart. And that what Dr. Joe Vitale describes as Dr. Hew Len's philosophy of life where you actually get to the point of not even needing intention (except that I still must have to have the attention to follow what Dr. Hew Len teaches, eh?) is such an open heart place.

Also, as I was writing stuff (if I read a how-to type book, I like to write out things that sort of shout-out to me as something I want to remember from the book as a way of reinforcing the teaching), it occurred to me that while my time reading the book and spreading the word is well-spent, I am still in love with the whole ho'oponopono concept and how it applies to living with an open-heart.

Dr. Hew Len basically puts it out there that in every moment I should be silently saying the 10 ho'oponopono words (I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you.) to myself and to the divine. This tracks with my intention to be 100% impeccable. And to be more like God consciousness in the sense that Dr. Hew Len doesn't limit what I see as divine as being simply other humans. It's all divine. It's all energy.

What occurred to me in the context with the Law of Attraction is that if in evey moment I simply practice as Dr. Hew Len describes and continue to repeat (or as much of every moment as I am able and think of it consciously until I get to every moment) the 10 words, well, when is the point of attraction? Right. The point of attraction is in the point of attention, which is in the present moment.

It stands to reason then that if in every moment I am continually reciting the 10 words (and maybe, I cheat a little, but don't think it can hurt 'cuz I like to repeat what Brad Yates says in his ho'oponopono video and you can see a lot of this and more if you, click here) and pepper in the "Thank you for the blessings I have. Thank you for the blessings I am receiving" then in every moment I am vibing more and more in harmony with divine love.

And as I vibe more in harmony with divine love, then what could there be to fear. What must show up...what I must then start attracting on a moment to moment basis is only going to be more and more in harmony with divine love. Sometimes I like to misspell harmony and spell it har-money, as harmony with the divine is harmony with all aspects of well-being, which include health, wealth, beauty, love, joy, peace, etc.

I mentioned too, that ho'oponopono is simple. It's easy to remember. It almost makes it easier to have me be told to just do it all the time 'cuz then I don't have to remember when to do it and when not to do it. And here's what seems like it will be the other benefit: it helps me let go of resistance. It is helping me let go of deciding if what is showing up is something I should like or not, instead it simply frees me to love it and then say next. Or as the prayer implies. By repeating it, it frees me up to either forgive myself for whatever was in my consciousness that I attracted it into my awareness. Then I appreciate it and love it and bless it and send it on its way for the next best, more in alignment with divine love and well-being experience to show up.

And I have to say that this sort of thing has opened the door for me to love a seeming virus threat and love it out of my life. And it opened the door from unexpected cash to start flowing in from places I so didn't expect.

Okay, so all in all, the book was worthy of the read. I would recommend it. And how can you go wrong with such wonderful information shared freely and requiring only an investment of your time.

It's going to be exciting to see how my life is different at the end of the 100 days. On day 83 I will turn 50 in earth years. I've always had a feeling I would live past 100 physical years in this lifetime and in a fabulous and fit and full of well-being way. This could be an awesome way to herald in the second half of this glorious incarnation.

And so it is.

P.S. Brad Yates has a wonderful (at least in my opinion) program he did in conjunction with Dr. Joe Vitale that incorporates EFT, called Money Beyond Belief. Probably the best $49 investment I've made in a long time. One of the things included in the program is a short audio to tap on embracing change. Had I known at how helpful just this short audio would be, well... If you are interested in finding out more about this program, please click here.

Welcome

This is my blog.

How original is that?

I know...so many blogs. Why bother?

I want to record my journey, the journey that tracks my decision to participate in the 100-day open heart challenge which started on August 20, 2009. So, I am really writing this for me. I promised myself I would not get hung up on whether what I was writing was good or perfect English or anything anyone cared about. Yet, I would still put it out there and mention it on Twitter (go #TwitterPower) and just let whoever seemed attracted to be attracted in whatever way they felt attracted.

And so it is!