Day 47, Monday, October 5, 2009

You know, I was so inspired to write stuff for this blog in the beginning. 

Now I've lagged off to every other day.  Not that this is a bad thing nor do I want to imply I am disappointed with me, 'cuz in the past those words may have inspired such feelings in me. 

It's just that I have so many great ideas coming in, I almost can't seem to keep up.

Tomorrow is another Tiara Tuesday and my friend, Ericka's birthday.  Accordingly, I plan on spending a little less time at my laptop.

I still am currency cleansing, advocating inspired giving and wellbeing.  And even more, ho'oponopono, which as I write this just answered one of my own "how can I?" questions.  There you go.

Blessings and Namaste.

Day 45, Saturday, October 3, 2009

Isn't it interesting how the Universe supports us once we make a decision?
Isn't it interesting how the Universe supports us once we make a decision.

I've been "dabbling" with my company, AmericanWell-Being LLC, since March of this year.  And yet as I write about identity, identity theft, ho'oponopono and the like, I haven't identified myself as someone who has a business, works and makes money doing it even though I know about spiritual stuff and manifesting.

I mention this because with my "happy accident" I wrote about in my last blog, I am probably a million times farther along with being successful as identifying myself as a Professional Blogger than I allowed myself to be with American Well-Being.

Chances are this is perfect.  While I thought I desired to be in a business that promotes well-being, in the past six months it seems that what I would really love to do is aligned very closely with what a professional blogger does.

I also feel this seems to be a perfect answer for me in the sense that I don't feel comfortable being paid to what in my opinion amounts to helping my brother or sister children of God with their spirituality.

And I've realized much in the sense that it isn't my job to save anyone.  It isn't my job to try to convince you that my thoughts, feelings or beliefs are better than yours and so you should adopt mine.

Some of why I believe this is
1.  Abraham says it was never the intent of our souls to come here and save anyone else or judge their experience.
2.  With my Right Of Consciousness Knowledge, I understand that I am the supreme ruler of my personal consciousness and you are the supreme ruler of yours.  What seems the most loving and respectful thing for me then is to share and enjoy together with my brother and sister Supreme Rulers.

I had mentioned in a previous post that I would talk about Right of Consciousness Knowledge (R.O.C.K., as I like to refer to it) and so today seems to be the day.

The first time I feel I was introduced to the concept in a way that really resonated with me is from Alan Cohen's book, Relax Into Wealth (click here if you are interested in checking this book out for yourself).

I quote from the book,

"While it appears external rules govern who owns what, the prevailing law is the Right of Consciousness.

I must love it, know I deserve it and hold a vision for healthy, joyful use of it.  Then it comes to me easily.  When I am joined with something I truly deserve by my mental, emotional and spiritual alignment--it is mine by Universal Law.  No one can interfere.

Remember, I am under no laws but God's.  I live and love in Universal Principle here and now.  Everything I desire comes to me and stays with me by virtue of love."

As I contemplate this truth, this knowledge truly does make each of us equal.  In each moment we are able to and have access to the full potential of Divine Love Intelligence.  It seems to be the reason why each of us is just as equal and capable as the Albert Einsteins, Bill Gates, Oprahs and Dalai Lamas of the world.  This Right of Consciousness Knowledge truly evens the playing field, if we let it.  It also seems to me that it evens the playing field in the sense that nothing is better or worse, simply different...preference.

It also makes me wonder about the changes going on with the monetary system and the so-called coming 2012 stuff.  Personally, I don't know if I want to read any of those books after what happened with Y2K and they may perhaps limit what I might be able to expect to manifest for me in my life.

Anyway, with the monetary system thing, I know my knee-jerk way of thinking and believing is the way to get something is "buy it".  So, if I don't have the money NOW or don't know how to get the money soon, then instead of using Universal Law, R.O.C.K., knowing I am Supreme Ruler of my own personal consciousness universe, I'll tell myself to "get real...I can't have that."

Yet, without going into too much detail about my past creations, with seeming little monetary wealth I live a pretty wealthy life compared to the majority of the planet.

The Universe doesn't tell me "NO".  The Universe knows how to bring me what I claim via R.O.C.K.  In fact, that's all the Universe is programmed to do.  Like the biggest duplicating machine EVER, the Universe simply projects for me in the outer something that is a vibrational match to my inner or my personal consciousness.

With my new connection to Heaven on Earth LA, I continue to think about my idea of Heaven where "I make the rules and break them 'cuz I'm the best".  That's from a Prince song.  While I am not sure my idea of Heaven was ever quite that well thought out and conceived of, I'm pretty sure my idea of it didn't include money.  It simply included wanting something and getting it.

All of this brings me full circle to deciding on the first day of October, the day I said I was going to start a 40-day Fast from thinking of myself falsely and at least three times a day saying and meaning, "Thank You, God, for restoring me to the perfection from which I emanated." that I AM a Professional Blogger.  And so it is.

P.S.  I'm still cleansing currency, blessing money and the outer source it came to me from and the outer source I circulate it to; knowing I stimulate circulation by participating in circulation.  Also, proclaiming that "money works for me" (not vice-versa), which is similar to another reason why R.O.C.K. can bless your life.  Consciousness, which I feel can be interchanged with energy or Divine Love Intelligence or in the moment pure potential, works for me.  Consciousness is simply like a lump of clay until I command it with my intention and attention.  So, what kind of boss are you in your Consciousness Universe or Consciousness Kingdom or Queendom?

P.P.S.  I am also a little surprised and interested to find in one of the books I read about blogging (and thank you to those authors who taught me some great things) that some bloggers use the donate button from PayPal on their blogs asking for donations if the blog has inspired them in some way.  This is basically what I envisioned with my Inspired Giving idea that I mention at http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com.  I just don't know how to incorporate it into my blogs...YET.

And lastly, this initial 100-day open-heart challenge that inspired me to start blogging.  1. Thank you.  2.  Sometimes I feel like I am not really focused on opening my heart during this 100 days.  Yet, I have had so many insights and really am allowing myself to love myself more and others.  The challenge is helping me expand my definition of love.  That's something.

Day 41, Another Glorious Tiara Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Happy Tiara Tuesday everyone.

No blog on Sunday. The pinata was a huge hit and yet I was quite interested in the difference between a kid's party where everyone ones a shot at hitting the pinata or they are sad and this party where none of my 27-year old cousin's male friends wanted a shot. Ended up only my cousin, his mom and his dad and then my cousin again were game. Of course, in all fairness I never intended on taking a shot myself and I'm not sure what all of this says about anything, but...

Needless to say, I was on quite a high.

And then yesterday, not so much. A video I'm putting together for Heaven on Earth crashed on me a couple of times and my internet access was denied for whatever reason.

The real tragedy is that I am so much more aware of when I let outward "anything" define me as being somehow less than. Then it really makes those 10 ho'oponopono words all the more meaningful as I say, "I love you. I'm sorry. I forgive you. Thank you." As much as I am not too thrilled that I notice how much I do this, I am very thrilled that every day I do love myself more and that I truly am sorry and forgive myself for seeing me as something other than the glory of Divine Love Intelligence made manifest that I know I am. And for at least stopping the hamster wheel and stepping out even if I am not completely out.

This morning I woke up with a realization that I have all these great realizations and I know I am Divine and I know I am stepping out of the hamster wheel and claiming my flowing and glowing well-being and stop resisting what is illusion and put my attention on what is REAL and Divine, but I am attempting to do so with my same human mind/thinking when I need to make the transition to Divine Mind and Divine Heart and Divine everything if I really seek to transition...to be clear...to be restored to the perfection from which I emanated and seeing me the way Divine Love Intelligence sees me.

All this only today when I was able to get back online to find that someone had sent me a virtual Tiara on Facebook to remind me today is Tiara Tuesday. I included a copy of this virtual Tiara in this blog. And that it was perfect to be off line 'cuz I would have gone ahead and uploaded the video to YouTube only to find that the person I am basically doing it for probably would not have been as happy without being able to see it first and she is going to get that chance tomorrow.

You know I had meant to mention the Laughing Buddha 40-day Fast that I was planning to start on October 1 and invite any to join me who desired to. I was inspired to create it from lent and wondered if in a way it was the original intent of lent. Lent is about giving up something for 40 days with the idea that if you can give something up for 40 days you can give it up forever. And I could go into a lengthy bunch of words here about what I really mean by that and how it doesn't seem to be like that anymore, but that's not my point.

I tied it into the Laughing Buddha 'cuz I like to think that the laughing Buddha laughs because once he was able to be free of illusion, he realized how silly some of our fears and the like are that we have.

So to marry the two, think of one disempowering belief you have that you could give up for 40 days. And you'd need to come up with an opposite because you want it to be less about putting attention on what you don't want and more about putting attention on what you do want OR I guess more precisely how you no longer wish to identify yourself and how you now choose to identify yourself.

And for me the ultimate was to stop seeing me as illusion and see me more the way Divine Love Intelligence sees me and at least three times a day thank Divine Love Intelligence for restoring me to the perfection from which I emanated.

I still may do this starting October 1. It's just that today I decided I was going to put together a Tiara Tuesday class that I would facilitate at Heaven on Earth LA. I haven't got it all figured out yet and I am not sure that I want to feel like I have it all figured out in order to let it shape itself organically out of the intention. But the intent behind the class is that the Tiara is symbolic of our divine identity. That in the 60 to 90 minutes together it is about practicing coming more from what we feel it would be like to "BE" via Divine Mind than our own mind.

In other words, truly in this class everyone is created equal. We are all divine children of God. We are all the rulers of the rules in our own Queendoms (which is our personal consciousness). From the place of Divine Mind and Divine Love Intelligence each of us is an Albert Einstein, Bill Gates, Oprah, Mother Teresa, etc. from the aspect of possibility. And that we don't let past ways we've identified ourselves and/or how much money we appear to have in the moment decide for us what we can experience or create.

In this class there are Zero Limits, all possibilities. We are eternal and divine and blessed and loved. In this class there are no problems. There is only wealth and health and flowing and glowing well-being, as much as we are able.

And we understand that we are all created equal because each of us has access to the same possibilities in consciousness as any of the rest of us. The same ability to change beliefs and feelings in any given moment of now.

Of course, you don't need to attend the class to do this for yourself every Tuesday. You don't even need a physical tiara to participate. You can use this virtual one as the tiara you wear in your imagination.

What you are doing is rehearsing. Ever notice the word rehearsing is re-hear-sing.

I know a lot of classes are about visioning what you want in order to bring it about. I also can see this and maybe I don't even want to call it a class as much as an experience...The Tiara Tuesday Experience...because it will be more about practicing how to rule your own consciousness Kingdom...practicing how to have consciousness work for you and not vice-versa so that your Kingdom is a joyous Kingdom whatever your definition of joyous is.

What I was getting at is that if what is currently on our "vision boards" based on our human mind, think what might be on our vision board when we get good at utilizing our Divine Minds?

So, Happy Tiara Tuesday. Who knows, maybe I will see some of you at Heaven on Earth LA sharing the practice of getting comfortable with our Divine Identities.

And while I still am so thrilled to have had the realization that to judge somethings as Divine and others as not as JUDGMENT (I never really thought it was before), in my Queendom the idea of these shared Tuesday Experiences really makes my thoughts of Tiara Tuesday and my enjoyment of Tiara Tuesday seem that much more Divine.

thank you. I love you for sharing this blog with me by reading it.

P.S. I still am cleansing that currency. Thrilled to. And have a next level to add in the sense that every time you release wealth into circulation, you remind yourself that you are stimulating the flow of wealth circulation making it that much stronger, healthier and faster for it to return to you. And again with the remembering who we are, our Divine Identity, that money works for you.

P.P.S. Still all about Inspired Giving too. To find out more go to http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Oh and remember...Love isn't a choice, just like health, wealth, joy and beauty and well-being are not choices in the sense that they are always ON and ever present in each glorious moment of NOW. You may decide not to "see" or acknowledge their existence in the moment (that is a choice) but they are ever present.

So, with lots and lots of love and blessings I remind you that you are already flowing and glowing with well-being here and now and always...you must be by definition and the identity you have in the eyes of Divine Love Intelligence. You can resist this truth or acknowledge it and flow with it.

And you know, I believe there isn't any wrong in resisting it or punishment either. It's simply that in the same way if I chose to type a "P" instead of an "A", resistance will create resistance experiences and flow will create flow experiences.

Every Tuesday, I'll be practicing seeing you glowing and flowing 'cuz that's how I choose for it to be in my Queendom. In my Queendom I see everyone as the truth of who they are even if they don't see it themself. And I will ask myself for forgiveness using ho'oponopono if I see anyone or anything in my Queendom as being anything but the way I choose for it to be. I love you. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. For in my Queendom I take full responsibility for Total Well-Being.

Namaste.

Day 36, Thankful Thursday, September 24, 2009

So, my first Thankful Thursday.

I was thinking for those who read this blog and are willing to participate, that we could take it to a different level. Some how, some way those willing to participate keep a list of everything you are grateful for during your waking hours on Thursday and then Friday, we compare numbers.

Like you keep a running total during the day. It could be as simple as if you think of something, you write a tick mark on a sheet of paper and keep track of your tick marks for the day. Let's not make it so labor and time intensive that no one will end up sticking with it.

You know many advanced spiritual writings mention that a spiritual Master pretty much gets to the place where there really is only one thing to say and that is "thank you".

And here is what might make "Thankful Thursday" a little more fun. Don't limit your list to things or people from your past or your present. Remember, technically there is no space of time. So, you can include things that you expect (you know, what if desires were simply future memories...memories of the future) or call them future memories.



P.S. I'm promoting currency cleansing and inspired giving. And, ho'oponopono. You can find out more by visiting my website, http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Thank you to everyone who reads my blogs and is inspired to participate on any level. I appreciate you and your time. Namaste.

I created my first Squidoo Lense today.

I'm so proud.

After I published it and went back to my squidoo dashboard, it somehow rated it and let me know I need to give it some more love. Not sure what else to add.

Anyway, if you would love to view it, http://www.squidoo.com/currencycleanse

Since part of the template for creating a squidoo lense includes adding some cafepress items, I thought I'd create a design for those who wish to proudly show they are currency cleansing participants. The very simple design is the one included in this blog post.

Items can be perused at the following location, http://www.cafepress.com/bjork8002

Day 27, Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Congratulations to our niece, Cynthia, and her life partner, Mario, on the birth of their baby boy this AM.

So, I have something going on in my personal life and I am not thrilled about it and I am not sure what I think about it or what I desire to to about it and the like.

And even though I woke up yesterday with the Abraham-Hicks "how would I like it to be?" and remember I am a creator not a reactor...the thermostat not the thermometer, I don't feel I followed my advice too well yesterday. I had even made a decision and then was doubting it and sort of put it out to the universe, "if this happens then I'll do 'x' and if that happens then I'll do 'y'." Still, I don't want to make the decision.

It had me(plus, how long it took to edit the footage from the Belmont Shores Car Show for uploading to YouTube) in enough of a state that I didn't even Blog yesterday. I know...alert the media.

This morning I woke up and wanted to Blog immediately 'cuz it suddenly occurred to me that I was really, really off base from what I had intended and was blogging about from the beginning of this 100-day challenge.

It wasn't supposed to be about thinking or making any choice really except, love it...love it all. If something was coming up that I normally would label with my thoughts as something I don't like (which is resistance) my new way of training myself was to not resist it...not judge it...simply see it as something in my consciousness ('cuz even though it isn't appearing in me...the fact it is appearing in my consciousness means it is in my consciousness) that needs to be healed with my love for it. My divine love for it.

Remember: love is the most powerful and FREE solvent.

So, today I seek to be less about judging (it just may be so perfect what is going on and I don't know how) and more about loving...loving it all. And asking for forgiveness for any of my mistaken beliefs so they can be eradicated and replaced with divine love energy.

Even if I may never understand the real nature of it all, I choose to be grateful today for the CCOR 100-day open-heart challenge for helping me focus on training myself to be the me I really desire to be, which is more like and in harmony with my divinity, which I believe means I am love and I be and do what love would be and do.

I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.

P.S. I am still cleansing that currency every day and am all about inspired giving. If you still haven't checked this out, just go to http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Also, as promised I am including a look at my pastel Namaste t-shirt designs. Both are the same except one is placed Big on the front of the t-shirt and the other is placed small over the heart.

Day 25, Sunday, September 13, 2009

Well, 25% of the way through the 100-day open-heart challenge. Feelin' good and lovin' life.

Yesterday, I did a bit more blogging than I intended. I say "that's okay" 'cuz I was inspired to do so.

There's a Deepak Chopra quote, "When I see and feel the life beat of Spirit in every object, I evolve to a higher level of transformation called 'God Consciousness'."

I mention this 'cuz I know I've mentioned before that part of why I got on the spiritual path was to feel better about myself. And to be honest, to feel better about myself compared to others who weren't as spiritual as me. Like somehow that would give me favor with the Divine.

Only to find out that there isn't a single spiritual practice I can practice that can make me more spiritual than I already am. I was created spiritual and technically there is only spirit either in form or in potential.

I'd have to say that I used to have a much narrower view of love. I bring this up because today I accompanied my Uncle to one of his favorite things, a classic car show. The one in Belmont Shores, which is a neighborhood of Long Beach, California. And one of the best attended car shows of the season.

My uncle can tell you things about cars that I wouldn't even pretend to know...his knowledge almost encyclopedic. He'd probably be a great friend for Jay Leno.

Anyway, as we were driving back from the event I was thinking about how much love really was flowing and glowing at this event. Even if a lot of it was for seeming inanimate objects. For again, to believe the divine is not in every atom of energy seems to be another misconception.

Or to admire the beauty. Again, even though I am not a big fan of this kind of thing, I challenge anyone to look at some of the cars that were displayed and not just be blown away by the beauty of some of these amazing vehicles that have been loved and pampered by their owners.

I will leave it at that and send my uncle appreciation for sharing his love with me in this way.

P.S. I am still for currency cleanse and inspired giving. Both can be explored further by visiting http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Also, below is one of my favorite spiritually inspired t-shirt designs. Today, I include the design in primary colors with the choice of having it big on the shirt or smaller with over the heart placement. If you like the design, but are more inclined to pastel colors, that is what I will be including in tomorrow's blog.

A little blurb about my inspiration for the design. I love the meaning of the word namaste as it is a greeting to honor the divine in us all regardless of race, color, creed, etc. That is why I used multiple colors and multiple fonts. Enjoy.





As always, thank you so much for your time to read my blog and/or participate in currency cleanse, inspired giving or buying a t-shirt with one of my designs. Bless you and namaste.

Please read Day 24 before reading this.

I was just about free to do something else, when the thought popped in my head that when it comes to the "what if" channel or really just about anything, I would never be able to be a success with "what if" without the participation and ideas of many other of my brother and sister children of God.

This is my way of asking for help, inspiration or anything like that.

And this is a great place, I feel, to write for my memory of it and as a blessed way to share an experience I had.

On Sunset Blvd. in Pacific Palisades, California not far from the Pacific Coast Highway and the beach and ocean I love so much, is one of the Self-Realization's (SRF) places to visit. SRF was founded by Paramahansa Yogananda, the divine being who authored, Autobiography of a Yogi, and is credited with bringing yoga from India to the United States.

If you ever get the chance, (for it truly seems to be one of the most peaceful places on this planet at least that I've ever been to) please visit.

It was a annex lot for a film company before Parahamhansa Yogananda got it. He kept the authentic wind-mill style home that was on the lot and it has been turned into a sort of small church/place to meditate. On the altar are photographic likenesses of six different spiritual masters, including Jesus, the Christ. During visiting ours of the Lake Center you can go into this building and sit silently and pray, meditate, contemplate, "what if", whatever.

I love to go there to either meditate or feel like I am in a Master Mind group with these spiritual masters, as I understand that the Higher Self part of each of us is a peer with these spiritual masters.

During one of our Master Mind sessions, I was really getting into feeling it and feeling appreciation for them and their sharing, etc., and for all the ways they have helped teach me and guide me on my spiritual path.

There is a part of me that feels that because my Higher Self is a peer and is a part of me and even with the flowing and glowing with well-being thing, that I am already flowing and glowing with Divine Love well-being and so I am in the process of restoration as opposed to becoming something I am not yet.

Of course, maybe I'm making it all up. Like Dr. Hew Len mentions "do we really have definitive answers?".

Still, as I was thanking them for all their help, I swear I heard them telling me how much they appreciated me and it was their honor, as well. This hadn't really occurred to me before. They went on to share that they can't teach (be the master) without students. That it is inspiring to the teacher to feel like they are making a difference with what they teach.

Later as I thought about it, think about it, Facebook would be a useless nothing if there weren't all the facebook friends utilizing it. Same with Twitter. Same with the internet. Same with life. Same with love.

I mean I know LOVE IS. Still, I think about the ocean and breathing. It flows in and flows out. What if it always flowed in? OR What if it always flowed out? Same with giving and receiving. We put so much emphasis on giving. And I understand that the vibe with giving is that you have something to give which implies a vibrations of having/wealth. Still, "what if" we were all only givers. Who would be there to receive?

Anyway, all of this in an effort to make my case that I really, really would be so appreciative for help with currency cleanse, inspired giving and the "what if" channel. Even if it means you simply know someone who might be able to help and you pass this on to them.

Thank you. I love you.

Day 24, Saturday, September 12, 2009

I love the people on FB who seem really appreciative for everything. I want to be that being 24/7. I have time, right? I am eternal.

I'm also not a huge fan of James Arthur Ray, but he is a FB friend and today I loved his post. "Since you can choose your own beliefs, choose three new, empowering beliefs that will assist you in living the life you desire and deserve."

I believe I mentioned in an earlier blog that I've been having tons of inspiration. Almost more than I can handle in the sense of getting them out in a seeming timely fashion. One inspiration was to create a "what if" channel on YouTube.

I sort of have to laugh 'cuz I didn't get it at first that I could have my own YouTube channel and now that I am loving (and I would have never guessed I would love this...so you never know unless you try) using my digital movie camera and have over 50 "shows" on my channel (and not that I am the greatest or anything but ametuer, but I like that I am ametuer)...I get it.

So, I so could see clearly in my mind a channel dedicated to "what if's". Beyond the awesome occurrence of seemingly having an inspiration simply show up in your consciousness, the "what if" seems to be a very close relation to imagination and the creative process.

My actual inspiration has to do more with asking those wonderful well-beings under 10 years of physical age things like, "What if cows are purple, then what color do you think their milk will be?" or "What if you were president." or "What if you were a super hero, what super power would you have?" Things like that.

And then with the way you can grow a channel and get subscribers and connect with hub pages and squidoo lenses and the like so you get some income coming in via ads, etc. to somehow connect it all so that the kids who participate could get money donated to their school. And somehow fashion it so that kids would have real experience ways of the different things they can do and create on the internet.

This is my challenge to you and I today in marrying the "what if" with the you can believe anything, "what if you replaced three disempowering beliefs with three empowering ones, how do you feel your life would change?"

Now go.

And you know what? I had a thought I wanted to share in today's blog and it totally escaped me and so I started writing all this and as I finished, it popped back in. Interesting. Amazing.

It did have a "what if" reference and it had to do with living in the moment. And it had to do with what if we really were be able to not only let go of every past moment so far, but we forgot everyone of those past moments...so each moment was fresh...refreshed and fresh. It sort of blows my mind because there would be no continuity. But then I would let go of what appears to be a somewhat crippling belief that for the most part for me is if it has never happened for me before, what has changed that makes me expect something I desire (and has neverhappened for me before) will suddenly appear for me today?

Which I know is a silly belief because lots of things I have never experienced before happen in my life.

I think sometimes it is like the saying, you can make anything with a really good recipe or really great instructions. And for some things I feel like I just want that definitive set of instructions and then move on. Somehow I can't seem to get my hand on that recipe. Which makes me think, "what if I did?"

P.S. I continue to take the time every day to ask for the currency to be cleansed. And just as I wrote this maybe I should update so that if you have asked once, then subsequent practice should be appreciating the willingness of the Divine to maintain the cleansing of our currency. "What if" someone asked me for the same thing every day? How would I feel? Okay, this is interesting.

Also, if you would be so willing, I will continue to promote "inspired giving". To check out "inspired giving", click here. After, you can check out currency cleanse by clicking on the currency cleanse page. Thank you.

Day 23, Friday, September 11, 2009

Whoo Hoo!

I had written earlier that I was waking up with the need to amp my vibe 'cuz I didn't just wake up feelin' good and lovin' life, which is the American Well-Being catch phrase.

Now here it is only day 23 and this morning I did wake up feelin' good and lovin' life...really appreciative. And I have so much I want to do regarding Big Ideas for on-line presences and the like and yet, when I actually got to my computer and started going through my routine...I'm just not feelin' it.

I know part of it is 'cuz I spent almost all day yesterday "chained" (there's a feeling word for you) to my computer. And while I loved what I was doing, and technically what I did a second ago should have no influence on what I am inspired to do in this wonderful, amazing, magical present moment of NOW...I can see that I do allow that to influence how I feel.

Remember, I want to be the thermometer, not the thermostat. Still, I am going to honor that and look to do something that easily amps my vibe and I feel good enjoying. I'm not sure what that is yet, but I wanted to write about how I can let it be okay for me to go and do what I feel inspired to go and do.

Feelings...open heart...love it.

And I continue to toy with the phrase I am longing to design something around.

Any comments:

Where love is fear is not. Fear is not where love is.
Love is where fear is not. Where fear is not love is.
Love is where fear is not. Where fear is not is love.

I won't say which I am leaning toward. I love that it helps me remain in trust in the support, love and blessings of the Divine and the Universe. And how this focus on this journey helps me be more aware of identifying myself as a being who is flowing and glowing with divine love well-being. I have this excellent guided meditation I can listen to that reminds me that the truth of me is that I am not my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions, etc. I am zero limits. I am the glory of God made manifest. I am pure potential in every moment of NOW, which is technically all there is. Don't look outside to define me. Look within. Feel within. Open my hear. Love is the most powerful solvent for fear. For where fear is love is not. Love is where fear is not. And now we have come full circle.

And so it is.

P.S. I would still love for anyone who is reading this to look into currency cleansing. Click here to find out more about it. And I created the malibu currency cleanse video which includes the exact intention you need to align with (and includes simply listening as your declaration of intent to the universe) and a lovely shout out of appreciation to the Divine for all the wealth being circulated in your life.

Thank you. I love you.

Day 21, Currency Cleanse Event, Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Happy 090909 to all.

I am thrilled I made it to Point Dume (pronounced Du-may, which I happily learned today before getting my video out there and mispronouncing it). I fear I was a tidge late for the technical moment the sun rose on the horizon, but I'm not sure I could have seen it and if I couldn't my camera most likely wouldn't. Although, sometimes I get a kick out of what the camera does capture for it technically has no POV and simply records what is there as is. So sometimes when I review what I've filmed I am pleasantly amazed to see something I would have otherwise missed. I digress.

I am thrilled to have put together a video which is on YouTube but also now on the http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com/Currency__Cleanse page. It's my sort of love letter and spin on the currency cleanse video Peggy Black did (and yes, you can still find that video on YouTube and on the friends home page for now).

I was also thrilled to do my actual currency cleanse meditation moment parked at El Porto in Manhattan Beach this morning at 09:09 AM. I sort of had a chill and simultaneous buzz as I chose this particular time to feel connected with all that is Divine and those around the globe who may have been doing the same as I in that wonderful moment of space and time.

I was also a little surprised 'cuz I didn't plan it and 'cuz something seemed different at Point Dume compared to last time I was there. No wind. Very little wave action. And no surfers. But not at El Porto. They were lined up and riding the waves. Lots of action. I wish I could have stayed longer. For someone who doesn't consider herself to have trouble sleeping, I had another two hour sleep night or should I say at least last night I got two hours before leaving for Malibu.

Plus, I find it interesting how sometimes (and I wish I could figure it out better to duplicate it better) that old saying "careful what you ask for" really rings true. I felt like I had been spending so much time inside and on the computer and was actually feeling a little sorry for myself. Now truth is I wasn't totally sad 'cuz it had been so freakin' hot out that I was happy to be inside practically blowing my fan directly on me.

I mention this 'cuz on the way back from Malibu as I was listening to the Mark and Bryan show on KLOS, there was much mention of different events going on since today is 090909. Vegas expects to have record numbers of wedding ceremonies today. Love is in the air, people. It also is the day Santa Monica chose to formally celebrate the 100th anniversary of the pier with fireworks and the whole shebang. That's right, I said shebang.

Now we all know I am not the greatest or most talented film maker (I think I'm gonna get me a book on using my Sony Vegas Movie Studio software so I can get a bit more fancy) and I actually for now like it that way 'cuz then I just shoot what I like and I don't have to care about people critiquing. Still, as I mentioned to Manny I really think I want to go and film this. I mean how often does a 100th anniversary get celebrated for something? That's right. Don't get out your calculator. Every 100 years. I have a pretty good guess that I won't be around for the next one. And who knows who on YouTube may enjoy seeing what I capture with my digital view finder.

Please understand none of this is complaining. It is all part of my remembering my journey as I traverse this 100-day open-heart challenge.

I wish you a glorious rest of the day. If you are reading this before 09:09 PM on 090909, you still have a great opportunity to participate in the currency cleanse today. Thanks to all of you who read this and all who are participating in the currency cleanse. And if it is not to woo-woo, think of how my writing this now but your reading it now somehow transcends time and space to connect us and that of all the infinite beyond imagination of possible experiences either of us could be having in our present moment of NOW, this is the one we have somehow attracted and manifested. Woo Woo!

Day 20, Tiara Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Just got back from The Bonnie Hunt Show taping. I really enjoyed it. As far as the open heart "journey" goes, I love when things like going to Bonnie Hunt present themselves in my life. In many ways, I feel like the more you live from an open heart and stay in the love...the more fun opportunities present themselves to you in your life where you really just need to show up and enjoy. And then be quite grateful to the Universe and yourself for. As amazing as God and the Universe and all of it is divine and wonderful, the universe can not bring you what you have not opened a door for it to bring you via your vibration and consciousness. So remember to love yourself and appreciate yourself too.

Okay, that was sort of the fluff. I feel like what I am going to write now is pretty amazing and could potentially enhance the flowing and glowing well-being in most people's lives.

You know I wrote earlier about squidoo and focus and lenses and eyes and pupils and seeing divinely and all these "vision"-type metaphors. One of my favorite is "when the pupil is ready the teacher appears". Notice I purposely wrote pupil, as yes, it is a synonym for student, but it also is an eye/vision word.

As I've mentioned, I've been flirting with physical body appreciation and love and perhaps a product I could create and for sure one2one sessions with people who wanted help with this. Ever since I first read the 7 Spiritual Laws of Success by Deepak Chopra, which to me was my real herald into spirituality, it totally rang true to me that I should be able to effect any change or create anything with the power of my mind. I am still not as adept at it as I would like, but I am so convinced (and even more convinced with the advent of the collective consciousness with the Law of Attraction) that I continue to practice what I think is possible.

As a quick aside before I get to the meat of this, I have to say that there appear to be two spiritual practice types. Those who practice with the inclusion that their physical body is their temple and so have not really let it go or have always had a great body image and those like me who always felt I was too fat even when I used to be a size 6 and now I would feel like that was thin and awesome...who always felt I had a weight problem (and who sometimes contemplates that it is interesting how my weight issue also seems to correspond with another wait issue, a tendency to procrastination...which still can be synthesized down to not enough self-love, confidence, esteem...choose your name of choice).

Anyway, I love the internet. You know I used to hate email. Okay hate is a strong word, but I was less than fond of it. Now I love the way Twitter and Facebook and Squidoo and YouTube and the like with one post can reach everyone who might be interested in what I have to say and then if they see it great and if they don't that's okay and when they see it is great. And vice-versa. I can see and read about so many different things I may not have otherwise searched for or knew was available and what is going on with others in their lives and the like. And I can do it at a time that works for me. In other words, it's all good.

And I love how this affords the opportunity to knowing one person then means I am soon introduced to someone they know that I am happy to know about and so on and so on. This sort of thing happened with Brad Yates who is now promoting a project he did with Steve G. Jones on confidence. Steve G. Jones is a very awesome and effective hypnotherapist. So knowing Brad who then decides to work with Steve, leaves me confident to check Steve out. And then add him as a Facebook Friend. And now I see what Steve has to offer. And before I know it, I've bought (see I don't like to be sold, but I love to buy...which is the mantra of Jeffrey Gitomer I learned from his book Little Platinum Book of Cha-Ching) one of the many, many titles Steve offers, which happens to be on body appreciation.

I loved the download. It seems powerful and effective. And to be a great answer and tool. And because I am ready for this, a powerful and effective tool showed up. When the pupil is ready... I think I've listened to it four or five times already. Here's what I feel will not only help me flow and glow more gloriously with well-being, but may enhance yours too.

I wrote that it had occurred to me while listening to a teleclass I took on abundance that one of the things they need to remind people of the most is that they deserve wealth. That hearing this got me to thinking about how many of us whether we conscioulsy picked up these beliefs or not do feel we deserve to be poor and deserve to be fat or ugly or any of the things that are in disharmony with well-being because we know we are bad and have done bad things and deserve to be punished and God never said it would be easy and our religions say we are born sinners and can never really trully be saved and any number of bizzare when you really take a look at them in the light of awareness things that we have just bought into through our lives and day-to-day living.

And as I was listening to this Steve G. Jones download for about the third time, a thought popped into my head that I have and so others probably have some beliefs that are something to the effect that it is wrong to be listening to a hypnosis tape which is brainwashing me into believing something that isn't true about me and how dare I think that it can be effective without me having to diet and starve myself and eat foods I don't particularly find enjoyable and then beat myself up about how much I should exercise...kind of like the way they treat fat people on that show "The Biggest Loser". If you are overweight, isn't this what you deserve. How dare you let yourself go? How dare you not follow all the rules of eating healthy and blah, blah? Or as I mentioned in a previous blog post, how if eating ice cream is truly bad then you would have a judgment about it whether a thin person or a fat person is eating it. And yet, I know, even for myself I have these judgments. If I see a thin person eating so-called fattening things, I think nothing of it. But if I see an overweight person, I judge them.

Anyway, I was thinking about how I had this awareness of a belief that it was somehow wrong or could be considered wrong to listen to hypnosis with the expectation that I will morph into my ideal body size with repeated listening. That's when other thoughts started flooding in.

That's when I started thinking that a loving...no...a divinely loving Creator of all that is...the I AM THAT I AM, which divinely loving to me is even a step above and even more of a higher, finer loving vibration than unconditional love, which unconditional love by definition is love not based on any condition...well, this divinely loveing Creator would in my opinion NEVER and I mean NEVER EVER expect me or anyone to think I deserved to be poor or ugly or fat or sick or homeless or hungry...you get the drift. That this loving Creator would actually prefer we think thoughts of the truth as often in every amazing moment of NOW as we would allow ourselves to think/feel in every amazing moment of NOW.

That if we have beliefs or feelings in our consciousness that say we somehow deserve to and should think/feel/identify with ourselves in a particular way that is in disharmony with flowing and glowing well-being because that is how we seem to appear to ourselves and the world in the physical...that those voices or those "this is what you should's" are not from the Divine but from some human belief that you picked up somewhere along the way that you are in no way, shape or form obligated to hold onto or ever feel or think again.

So if affirmations or hypnosis tapes or EFT or ho'oponopono or anything like that helps you to reidentify yourself and think/feel in more amazingly wonderful present moments of now things that are aligned with love and flowing and glowing well-being (and not fear...remember where love is fear is not and fear is not where love is) this must reasonably be perfect for you.

I mean I think it is amazing that the Divine loves us so much that we are allowed to lie to ourselves for as long as we desire to lie to ourselves, but I just can't imagine that the Divine has ever expected us to have to lie to ourselves out of some perverse desire to see us, his children, suffer.

It is just these sort of lies (beliefs and feelings in disharmony with flowing and glowing well-being which is the truth of who we are...our true Divine identity) that may be in our current personal consciousness that ho'oponopono is designed to also assist you with dissipating.

Phrase 1: I love you. Designed to be directed to the Divine to connect with LOVE.
Phrase 2: I'm sorry. Designed to ask LOVE to forgive you for your error in thought/feeling...the lie you've convinced yourself is true about you and/or your identity and/or even the identity of another child of the Divine and ultimately in disharmony with flowing and glowing well-being.
Phrase 3: Please forgive me. In the eyes of LOVE, the Divine, this is not for the Divine necessarily since the the Divine loves you more than unconditionally forgiveness technically does not exist in the mind of the Divine. It is for you. For you to forgive yourself for somehow picking up this disharmony in your consciousness. And it is the cue for Divine LOVE to clean and dissolve this vibration from your consciousness.
Phrase 4: Thank you. With the dissolving, a void is left in your consciousness. The thank you is to thank Divine LOVE for cleaning, dissolving and filling the void with a vibration in harmony with flowing and glowing well-being.

Others are welcome to see them selves, me and anything any way they like. For me to stay in harmony with my true identity and to flow and glow more fully and brightly with well-being, it is for me to see everyone (including me) and everything as Divine, which in truth it is.

To sum up: 1. You deserve to be flowing and glowing with well-being as much as possible in every amazingly magnificent moment of now that you are able to allow yourself.
2. This means thinking/feeling about you (and others...which I suggest work on you first and then how you perceive others and everything...for there really is no distinction between what is sacred and what is not for it is all Divine and therefore, sacred), identifying you as being flowing and glowing with well-being in as many moments of now as you are able to allow yourself. And if for a while you need to have a crutch (which I don't really like the vibe of that word) or whatever they call that stick they use when a tree is growing to help it grow straight and strong in order to have more of your moments be moments where you think/feel more in alignment with flowing and glowing well-being...then you go girl (or boy, as the case may be). Remember where love is fear is not and fear is not where love is.
3. In the absence of using a tool like affirmations or EFT or hypnosis or visualization and the like, ho'oponopono is a magnificent tool. This tool practically screams out for you to bring everything in disharmony with flowing and glowing well-being so you can connect with Divine LOVE to clean, dissolve and replace this disharmony with harmony.

And so it is.

As a P.S. I want to formally congratulate Mike Dooley and www.tut.com for having their 7th year anniversary today. For those who do not know about the inspiration Mike Dooley had 7 years ago to start writing emails to those who wished to receive them as if they were inspiring messages from the Universe to the recipient. And you can also become a member of tut.com as membership has so many more priveleges in addition to those fabulous emails.

And 090909, as I write this which is tomorrow, is the big day for the global observance of the currency cleanse. I would be so thrilled to have as many energy workers as possible to participate in the event and see what love can do for the health of our global fiscal fitness. To find out more about the currency cleanse, please visit http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com/Currency_Cleanse.html

Thank you. I love you.

Day 19, Labor Day 2009

Tiara Tuesday

I almost forgot and then the universe gave me a nudge. One of my FB friends' profile photog is of her wearing a tiara. I am going to be creating hub pages and squidoo lenses and think I should do one for Tiara Tuesday. It's really a state of mind...a feeling. If you wear a Tiara how do you feel? And really it is about feeling your royal Divine self that the Celtic Goddess (I was going to look this up) Dana talks about when channelled by Doreen Virtue. Tuesday 'cuz of the alliteration with Tiara.

This morning I was going to go to Point Dume in Malibu to film the sunrise and maybe do a little hike and even boogie board in the water. I left the house to late though. What's a little humorous to me is that I am not a morning person. I love being up later and sleeping in. So, one would think I maybe overslept. And I did set the alarm on my cell phone to make sure I did awake in time.

I couldn't sleep. Insomnia has never been something I've wrestled with. I usually can sleep anytime, anywhere. I am blaming it on the "challenge". I have so many ideas coming in. Well, I've always been a idea person, but I feel like these are inspired flowing and glowing well-being type of ideas. And so, if I have been entrusted with them I don't want to let them pass by. And now I realize I can make pages for Tiara Tuesday.

Anyway, so it wasn't I didn't get up in time, it was I didn't give myself enough time to get to Point Dume to feel comfortable about getting settled and in place to film before the actual sun comes up. And I'm intent on this 'cuz I already have plenty of digital images of sunset. Although, this moring as I was watching the sunrise from home, it made me think if I saw a photo of sunrise or sunset could I tell the difference. I don't know. Does it matter. I love that I my desire to do this is simply because I feel I would enjoy it.

So, Tiara Tuesday tomorrow. Why not? I mean someone came up with the Red Hat idea and look how that took off. I guess this is sort of on that same line. I also have ticket to see the Bonnie Hunt Show. I love her. Her movie, Return To Me. I love, love, love it. When I found out I was going, I watched it again but with the commentary. The movie seemed like such a labor of love and a sort of love note to the city of Chicago, where Bonnie grew up.

I don't like to be the screaming fan type. In a way I don't feel anyone deserves that sort of blind adoration. And yet, as I write this maybe we all do. However, I can admire and honor what they have created...I like that. So even though the idea for Tiara Tuesday came from watching Ellen, if I really had huevos I would get everyone together I am going with to see Bonnie's show tomorrow and we'd all wear Tiaras and we'd bring Bonnie one. So, we'll see how that goes. I mean why not, eh? No excuses. No one should be able to tell me if I can wear a tiara or not.

I think that is enough for today.

Except, of course, for my P.S. Just two more days until September 9, 2009 (090909). I'm still promoting currency cleanse. I am still for visioning and connecting with the vibration of currency and Global Fiscal Fitness flowing and glowing with well-being even beyond September 9, 2009. I think it is called maintenance. And I have already been practicing every day for the last couple of weeks. It takes maybe two minutes tops. Two minutes to cleanse and bless money, the money matrix and the fiscal fitness for the globe. Seems like a great investment to me considering that the truth is we are divine and eternal and loved and blessed and flowing and glowing with well-being. And so it is. Thank you. I love you.

Day 18, Sunday, September 6, 2009

No blog yesterday. Why? Can't remember...does it matter? No. I have one direction...NOW and forward. Wait! Is that two directions?

Speaking of direction, for someone who is normally more in their head and feels better about them self for being "smart" (yeah, if I'm so smart...) I am really appreciative for this 100-day focus on living from my heart or in my mind heart being symbolic of coming more from love than what is the smart choice.

When I am not in the moment (especially if I am involved in something that needs my full attention), I note is most when I am in fear. Worry is a form of fear. Feeling like if I don't see it now in my physical realm then how will it be there when I want it in my physical realm in the future is a form of fear. And if I am in fear, I am not in love. Worry is not a form of love. And I'll say it, I don't feel sacrifice is actually a form of love as much as we'd like to think it is.

I think living a life of divine love in body, mind and spirit means that you live abundantly and so the open-heart, divine love life would be win/win.

What amazes me sometimes is the thoughts I have been having these days. I already said I don't really enjoy the energy of the word challenge. Would divine love really necessitate a challenge? I'd like to think, "no". So I am calling this a journey.

As I was pondering this, it occurred to me since we are asked to set intentions/goals a sort of chicken/egg kind of thing. My intention, of course, is to live life with a more open heart. I didn't even dare to assume at the end of just 100 days I could expect to have journeyed all the way to a full open heart. Interesting.

Do I really know what that would look like, so to speak? How do I really know if I have arrived? Can I assume that like a GPS or mapquest or Jack Canfield that as I take a step needing to only see the next 200 yards ahead, I will be guided to my destination?

Or if the truth is as I also suspect that as a child of the divine I am already flowing and glowing well-being and so if I don't see or experience myself this way then do I really need to go anywhere so much as I need to wake up and clean and clear all the mistaken ways I experience myself so I can see, like Dorothy, I had it all along and I just need a nudge from another to see I've had it all along (the ability to live my life with a full open-heart...to live my life divinely in every moment)?

Please know I don't relook these over for English or grammar errors. I write it as it comes out of my head.

And what is my motivation?

Why would I even desire to do this?

And I will be honest that much of my motivation is that I feel my life will be more naturally joyous by changing my consciousness in this manner. Again, though, how will I know. And I think to a certain extent ('cuz our minds are very much question answering mechanisms even if the answer isn't what you want to hear or may not even be divine truth...in other words a lie), as one of my Facebook Friends identifies herself as living a charmed life, I feel like this is how I will feel about my life by committing to this journey. Since I don't wish to be a copy-cat and very much appreciate non-conformity, I didn't want to use "charmed" which is why I mention "divine".

Truth is and I don't really know where it has come from, I would like to reach God-consciousness and/or unearth it from within. That's where I was inspired to call it my "divine" life. And someone else may actually already be using it, but since I don't know about them and so am not intentionally copying...I am going to adopt this for myself.

And if I am really honest with myself, (as I feel I have written earlier) I can see that my pursuit of spirituality is rooted in my desire to love myself more fully and divinely. I'm not sure where this came from. And perhaps LOVE is just that strong that we are instinctively drawn to what feels more like love.

So I find it interesting as I muse about how it is easy for me to love myself when I feel like I am being a "good" girl, so to speak, which includes anytime I am practicing my spirituality or open-heart love. What about when I am not? I can see I am still in knee-jerk, collective consciousness mode where I then judge and self-punish or self-limit.

My point...it is easy to love when every thing is hunky-dory. Not so much so otherwise. I have put it out there that I would love to work with women and men who have body appreciation and love issues. It seems we are so messed up with our beliefs here with so many mixed messages. It seems from my observations that we feel to look beautiful or hot or sexy or desirable or any words like that, it must in some way involve pain or sacrifice or whatever. And I am not just speaking about overweight people. I am talking about bulemics and anorexics. And for women especially, the pull and tug between wanting to seem desirable to some and not wanting to seem desirable to others and or the fear of rape and abuse and the like. Or that their beauty and youth is what is really their ticket to love and/or being supported by a man and what happens if they lose that just to name a few things.

I love when I take a class on attracting wealth and one of the things that always seems to come up is that most people feel they only deserve wealth if they work really, really hard at something they hate and that others feel is the way you should get money. So I was surprised to find that I had actually found myself having a belief surface that I deserved to have fat in certain parts of my body or cellulite or anything like that because I love ice cream and refuse not to eat it.

And I know from what Abraham Hicks talks about and others who are more spiritually clear than I (at least two others that I trust) that because it really is an inside game and technically there is no deserve or even don't deserve...there's simply what is IS (a match to your current consciousness). I mean I also noticed that I would not judge someone eating ice cream if they are thin, but if I think they are fat...my knee-jerk is they shouldn't be eating that.

It isn't the ice cream. It's our beliefs about the ice cream. And it shows how powerful we actually are. Ice cream takes its cue from us. If we think we can eat it and stay thin and we eat it with love, etc., then we will. If we eat it and think it is going to keep us fat or make us fat or we deserve to be fat 'cuz we eat it...then if we aren't fat yet, chances are we will be.

It brings me full circle to being in the moment as much as I am able to allow myself and loving everything, including myself. Love. Love. Love. Love is always the answer. Love is the most powerful solvent. Love is a heart thing and not a mind thing.

It brings me to flowing and glowing well-being 'cuz this is really the truth of who I am. And like squidoo that I just found out about and am impressed with because they talk about lenses and they already have a tradition of giving...so I am going to put up an inspired giving page on Squidoo. But part of loving myself is seeing myself NOW as more of the Dorothy metaphor where I am being helped to understand that I have always been flowing and glowing well-being. And it is by unearthing this and continuing to EYEdentify more and more with this truth of me that not only will I see my life as full of flowing and glowing well-being, I will be flowing and glowing with well-being.

So does it really matter if I am on a journey to or in the process of unearthing who I already am...as long as when the 100 days is up I am living more of the divine, open-heart life it was my desire to live? What do you think?

P.S. I am still promoting the 090909 currency cleanse. I'm not sure I would know what a world flowing with global fiscal fitness would look like or be like either...in truth...when I try to imagine it. It's just that since love the most powerful solvent, I gotta figure it can't hurt. To find out more, go to www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com and click on the currency cleanse page. Or click here.

Day 16, Friday, September 4, 2009

Have you ever had one of those nights where you felt inspired to create something, but since it was bed time and you SHOULD be sleeping...instead of just getting up and doing it, you keep going over and over it in your mind?

Can I get an, "AMEN"? Amen!

I love Brad Yates' EFT ho'oponopono video. I added it to the Currency Cleanse page on the friends of the law of attraction site 'cuz I value it so much. Then I found out that he doesn't say it in the video in the same order as they refer to it in the Zero Limits book by Dr. Joe Vitale and Dr. Hew Len. Also, in the book they are specific about directing the words, "I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you." to LOVE, the Higher Power.

So I wanted to make a video but I do not like being on camera, I didn't really want to ask anyone else to be in it and I have limited editing skills. What is the answer? Why not have it be semi-serious in the sense the information is solid, yet why not make it a little cheesy and hopefully then a little fun. You know put a little joy and smile into it.

And ta da. Today I created that video. It actually came out a little better and was a little easier than I thought even though I forgot a few things I had wanted to put in it and would have liked to have made it a bit shorter. Still, all in all...just for my own joy and pleasure...and then hopefully yours...I share my video creation with the internet universe.

In case you think I have forgotten about my pet projects, currency cleanse and the big idea of adding donate buttons on every website so people can easily practice inspired giving from the heart...anonymously...with no expectation...I haven't.

To see my video, you need to go to the Currency Cleanse page. You can magically be transported by clicking here. Once there you can click on the appreciation and giving page to find out more about the inspired giving.

Anyway, ain't life grand? Technology too? And as I am feeling good and loving life, I am also flowing and glowing with well-being. And so it is.

Day 15, Thursday, September 3, 2009

Today I plan on giving myself a huge, heapin' guilt-free dose of self-honesty. Here goes.

Back during one of the times after we had broken up and then were thinking about getting back together, the man who I at the time was the love of my life and I couldn't live without, told me one of his main reasons for not wanting to be with me is that I didn't seem to have much self-love. Ouch.

How could I not love myself? I probably gave myself 85% of my daily thoughts worth of reasons why I wasn't worthy of self-love yet. Today, almost 10 years later through my spirituality that percentage probably hovers somewhere around 50%.

I also can see I have some judgment towards people who are physically in ill health on a continuous basis. And I can see how doctors and all the energy on health care and people having so much focus on health insurance, etc. (I haven't had health insurance for at least 7 years and have more than saved a ton of money paying for any health care out of my own pocket than putting any worry on this). Whether they realize it or not, doctors need patients to survive. And so a part of them has a vested interest in keeping all of this going.

After I read Zero Limits, I realized that all of us in the self-help and spirituality mix are pretty much in the same boat. If it appears my livelihood is based on helping broken people, then I have a vested interest in perpetuating broken people because I need them.

It's part of why I started American Well-Being LLC. According to Abraham-Hicks, at least to be fair, in my interpretation, right here and now I am already everything worthy of love...I am already whole, perfect, fabulous, wonderful, brilliant, flowing and glowing well-being and All is Well...right here and now and in every marvelous, miraculous moment of now. So, why am I not experiencing this here and now?

That seems like the million dollar question.

Today is also the start of the second month or day 33 of my actual 100-day journey I told myself I was starting because day 100 would be the day I turn 50 in earth years. 1/3rd of the way through and in all honesty I'm not sure how much progress I feel I've made. Yet, doesn't that have to be okay?

This morning I again woke up not feeling the best emotionally and why don't I wake up just feeling joy? And part of me doesn't want the answer so much as the solution.

And another part of me knows the solution is love. Love. Love. Love. Not just any love, but unconditional love. Can I only love myself if....?

Is that why I am so pushing to have adoring fans who love my blog, or think I'm great 'cuz I am promoting currency cleansing with no thought of gain except the healing for our economy or with my Big Idea for inspired giving? If others think I am this wonderful and jump on the bandwagon, then can I love myself? I mean sometimes, I can't even love myself (here's some honesty for you) if I don't make the bed. And I can see that sometimes I push myself to see how far I can go with something before I think I might be punished. But punished by who or whom or what?

And all of it brings me back to Zero Limits and ho'oponopono. Technically, there is no out there. Technically, everyone else is perfect (and me too but if I am not experiencing myself as perfect that's where the cleaning comes in). So there is no punishment, but self-punishment. There is no judgment, but self-judgment. And what will it take for me to love myself.

Here's some more honesty. If truth be told I can see I even have a hard time saying I love myself unconditionally or feeling like it is a worthy pursuit to be more self-loving. After all...look at me, I am a mess. Okay, I am not really a mess. But sometimes with the way I treat and think about myself, you might think this is the truth.

It's all relative. Currently, I live in a four-plex which is owned by my life partner's family. At one point because every unit is actually pretty nice considering it is a four-plex (3 bedrooms and 2 baths), the more I decorated it to my taste, the more I loved it and felt like it was the taj mahal. That was a little over a year ago. And ever since, I am less satisfied because I want to live in walking distance to my beloved ocean. You know, like I say on Twitter. I am an ocean dork. I love it.

Has my home changed? No. Just my thought about it. And I know my energy is torn about leaving because my man loves it here with his family. Plus, every day all of his sister's grand children are here playing and being kids. As I watch them, I become more and more convinced about wanting to find a way to return to that place of innocence of a child. I am not sure what age it might be yet or around what age, but there is a time when they have no self-consciousness about there body or how they look or if the universe will grant their desire or any of that.

As I was sitting at the computer contemplating what I wanted to do next, while my brain was trying to help me figure out what was the best next step, something that they mention in Zero Limits is when I am at this place of Zero Limits I can hear the inspiration from the divine. And then I don't even have to decide whether or not I should act on that inspiration because I already know the answer is yes.

I also love how Zero Limits talks about how we like to think we know and we like to think we have the answers and then we will arrive and everything will be magical from that moment forward. So, I love Dr. Len's honesty that even at this point if he is honest, he doesn't really know the why for everything...he still isn't always sure what is a memory playing which has come up in awareness or an inspiration. And so he keeps on cleaning.

So I say take it with a grain of salt when someone says they have your answers. And I am going to try to make it enough that even if my place that I hold in all of this cosmic consciousness is one of silently cleaning, cleaning, cleaning in order to live more and more fully from an open heart in each miraculous moment of now, to let myself be content with that. For I more and more do understand that for every celebrity...for every star...they can't play their role without their fans and followers playing theirs.

And perhaps that is a key to the Peace of I. Every role is important. Every cog. Every spark of the divine. How can I love myself now? How can I love myself in this moment? Especially knowing that I am loved divinely in this moment. I am blessed divinely in this moment. Can't I see it? Can't I feel it? Can't I receive it? Can't I radiate it...flow it and glow it?

Some might say, if you wish to see it...get different eyes. It's my understanding that is the meaning behind the one eye on the pyramid. Until then or perhaps in combination with this understanding, I again continue to convince myself that ho'oponopono is such a wonderful answer and solution as it continues to cleanse my lenses that I perceive the world with until I reach my desitination of zero limits.

Plus, I have to say that one thing I have let go of (or am aware of and willing to let go more and more of) is being helped. I am open to all help. And yet, I continue to see how it is mostly an inside job.

And so can I love myself right now? How about now? And for those of you correct English snobs out there (I love you), you may be thinking, "of course you can. Ask a better question." Will I love myself unconditionally right now? How about now?

And I say through all of this conversation with myself, I am happy to recommit to love. To self love, to loving everything and anything in every moment to the best of my ability. I feel like in this challenge I have sort of through the back door asked for all the ways I haven't loved myself to show up so I can now love them. As I have also committed to taking 100% responsibility for my flowing n glowing well-being, if stuff does come up LOVE is always the answer.

Although having just read that, I would like to shout out to the Universe that this doesn't mean I am looking for you to bring me reasons to love necessarily. It seems to me that if I learned anything from Zero Limits is that love doesn't need a reason. Love is who I am. Love is what I do. Only love. Always love. Flowing love. Glowing love. Radiating love.

I know there is a part of me that will fight this, it already is resistant to it. It already is telling me that love is not the answer...that love is not how I get my desires fulfilled. Still, I remember when I first read Deepak Chopra's book on Snychrodestiny and how he mentions something to the effect that there will come a time when my desire will merge with divine desire...what is best for the collective consciousness as a whole...and it seems to me that time is approaching for me.

Deepak Chopra has long talked about the known being a prison. I was contemplating the other day that when I graduated from High School I could have never contemplated the different technologies and things like that to have made some sort of concrete plan and map of my life.

And I want to let go of the things like, "this happened because ______". I desire to get to that place that there is only one reason. What shows up in my awareness shows up because it is a vibrational match to what is in my consciousness. However, the universe is taking care of me is because I feel taken care of to that degree.

Like I told myself before, if in every moment I do not question why did this show up or it what has shown up is good or bad or worthy of love...of my love...for any and all of this is RESISTANCE...and I simply love it all with my heart as open as I may allow it to be...and this is my consciousness...then pretty soon my outer will match my inner (for sadly there is a time lag...okay, let me love that too). And then maybe I won't wake up anymore feeling low...everyday I will wake up feeling only joy and love.

And as I hear the kids upstairs watching, Finding Nemo, one of my favorite movies EVER, I am reminded to "Just Keep Swimming".

Day 14, Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Currency Cleanse

I hate to sound like a broken record, but today in meditation as crazy as it sounds, it was almost as if I could hear the money, money matrix and the economy saying "thanks". Everything, yes, EVERY THING is energy, sacred and divine. Everything wants to be loved and appreciated. And as Peggy Black alludes to in her video, Currency Cleanse, there is sadly little love and appreciation going on with money, the money matrix and the economy these days.

So, I again want to thank, thank, thank all of you who participate, all who continue to participate and all who spread the word. If enough of us participate on September 9, 2009, think of the tipping point this could create to healing and restoring fiscal fitness to our global economy. And yes...I did say global economy. I would love, love, love to have this go world-wide.

Peggy has a web presence http://www.peggyblack.com. Her video that inspired me to start appreciating, blessing, cleansing and loving all the money and our global economy when it seems appropriate in any present moment of now, is on YouTube. And if you want to view the video and a transcript of the video explaining how you can participate, click here.

It seems to me that if we can utilize at lease the same amount of time, energy and resources as we did to accomplish Ashton Kutcher becoming the first tweeter to have a million followers, we can reach that tipping point and beyond to having the requisite number of participants to make this vision and reality.

Thank you, thank you, thank you to all of you.