Day 33, Monday, September 21, 2009

Aloha! Just a little snapshot of peace for you today.

How is everyone on this International Day of Peace. Peaceful, I hope.

Peace is with you always. Just like love, it's always here. You just may be distracted from its presence 'cuz your attention is elsewhere.

So, ho'oponopono, self I-dentity and I-dentity theft.

P.S. This week speaking of ho'oponopono (I'm going to do a squidoo page called ho'oponopono hotline as sort of a forum for finding out about ho'oponopono and sharing experiences as you practice it) and other things with a Hawaiian theme, there's a web presence, www.mahalo.com, that looks quite interesting. Mahalo is the Hawaiian word for "thank you". They are based out of Santa Monica and have only been around for two years, but it looks like an interesting concept. I just have other things I feel like I should get done first...okay, I don't like the word should. Let me rephrase, I like to think of myself as more of a FIFO (that's accounting lingo for first in first out) kind of gal.

Anyway, back to understanding better now how the ho'oponopono and the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." are perfect.

So, ho'oponopono is 10 words you repeat to yourself.
I love you.
I'm sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.

Ho'oponopono is about taking full responsibility for personal well-being. As Dr. Joe Vitale and Dr. Hew Len call it, the place of Zero Limits or Peace of I, self peace. How "woo woo" to write about this today.

The I love you is directed at Divine Love with the intention of connecting with this presence (which is the truth of who you really are, BTW) and sharing your love.

"I'm sorry. Please forgive me." that is for you. Divine Love is secure in Its Identity and in Divine Mind there is NEVER (and I repeat NEVER) a reason for forgiveness. There's nothing to forgive. It's ALL GOOD there.

How I am perceiving it now is that if you don't at this very moment of NOW...this magical, wonderful, amazing, divine moment of NOW...I-dentify with yourself as the truth of you as you were created by Divine Love, as your Higher Self, as the epitome of flowing and glowing well-being, love, peace, health, wealth, joy, beauty, et al, then you are technically stealing from yourself in that moment.

You are buying into the virus. You are on the hamster wheel. You are basically being blind to the truth.

I mean think about it. If someone stole what you felt was yours, you'd probably be angry. Well, technically, when you take full responsibility for your well-being, you understand that the only person who can really steal from you (even though outwardly it may appear someone else has stolen from you) IS YOU!!!

Now if someone harms you, don't you expect them to apologize so you may forgive them? Well when you get to this level of embracing full responsibility for your well-being (and possibly using ho'oponopono as a tool to help you with this process), in any moment you are not aligned with Divine LOVE, flowing and glowing well-being, you are stealing from yourself and the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." is then your way of atoning for your self-theft.

Hopefully, 'cuz at this point you do understand the truth of who you are (even if you are not yet able to embrace its fullness in manifestation in every glorious present moment of now), you are happy to forgive yourself. And you end with "thank you."

Now I have to say that in the beginning of embracing ho'oponopono and this whole total responsibility thing, the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." part of the process felt somehow wrong. There really wasn't much joy vibration in that part for me. It somehow seemed like I was continuing to vibrate in alignment with being wrong or bad or something like that.

So I am thrilled to have found a way to put it in a more loving context. If my child hurt them self because they didn't know better, would I be upset? Would I think they are bad or wrong or something like that? No. I would simply love them and move forward.

I understand now that it is a very loving thing for me to do for me, as I ask myself to forgive myself for all the ways I have kept myself from fully loving and enjoying flowing and glowing well-being in my life in every present moment of NOW. And as I love myself this much, I radiate a more concentrated vibration of divine love, well-being and peace.

This morning someone called my home phone number asking for "Rosie" again. I had to almost laugh because as they asked for someone who clearly isn't me, it made me remember what I have been sharing on this blog with letting it be that easy for me to remember that I am not the virus and I don't have to "cop" to having any attributes of the "virus" even if I haven't fully manifested in every area the truth of my well-being self, my Peace of I.

And I was thinking that as I become more secure in my true identity, my Peace of I, instead of feeling like I want to run away from those who seem to want to "suck" me back into the virus, I will know instead there is no need to run. I will be able to stand strong and confident in divine truth and being this self-generating beacon of divine light and love and flowing and glowing well-being, I will be like a tuning fork for the divine.

If you don't know what a tuning fork is, well, a tuning fork when activated brings everything around it into vibrational alignment with it.

That must be like the bonus plan. You be your truth, Peace of I, flowing and glowing well-being, and with no effort, simply by being who you are, you are able to help others shift their vibrational frequency in tune with your own.

How divine!


(P.S. remind me I want to mention right of consciousness knowledge this week also and Deepak Chopra's new book)

P.P.S. I'm still on my virtual iCurrencyCleanse promotion tour. The same with inspired giving. You find out more about both by visiting http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Peace be with you. Of course, as peace is in you.

Love IS a state of being...not a decision.

What a day.

You may not even ever want to read what I wrote earlier today for September 17th.

Then I had a great lunch with my friend Ericka. All the while feeling like I have a decision to make.

You know it just seemed like today was that day when you have been ill and you are all scrunchy and restless and itchy and scratchy...that place right before you know the fever will break. And then there you are...well.

You know when I started American Well-Being, I did because on one level I could really understand that concept that if inwardly I claimed my truth (I AM DIVINE LOVE) then I'd vibe with that and everything that would eventually start showing up in my life would vibe with that.

I might come from this place for a minute or two and then I'd look outward again and nothing much would seem to have changed...so I would doubt myself and my resolve and choose...decide whether I should love myself based on the outer.

I was so excited about coming up with the "LOVE IS where fear is not...where fear is not IS LOVE" quote. Won't every one just want to know me and be my friend now and won't the money start flowing in even more and aren't I such a bright star and blah blah...open my eyes and none of that manifested.

Truth is I realize in going through today...LOVE IS all there is. Love is everywhere. Love is all around. Love is where fear is. It's more like if I am where fear is, it's like I am ignoring love and have chosen to focus on fear.

Which brings me right back to ho'oponopono. I love you. The first 3 of the 10 words. Again, not a decision, but a fact...a truth. I love you, Divine LOVE is technically what the vibe and intent is. The last 7 words, "I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you." seem like they can be explained sort of similar to walking in a room full of love and totally ignoring it 'cuz you are focused only on seeing fear...so you are sort of like, "sorry, I didn't see you there...didn't mean to ignore you. thanks." Divine LOVE wasn't really hurt by you ignoring it, it's just we have manners and it's the thing to do.

So, in all of this gyration I went through today, I again got to thinking about how I received that book, The 4-Hour Workweek, as a gift for my birthday last year. And I wanted to earn my living via the internet and only having to work 4-hours a week. I basically wanted to use Tim's recipe and make it work for me in my life. And initially what I really wanted to do was have my t-shirt designs be such a big hit on the internet that that would be the 4-hour workweek business blah blah.

I also wanted to do something...earn money based on my spiritual journey...thus the American Well-Being. Anyway, I filled out something on-line the other day where it asked me if I was an expert in something. I didn't have an answer. So as a lot of all of this was filtering through my consciousness today, I realized that the two things I really desire are to be successful with my t-shirt designs and be an expert with well-being.

The thing is...even if I don't become those things or even if I do...neither outcome can technically have an effect on the truth of who I am. Technically, it shouldn't even have an effect on my well-being or whether I love myself or not. I am love. I am a child of the divine. I am blessed. As the Rumi quote states, "You are not just a drop in the ocean. You are the mighty ocean in the drop." What's not to love about that?

So, I am grateful for the clarity. I am grateful to understand that I was afraid to really put myself out there and consider myself a well-being expert 'cuz I was afraid I'd be revealed as a fraud for not practicing what I preach. When the truth is to see or define me as anything but the mighty ocean in the drop, is fraud. Is self I-dentity theft.

I am grateful for the peace. I am grateful for the love. I am grateful for further uncovering the truth.

You know I was sort of thinking of it like this morning I was sort of like that Jaycee gal who had been missing for 18 years and was finally found and returned to her "real" parents. For 18 years she lived a seemingly horrible existence believe herself to most likely deserve her life and that this is who she was ONLY to find out that wasn't true.

So, of course, she will have times when she may feel like she's still that gal even though she knows the truth is that she is not.

The thing I am now seeking to keep going through the remainder of these 100 days is to stop being distracted by the virus. Stop thinking I am ill or something is wrong with me that needs to be fixed or that I need to know the secret of something or someone to heal me...blah, blah, blah.

Instead, I am seeking to focus on the truth that I already am flowing N glowing wellbeing NOW NOW NOW. It's not a choice. It's not a decision. It is who I am. I am wellbeing. I am divine. I am eternal. I am love. I am joy. I am peace. I am beauty. I am wealth. I am health. I am the Glory of God made manifest. I am loved. I am blessed. I am a blessing.

No one's opinion matters. Only mine. It is my inner vision of my SELF that determines what my outer experience will be. And no matter how much I see me as the truth and or know you as the truth of who you are, if you walk into my room and are only looking for fear-based manifestations...you will project that on me and not even see me as the truth.

So, I choose to stop "acting" and choose to be...choose "being well being"

Well, that is oh so much enough for today. Thanks to all of you who share this with me. Thank you God, Divine Love. I love you.

Day 27, Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Congratulations to our niece, Cynthia, and her life partner, Mario, on the birth of their baby boy this AM.

So, I have something going on in my personal life and I am not thrilled about it and I am not sure what I think about it or what I desire to to about it and the like.

And even though I woke up yesterday with the Abraham-Hicks "how would I like it to be?" and remember I am a creator not a reactor...the thermostat not the thermometer, I don't feel I followed my advice too well yesterday. I had even made a decision and then was doubting it and sort of put it out to the universe, "if this happens then I'll do 'x' and if that happens then I'll do 'y'." Still, I don't want to make the decision.

It had me(plus, how long it took to edit the footage from the Belmont Shores Car Show for uploading to YouTube) in enough of a state that I didn't even Blog yesterday. I know...alert the media.

This morning I woke up and wanted to Blog immediately 'cuz it suddenly occurred to me that I was really, really off base from what I had intended and was blogging about from the beginning of this 100-day challenge.

It wasn't supposed to be about thinking or making any choice really except, love it...love it all. If something was coming up that I normally would label with my thoughts as something I don't like (which is resistance) my new way of training myself was to not resist it...not judge it...simply see it as something in my consciousness ('cuz even though it isn't appearing in me...the fact it is appearing in my consciousness means it is in my consciousness) that needs to be healed with my love for it. My divine love for it.

Remember: love is the most powerful and FREE solvent.

So, today I seek to be less about judging (it just may be so perfect what is going on and I don't know how) and more about loving...loving it all. And asking for forgiveness for any of my mistaken beliefs so they can be eradicated and replaced with divine love energy.

Even if I may never understand the real nature of it all, I choose to be grateful today for the CCOR 100-day open-heart challenge for helping me focus on training myself to be the me I really desire to be, which is more like and in harmony with my divinity, which I believe means I am love and I be and do what love would be and do.

I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.

P.S. I am still cleansing that currency every day and am all about inspired giving. If you still haven't checked this out, just go to http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Also, as promised I am including a look at my pastel Namaste t-shirt designs. Both are the same except one is placed Big on the front of the t-shirt and the other is placed small over the heart.

Day 22, Thursday, September 10, 2009

How soon we may forget? Tomorrow is 9-11. Eight years later. I can still remember the moment I saw the tragedy on TV as I was getting ready for work that morning. What was most bizarre to me is that normally I didn't watch TV news or any TV for that matter as I got ready for work. That day I did.

Perhaps it is a good thing to forget. Forgetting keeps me more in the moment of NOW. Feeling bad can NEVER EVER help me vibrate in the present moment in harmony with feeling good. And I, while risking much strong disagreement, can see both sides. I see ours. However, I could also see if I was brought up and nurtured in an environment like those of the hijackers, I can see theirs. Our country does seem to have somewhat of a bully, savior, do what I say sort of vibe.

Okay, that isn't even really what I meant to write about. What I did mean to write about now I feel like I can't even remember. And I must be okay with that. Oh, yes! To be right or to be in peace. Someone on Facebook invited me to join a cause and I declined with the Mother Teresa, if your cause is against something and not for something than I am not interested.

Only to have the person who invited me write back. And truth is, I could have written my declination with a little more tact in word and feeling. Truth was (it had something to do with dolphins) I am so for loving and the highest good for dolphins, but I have a lot on my plate. So beyond taking a few moments to love them and pray for their highest good, I was out no matter what.

So, when this invitee wrote me back, I could have tried to plead my case more in an attempt to seem right about my response or I could simply stay in the peace and be more honest and loving in response. Thankfully, I chose peace.

On a more positive note, I am thrilled I connected with my mommy today. We have had an interesting relationship over the years and in the last at least five years, it has been my intention to simply love her as divinely and unconditionally as I am able in any given moment. We have made a pact to try to connect at least once a week by phone. And this week after a couple of attempts, we finally connected this morning.

I had forgotten about a video we had taken of the outside of her home 'cuz it had recently been repainted in the least used color of the homes in her association in her Arizona home. And it did look quite nice. However, I had never gone over it and done what I do so I could upload it to YouTube and they could see it and enjoy it whenever they like. So, I got that done. And I also went through my 105 minutes of footage I took of yesterday's Santa Monica 100 year anniversary footage.

I have such a new found respect for film editors. Like the new found respect I had for truck drivers when in 2001 I did quite a few 1,500 mile trips in my vehicle. And I have a lot of respect because I am such an amatuer and do the very minimum with the digital images I acquire. I can only imagine when there are multiple cameras, etc.

Just in case, my YouTube channel is 4americanwellbeing.

Okay, enough for today. Love everything for it is all divine, please and thank you.

Always remember: where love is fear is not. Fear is not where love is.

And so I am feelin' good and lovin' life.

Day 11, Sunday, August 30, 2009

Yeah Angels! Had a fun time at the ballpark. Had my first ballpark hot dog. Yum. And best of all, we had great seats, the tickets were a gift and we had two extra tickets that someone bought from us for $20 (which was a really good deal for them as they were $70 face value). So that paid for our parking and one beer. My buddy Torii and Vlad really came to hit. And we won. Woo hoo!

Okay, how exciting. I was just interrupted to answer the phone and my oldest son called to let me know congratulations is in order. He asked his girlfriend to marry him and she said yes. Wedding in 2011.

So, isn't life grand? I think so.

What I also wanted to share was that I agreed to filming job for my friend, Bill. He wanted me to film him at his Sunday morning Tai Chi so he can get better. It was a lovely park and all was going well until one of the gals who is in the group decided she didn't want to be filmed...never mind don't put this on YouTube...even after I assured her I wouldn't put it on YouTube nor was it going to be for anything but instructional purposes for Bill.

Her words were she wanted me to erase every part of the video that she was in. I sort of took it to erase her out of it...not erase everything, which I find to be not unreasonable. And I wanted to accommodate her. I wanted to honor her wishes. I don't enjoy having my image captured in any way either.

As I was leaving I wanted to explain to her again that I would do everything I could to honor her wishes, but I didn't know how to erase just her image from the video. What was interesting to me is that even though she mentioned she was honoring her heart (and isn't this all about my 100 day open heart journey?) by requesting this of me (and I so understood where she was coming from)...it was almost as if she wasn't hearing me. Or as if she didn't expect her desire to be honored by me.

So as I decided to give up trying to explain that I would do what I could to honor her request as it appeared to be falling on deaf ears and was pointless at this point, I couldn't help but be somewhat bothered.

There really is very little drama in my life anymore that seems to directly be something I am involved in. Although, I find now via ho'oponopono that this means I am ready for the next level, full...100% responsibility for everything that shows up in my life even if it isn't something that is a "problem" I am experiencing directly. The very fact it has shown up in my awareness means it is in my consciousness and so it needs to be cleaned and cleared and replaced with divine "zero limits" love and well-being.

If I didn't deal with this it would get stuck in my consciousness and I would have to deal with it at some point.

What is so wonderful is that I have ho'oponopono as a tool to love it and release it. So, I have honored her request and said those magic 10 words until I felt at peace with it all.

I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.

Bless you. Bless me. Bless it all. It's all divine.

Day 7, Wednesday, August 26, 2009

So today would have been my dad's 76th birthday. Happy Birthday, Dad. Thank you for the blessings you helped my soul experience. I hope wherever you are in your soul's journey it is filled with love and blessings. My dad passed over ten years ago.

So, if you are reading this, where's day 1 through day 6? I had already set up a google account for blog spot under a business my son and I share, http://www.beerchillin.us. What's a so called spirituality fanatic doing with a business that more or less promotes beer? That's another story. And the real gist of our business is we sell beer steins and promote beer as a way to chill...not to get drunk. And the stein as a way of enjoying your sudsy beverage in a way that makes you feel rich as you drink whatever beer you enjoy. As a way to celebrate and toast to the good life.

Since the account is in my name, when I decided to do this blog Google wouldn't let me cancel this account to set up another. And try as I might to get them to and/or figure out how to add the blog I started be part of this account...I couldn't figure it out.

This seemed a great compromise since I was only five days into the old one and everything I've written I have also posted to my CCOR (co-creators of reality) page.

After today, this blog and my CCOR page will track again. Whoo hoo!

If you are interested in my CCOR page, you can click here.

If you are interested in the CCOR page for the 100 day open-heart challenge, click here.

Today, I was excited to see that Dr. Joe Vitale's book Attract Money Now is available to download in digital form for reading. If you would like to get your own copy, click here.

I read it. I loved it. And yet, to be honest, I was a little sad by it 'cuz he includes everything I've been feeling and sensing as truth but didn't have the confidence to write myself. And there is a part of me that feels like why try? Why reinvent the wheel when he has expressed it so wonderfully. And it sort of makes me rethink what it is I feel like I have been going for with the business I wished to start. And so there is some sadness.

And yet, part of me feels like in as much as it has derailed me a little, I still feel committed to living more from my heart. And that what Dr. Joe Vitale describes as Dr. Hew Len's philosophy of life where you actually get to the point of not even needing intention (except that I still must have to have the attention to follow what Dr. Hew Len teaches, eh?) is such an open heart place.

Also, as I was writing stuff (if I read a how-to type book, I like to write out things that sort of shout-out to me as something I want to remember from the book as a way of reinforcing the teaching), it occurred to me that while my time reading the book and spreading the word is well-spent, I am still in love with the whole ho'oponopono concept and how it applies to living with an open-heart.

Dr. Hew Len basically puts it out there that in every moment I should be silently saying the 10 ho'oponopono words (I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you.) to myself and to the divine. This tracks with my intention to be 100% impeccable. And to be more like God consciousness in the sense that Dr. Hew Len doesn't limit what I see as divine as being simply other humans. It's all divine. It's all energy.

What occurred to me in the context with the Law of Attraction is that if in evey moment I simply practice as Dr. Hew Len describes and continue to repeat (or as much of every moment as I am able and think of it consciously until I get to every moment) the 10 words, well, when is the point of attraction? Right. The point of attraction is in the point of attention, which is in the present moment.

It stands to reason then that if in every moment I am continually reciting the 10 words (and maybe, I cheat a little, but don't think it can hurt 'cuz I like to repeat what Brad Yates says in his ho'oponopono video and you can see a lot of this and more if you, click here) and pepper in the "Thank you for the blessings I have. Thank you for the blessings I am receiving" then in every moment I am vibing more and more in harmony with divine love.

And as I vibe more in harmony with divine love, then what could there be to fear. What must show up...what I must then start attracting on a moment to moment basis is only going to be more and more in harmony with divine love. Sometimes I like to misspell harmony and spell it har-money, as harmony with the divine is harmony with all aspects of well-being, which include health, wealth, beauty, love, joy, peace, etc.

I mentioned too, that ho'oponopono is simple. It's easy to remember. It almost makes it easier to have me be told to just do it all the time 'cuz then I don't have to remember when to do it and when not to do it. And here's what seems like it will be the other benefit: it helps me let go of resistance. It is helping me let go of deciding if what is showing up is something I should like or not, instead it simply frees me to love it and then say next. Or as the prayer implies. By repeating it, it frees me up to either forgive myself for whatever was in my consciousness that I attracted it into my awareness. Then I appreciate it and love it and bless it and send it on its way for the next best, more in alignment with divine love and well-being experience to show up.

And I have to say that this sort of thing has opened the door for me to love a seeming virus threat and love it out of my life. And it opened the door from unexpected cash to start flowing in from places I so didn't expect.

Okay, so all in all, the book was worthy of the read. I would recommend it. And how can you go wrong with such wonderful information shared freely and requiring only an investment of your time.

It's going to be exciting to see how my life is different at the end of the 100 days. On day 83 I will turn 50 in earth years. I've always had a feeling I would live past 100 physical years in this lifetime and in a fabulous and fit and full of well-being way. This could be an awesome way to herald in the second half of this glorious incarnation.

And so it is.

P.S. Brad Yates has a wonderful (at least in my opinion) program he did in conjunction with Dr. Joe Vitale that incorporates EFT, called Money Beyond Belief. Probably the best $49 investment I've made in a long time. One of the things included in the program is a short audio to tap on embracing change. Had I known at how helpful just this short audio would be, well... If you are interested in finding out more about this program, please click here.

Welcome

This is my blog.

How original is that?

I know...so many blogs. Why bother?

I want to record my journey, the journey that tracks my decision to participate in the 100-day open heart challenge which started on August 20, 2009. So, I am really writing this for me. I promised myself I would not get hung up on whether what I was writing was good or perfect English or anything anyone cared about. Yet, I would still put it out there and mention it on Twitter (go #TwitterPower) and just let whoever seemed attracted to be attracted in whatever way they felt attracted.

And so it is!