Day 56, Wednesday, October 14, 2009

I've been away for a while.  Bad Bjork.
I had a mood meltdown on Sunday.  Bad Bjork.
I'm not where I want to be YET which seemed obvious compared to my sister.  Bad Bjork.
I could go on and on.  Bad Bjork.

Where is the love?

I am always amazed to get a glimpse of how much I really am unable to love myself right here and now based on outer conditions.

Yet love is the answer.  I have been psyched for Deepak Chopra's new book, Reinventing the Body Resurrecting the Soul, 'cuz I don't love my body the way it is.  And I've been convinced that the root cause is with our thoughts and feelings (consciousness).  So, I started reading the book yesterday, which is the first day it has been available in book stores in the U.S. 

Let's just say, read the book.  It is amazing the way Deepak Chopra is able to explain things in plain English.  Still, if you want the gist of what I've read so far: love is the answer.  Love right now.  There is scientific evidence that shows how our physiology can be physically morphed in an instant when it is exposed to more love.

I also love his mentioning baby steps.  Again, this brought me back to ho'oponopono.  Instead of seeking to get it done in one fell swoop, every day you love yourself a little more and love everything a little more.  And one of the biggest keys to transformation is awareness.  Now that I see how much I do self-loathe and how transforming it is to self-love, I can do more self-love.  Just to be clear, I equate flowing and glowing well-being with love. 

Of course, starting the 100-day open-heart challenge I knew going in it was about being more loving.  I feel what I am most surprised to find out is that I thought I was very loving.  And in many ways I am.  Let me just pat myself on the back for that.  In many ways I didn't realize, I am not.  I am revealing new levels to my self of ways that I have been unloving to my self.  Even to the extent that I question my love for something because I am worried someone else may think it is stupid I love it or something like that.

I made the choice to be a ProBlogger.  It seemed right in the moment.  Then later the second guessing comes in.  Why?  Why do I do that to myself?  And I don't really want to know that answer.

You know what helped me a lot with finally sticking to this decision and knowing it will all work out is that the Universe wants to support me.  My own mother is supporting me.  And I listened to this group of three radio personalities, Frosty, Heidi and Frank, who Monday trashed bloggers.  When truth be told, they are simply bloggers in radio clothing and being paid quite well for it.  They are beloved by many.  I don't begrudge them any of their success and I actually applaud it because they bring smiles and laughter to many of their listeners on a regular basis.

And I love and loathe all the posts on Facebook and Twitter.  Some are so inane I want to slit my throat (okay not really, but figuratively to paint a word picture) and some when they appear seem like they are heaven sent wisdom like people sharing stuff about Abraham, which I have shared below.

I so desire to get out of my own way and stop the judgment.  That where I am right now...I love it.  And if it isn't where I thought I would be or want to be...don't hate it.  Still love it and know it is simply my starting destination and now I am going on a journey...a trip...oooooooohhhhh and I love to travel...to where/who I think I want to be so I will love myself more and its easier for me to love me.  Not only will this trip be awesome, but I will have the entire support of the Universe to ensure I travel first class and have all sorts of help and love and fun and joy and bliss along the way.  So, if you find your self in a similar state as I find myself currently, I hope the article in this post will assist you with your next journey.

Love is the answer.  And there is ONLY love.  And so it is.



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Where Do You Want to Be?

a message from  Abraham  channeled by  Esther and Jerry Hicks

Friday, 9 October, 2009  (posted 11 October, 2009)

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Have you seen the Global Positioning navigational systems that are available in vehicles today? An antenna on the roof of your vehicle sends a signal to satellites in the sky that identify your current location. Once you enter your desired destination into the keypad, the computer calculates the route between where you are and where you want to go. The monitor informs you of the distance you have to travel and recommends the best route to get there, and once you begin, the system will give you specific directions to lead you to your new destination.
The navigational system never asks: “Where have you been?” It does not ask: “Why have you been there so long?” Its only mission is to assist you in getting from where you are to where you want to be. Your emotions provide a similar guidance system for you, for their primary function is also to help you travel the distance from where you are to wherever you want to be.
It is extremely important that you know where you are in relationship to where you want to be in order to effectively move closer to where you want to be. An understanding of both where you are and where you want to be is essential if you are to make any deliberate decisions about your journey.
You are surrounded by many influences in your physical environment, and often, others ask or insist that you behave differently in order to positively affect their experience. You are deluged with laws, rules, and expectations that are imposed by others, and almost everyone seems to have an opinion about how you should behave. But it is not possible for you to stay on track between where you are and where you want to be if you are using those kinds of outside influences to guide you.
Often you are pulled this way and that in an attempt to please another, only to discover that no matter how hard you try, you cannot consistently move in any pleasing direction, and so, you not only do not please them, but you also do not please yourself. And because you are being pulled in so many different directions, your path to where you want to be usually gets lost in the process.
Just as it is easy for you to contemplate a successful trip from Phoenix to San Diego, it will be easy for you to contemplate a successful trip from financial insecurity to financial security, from sickness to wellness, from confusion to clarity…. On your trip from Phoenix to San Diego, there will be no major unknowns, for you understand the distance between the two cities, you know where you are along the way, and you understand what moving in the wrong direction means to your success. Once you understand your own Emotional Guidance System, you will never again be confused about where you are in relationship to where you want to be. Also, you will feel, with each thought that you offer, whether you are moving closer to, or further from, your desired outcome.
If you are using any other influence as your source of guidance, you will get lost and go off track, for no others understand, as you do, the distance between where you are and where you want to be. But even though they cannot understand your desires purely, they will still continually add their desires to the mix. And so, only when you pay attention to way you feel can you guide yourself steadily toward your own goals.

Esther and Jerry Hicks, the New York Times best-selling authors of Ask and It Is Given; Money, and the Law of Attraction; The Amazing Power of Deliberate Intent and The Astonishing Power of Emotions, among other works, produce the Leading Edge Abraham-Hicks teachings on the art of allowing our natural Well-being to come forth. ©1997-2009 Abraham-Hicks Publications. More info www.abraham-hicks.com

Day 50, Thankful Thursday, October 8, 2009

I'm thankful I still consider myself in the challenge.

I'm thankful I found a desicion I can get behind, Professional Blogging.

I'm thankful I love myself more every day.  I'm thankful God loves me.  I'm thankful to know God loves me no matter what.  I'm super thankful that I have so many ideas for blogs that I could probably work for a week straight without a break and not finish everything I'd love to finish.  I love and am thankful for all the applications on the internet that allow someone like me to start small and grow into something bigger than big...as big as I like.

I'm thankful for love and all the love and beauty in the world if we have "eyes" to see it.

I'm thankful for flowing and glowing well-being and knowing the truth of me is I am already flowing and glowing with well-being if I have "eyes" to see it.  Now I wish I would stop worrying about certain things 'cuz I know there is no need.  I will get there though and hope I am thankful for the journey.

I am thankful for appreciation.  I am thankful for preferences.  I am thankful for me.  I am thankful for you.

That's all.

Day 47, Monday, October 5, 2009

You know, I was so inspired to write stuff for this blog in the beginning. 

Now I've lagged off to every other day.  Not that this is a bad thing nor do I want to imply I am disappointed with me, 'cuz in the past those words may have inspired such feelings in me. 

It's just that I have so many great ideas coming in, I almost can't seem to keep up.

Tomorrow is another Tiara Tuesday and my friend, Ericka's birthday.  Accordingly, I plan on spending a little less time at my laptop.

I still am currency cleansing, advocating inspired giving and wellbeing.  And even more, ho'oponopono, which as I write this just answered one of my own "how can I?" questions.  There you go.

Blessings and Namaste.

Day 45, Saturday, October 3, 2009

Isn't it interesting how the Universe supports us once we make a decision?
Isn't it interesting how the Universe supports us once we make a decision.

I've been "dabbling" with my company, AmericanWell-Being LLC, since March of this year.  And yet as I write about identity, identity theft, ho'oponopono and the like, I haven't identified myself as someone who has a business, works and makes money doing it even though I know about spiritual stuff and manifesting.

I mention this because with my "happy accident" I wrote about in my last blog, I am probably a million times farther along with being successful as identifying myself as a Professional Blogger than I allowed myself to be with American Well-Being.

Chances are this is perfect.  While I thought I desired to be in a business that promotes well-being, in the past six months it seems that what I would really love to do is aligned very closely with what a professional blogger does.

I also feel this seems to be a perfect answer for me in the sense that I don't feel comfortable being paid to what in my opinion amounts to helping my brother or sister children of God with their spirituality.

And I've realized much in the sense that it isn't my job to save anyone.  It isn't my job to try to convince you that my thoughts, feelings or beliefs are better than yours and so you should adopt mine.

Some of why I believe this is
1.  Abraham says it was never the intent of our souls to come here and save anyone else or judge their experience.
2.  With my Right Of Consciousness Knowledge, I understand that I am the supreme ruler of my personal consciousness and you are the supreme ruler of yours.  What seems the most loving and respectful thing for me then is to share and enjoy together with my brother and sister Supreme Rulers.

I had mentioned in a previous post that I would talk about Right of Consciousness Knowledge (R.O.C.K., as I like to refer to it) and so today seems to be the day.

The first time I feel I was introduced to the concept in a way that really resonated with me is from Alan Cohen's book, Relax Into Wealth (click here if you are interested in checking this book out for yourself).

I quote from the book,

"While it appears external rules govern who owns what, the prevailing law is the Right of Consciousness.

I must love it, know I deserve it and hold a vision for healthy, joyful use of it.  Then it comes to me easily.  When I am joined with something I truly deserve by my mental, emotional and spiritual alignment--it is mine by Universal Law.  No one can interfere.

Remember, I am under no laws but God's.  I live and love in Universal Principle here and now.  Everything I desire comes to me and stays with me by virtue of love."

As I contemplate this truth, this knowledge truly does make each of us equal.  In each moment we are able to and have access to the full potential of Divine Love Intelligence.  It seems to be the reason why each of us is just as equal and capable as the Albert Einsteins, Bill Gates, Oprahs and Dalai Lamas of the world.  This Right of Consciousness Knowledge truly evens the playing field, if we let it.  It also seems to me that it evens the playing field in the sense that nothing is better or worse, simply different...preference.

It also makes me wonder about the changes going on with the monetary system and the so-called coming 2012 stuff.  Personally, I don't know if I want to read any of those books after what happened with Y2K and they may perhaps limit what I might be able to expect to manifest for me in my life.

Anyway, with the monetary system thing, I know my knee-jerk way of thinking and believing is the way to get something is "buy it".  So, if I don't have the money NOW or don't know how to get the money soon, then instead of using Universal Law, R.O.C.K., knowing I am Supreme Ruler of my own personal consciousness universe, I'll tell myself to "get real...I can't have that."

Yet, without going into too much detail about my past creations, with seeming little monetary wealth I live a pretty wealthy life compared to the majority of the planet.

The Universe doesn't tell me "NO".  The Universe knows how to bring me what I claim via R.O.C.K.  In fact, that's all the Universe is programmed to do.  Like the biggest duplicating machine EVER, the Universe simply projects for me in the outer something that is a vibrational match to my inner or my personal consciousness.

With my new connection to Heaven on Earth LA, I continue to think about my idea of Heaven where "I make the rules and break them 'cuz I'm the best".  That's from a Prince song.  While I am not sure my idea of Heaven was ever quite that well thought out and conceived of, I'm pretty sure my idea of it didn't include money.  It simply included wanting something and getting it.

All of this brings me full circle to deciding on the first day of October, the day I said I was going to start a 40-day Fast from thinking of myself falsely and at least three times a day saying and meaning, "Thank You, God, for restoring me to the perfection from which I emanated." that I AM a Professional Blogger.  And so it is.

P.S.  I'm still cleansing currency, blessing money and the outer source it came to me from and the outer source I circulate it to; knowing I stimulate circulation by participating in circulation.  Also, proclaiming that "money works for me" (not vice-versa), which is similar to another reason why R.O.C.K. can bless your life.  Consciousness, which I feel can be interchanged with energy or Divine Love Intelligence or in the moment pure potential, works for me.  Consciousness is simply like a lump of clay until I command it with my intention and attention.  So, what kind of boss are you in your Consciousness Universe or Consciousness Kingdom or Queendom?

P.P.S.  I am also a little surprised and interested to find in one of the books I read about blogging (and thank you to those authors who taught me some great things) that some bloggers use the donate button from PayPal on their blogs asking for donations if the blog has inspired them in some way.  This is basically what I envisioned with my Inspired Giving idea that I mention at http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com.  I just don't know how to incorporate it into my blogs...YET.

And lastly, this initial 100-day open-heart challenge that inspired me to start blogging.  1. Thank you.  2.  Sometimes I feel like I am not really focused on opening my heart during this 100 days.  Yet, I have had so many insights and really am allowing myself to love myself more and others.  The challenge is helping me expand my definition of love.  That's something.

Day 43, Thankful Thursday, October 1, 2009

Hey all. Happy Thankful Thursday. I wonder if that is why Thanksgiving is on Thursday.

Anyway, I don't believe in accidents anymore. If I did, I might consider starting a blog called Happy Accidents.

And I would be thankful today for Happy Accidents.

I have been realizing more and more how much I love getting out with my HD Video Camera and filming stuff. It gets me out and outside my box to experience something new. So, how can I get paid for that?

In the meantime, I've been realizing from the opportunity I had to film Heaven on Earth LA's grand opening that I could use a better camera...so what would that be if I am serious and then how do I learn how to use it and what software do I use to edit with and how do I learn how to use that.

Let me back up a moment. For the $100 I paid for my current camera and the $100 I paid for the Sony Vegas Software for editing, it is a small investment for fairly good results for those who just want to be casual about it. I did find out a top of the line low-light technology Sony HD video camera for $1000 that would be just fine most likely if I still want to be more or less amateur. And in doing a bit of looking around, I found out that if you want to be a professional filmmaker, there is a $3000 Sony camera that takes everything to a new level.

What is cool is that I did want to know what that camera was and through a Happy Accident did find out? So, it helps me be thankful that when you ask, you are answered.

Still, I can't seem to find a book on working with these types of cameras to get the most out of them. No Dummies books etc. And no Dummy book on using Sony Vegas software and things to do to be more professional with your editing and also supposedly the software has the capability of allowing me to put together DVDs that can be played in a DVD player and I have no idea how to do that either.

Here's my Happy Accident. I need to find out more about using my editing software for the Heaven on Earth LA project. So, I figured of all the Barnes and Nobles I know of in LA, I'd go to the biggest one I could think of with the assumption they'd have a larger selection and just might have something I could use as a reference. Plus, I hadn't been to the Grove for a while and it is right next to the Farmers Market, which is celebrating its 75th Anniversary this year. The Grove is also a sort of celebrity hangout 'cuz it is also next to CBS Television City. Why not combine a fact finding expedition with an opportunity to get some video?

Looking through the books, which I didn't find any for Sony Vegas Software to help me, I found a book on Blogging as a profession.

About a week ago with all the ads all over for the new season of Californication coming up, it popped into my head that it would be cool to come up with something called Californivacation. I love my city. I love SoCal, as we call Southern California. I could so do a video/photo blog of different places to visit in SoCal.

One of the things I have talked about before with friends is that there truly is so much more to SoCal than I feel the stereotypical traffic and Hollywood and beaches.

And so today, I started my Californivacation: SoCal Style blog. Yesterday, I was a little down for reasons that really don't even matter now and today I am back. What brings me back faster and easier than ever before is knowing I am Divine.

What I loved yesterday when I visited Stahsha, the gal who owns Heaven on Earth LA, mentioned that was awesome is reminding me we are whole beings and to be as present as possible. We are Divine Beings having human experiences. Embrace it all. And I love the idea of Heaven on Earth. Do you think that those in Heaven worry about health or wealth? At least my idea of Heaven was that everything is right with me and now I get to make my rules. Like eating all the ice cream I could ever desire to eat and always being beautiful and perfect body shape. That's what I feel about well-being.

First, we are already well-being in truth. To think/feel we are not is lying. Now that we know that nothing is wrong us how do we want it to be?

So on this awesome Thankful Thursday, I am thankful for life, for me, for my divinity, for flowing and glowing well-being, for the internet, for blogging, for loving where I live and wanting to experience and share it, for our 100-day open-heart challenge and for all of you who read this and I share life with.

Thank you. I love you.

Day 41, Another Glorious Tiara Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Happy Tiara Tuesday everyone.

No blog on Sunday. The pinata was a huge hit and yet I was quite interested in the difference between a kid's party where everyone ones a shot at hitting the pinata or they are sad and this party where none of my 27-year old cousin's male friends wanted a shot. Ended up only my cousin, his mom and his dad and then my cousin again were game. Of course, in all fairness I never intended on taking a shot myself and I'm not sure what all of this says about anything, but...

Needless to say, I was on quite a high.

And then yesterday, not so much. A video I'm putting together for Heaven on Earth crashed on me a couple of times and my internet access was denied for whatever reason.

The real tragedy is that I am so much more aware of when I let outward "anything" define me as being somehow less than. Then it really makes those 10 ho'oponopono words all the more meaningful as I say, "I love you. I'm sorry. I forgive you. Thank you." As much as I am not too thrilled that I notice how much I do this, I am very thrilled that every day I do love myself more and that I truly am sorry and forgive myself for seeing me as something other than the glory of Divine Love Intelligence made manifest that I know I am. And for at least stopping the hamster wheel and stepping out even if I am not completely out.

This morning I woke up with a realization that I have all these great realizations and I know I am Divine and I know I am stepping out of the hamster wheel and claiming my flowing and glowing well-being and stop resisting what is illusion and put my attention on what is REAL and Divine, but I am attempting to do so with my same human mind/thinking when I need to make the transition to Divine Mind and Divine Heart and Divine everything if I really seek to transition...to be clear...to be restored to the perfection from which I emanated and seeing me the way Divine Love Intelligence sees me.

All this only today when I was able to get back online to find that someone had sent me a virtual Tiara on Facebook to remind me today is Tiara Tuesday. I included a copy of this virtual Tiara in this blog. And that it was perfect to be off line 'cuz I would have gone ahead and uploaded the video to YouTube only to find that the person I am basically doing it for probably would not have been as happy without being able to see it first and she is going to get that chance tomorrow.

You know I had meant to mention the Laughing Buddha 40-day Fast that I was planning to start on October 1 and invite any to join me who desired to. I was inspired to create it from lent and wondered if in a way it was the original intent of lent. Lent is about giving up something for 40 days with the idea that if you can give something up for 40 days you can give it up forever. And I could go into a lengthy bunch of words here about what I really mean by that and how it doesn't seem to be like that anymore, but that's not my point.

I tied it into the Laughing Buddha 'cuz I like to think that the laughing Buddha laughs because once he was able to be free of illusion, he realized how silly some of our fears and the like are that we have.

So to marry the two, think of one disempowering belief you have that you could give up for 40 days. And you'd need to come up with an opposite because you want it to be less about putting attention on what you don't want and more about putting attention on what you do want OR I guess more precisely how you no longer wish to identify yourself and how you now choose to identify yourself.

And for me the ultimate was to stop seeing me as illusion and see me more the way Divine Love Intelligence sees me and at least three times a day thank Divine Love Intelligence for restoring me to the perfection from which I emanated.

I still may do this starting October 1. It's just that today I decided I was going to put together a Tiara Tuesday class that I would facilitate at Heaven on Earth LA. I haven't got it all figured out yet and I am not sure that I want to feel like I have it all figured out in order to let it shape itself organically out of the intention. But the intent behind the class is that the Tiara is symbolic of our divine identity. That in the 60 to 90 minutes together it is about practicing coming more from what we feel it would be like to "BE" via Divine Mind than our own mind.

In other words, truly in this class everyone is created equal. We are all divine children of God. We are all the rulers of the rules in our own Queendoms (which is our personal consciousness). From the place of Divine Mind and Divine Love Intelligence each of us is an Albert Einstein, Bill Gates, Oprah, Mother Teresa, etc. from the aspect of possibility. And that we don't let past ways we've identified ourselves and/or how much money we appear to have in the moment decide for us what we can experience or create.

In this class there are Zero Limits, all possibilities. We are eternal and divine and blessed and loved. In this class there are no problems. There is only wealth and health and flowing and glowing well-being, as much as we are able.

And we understand that we are all created equal because each of us has access to the same possibilities in consciousness as any of the rest of us. The same ability to change beliefs and feelings in any given moment of now.

Of course, you don't need to attend the class to do this for yourself every Tuesday. You don't even need a physical tiara to participate. You can use this virtual one as the tiara you wear in your imagination.

What you are doing is rehearsing. Ever notice the word rehearsing is re-hear-sing.

I know a lot of classes are about visioning what you want in order to bring it about. I also can see this and maybe I don't even want to call it a class as much as an experience...The Tiara Tuesday Experience...because it will be more about practicing how to rule your own consciousness Kingdom...practicing how to have consciousness work for you and not vice-versa so that your Kingdom is a joyous Kingdom whatever your definition of joyous is.

What I was getting at is that if what is currently on our "vision boards" based on our human mind, think what might be on our vision board when we get good at utilizing our Divine Minds?

So, Happy Tiara Tuesday. Who knows, maybe I will see some of you at Heaven on Earth LA sharing the practice of getting comfortable with our Divine Identities.

And while I still am so thrilled to have had the realization that to judge somethings as Divine and others as not as JUDGMENT (I never really thought it was before), in my Queendom the idea of these shared Tuesday Experiences really makes my thoughts of Tiara Tuesday and my enjoyment of Tiara Tuesday seem that much more Divine.

thank you. I love you for sharing this blog with me by reading it.

P.S. I still am cleansing that currency. Thrilled to. And have a next level to add in the sense that every time you release wealth into circulation, you remind yourself that you are stimulating the flow of wealth circulation making it that much stronger, healthier and faster for it to return to you. And again with the remembering who we are, our Divine Identity, that money works for you.

P.P.S. Still all about Inspired Giving too. To find out more go to http://www.friendsofthelawofattraction.com

Oh and remember...Love isn't a choice, just like health, wealth, joy and beauty and well-being are not choices in the sense that they are always ON and ever present in each glorious moment of NOW. You may decide not to "see" or acknowledge their existence in the moment (that is a choice) but they are ever present.

So, with lots and lots of love and blessings I remind you that you are already flowing and glowing with well-being here and now and always...you must be by definition and the identity you have in the eyes of Divine Love Intelligence. You can resist this truth or acknowledge it and flow with it.

And you know, I believe there isn't any wrong in resisting it or punishment either. It's simply that in the same way if I chose to type a "P" instead of an "A", resistance will create resistance experiences and flow will create flow experiences.

Every Tuesday, I'll be practicing seeing you glowing and flowing 'cuz that's how I choose for it to be in my Queendom. In my Queendom I see everyone as the truth of who they are even if they don't see it themself. And I will ask myself for forgiveness using ho'oponopono if I see anyone or anything in my Queendom as being anything but the way I choose for it to be. I love you. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. For in my Queendom I take full responsibility for Total Well-Being.

Namaste.

Day 38, Saturday, September 26, 2009

Hey, all you party people.

Isn't life amazing?

Isn't this 100-day challenge the bomb?

I believe you know how I would answer those questions.

So, I totally missed what I wanted to designate as "False Friday". And partly because I realized that I was having some issues with seeing me as Truth and not as "false".

Maybe the way to explain it is that I had this amazing insight that "If I am judging some things as divine and others as not...well, that is judgment, eh?" And with the truth of ho'oponopono, when I see or believe or perceive me based on what my physical eyes see and not my Divine eyes, then it so brings home with an even more "feeling" feeling the "I'm sorry. Please forgive me."

I found myself fearful about the physical size of my body and/or the seeming amount of my cash in hand in the moment. Only to realize that if I am placing attention on me as being overweight and not who I am in the view of Divinity, then I am putting more energy on manifesting me as being overweight. You know, 'cuz it is where my attention is. And as far as the amount of money I appear to have.

Well, I continue to be committed to currency cleansing and blessing all wealth that comes to me, but also that what if my belief, 'cuz Divinely it is true, that as I have money or any wealth and I am thrilled to circulate it that what I am doing is stimulating the FLOW of wealth. And that even though it should be enough (and remember I don't enjoy the word "should" 'cuz on one level I understand that we are all already PERFECT just as we are and so it is NEVER my job to should you) to simply flow wealth, I also benefit on the backend because I know that as I flow out, more is flowing in to me for my enjoyment.

So, part of me was worried 'cuz I will be joyously participating in the celebration of my cousin's 27th birthday on Sunday, September 27th and what could I give him that would be mah-velous dahling?

It's interesting to me when I think about it that somehow he has been the person who I have had this sort of tradition where now it is like what can I give him that answers the question "something you've always never known you've wanted and yet...now that you have it...? And yet, because I still haven't flowed an actual manifestation of a billion dollars...isn't so much about the money but more about "how much fun can we make it?"

And I found myself at the beginning of this week in a sort of fear, panic mode thinking that I couldn't pull out my intention where this is concerned. What has been amazing about the 100-day challenge and all I am going through is that even though this was my "knee-jerk" response, the Higher Self of me was like don't let that voice sway you. Remember who you are? and so on.

So, here is is one day before the party and without my having to really figure it out, my wonderful (he is totally an angel) man, suggests we go to downtown L.A. to see if we might get inspired.

Downtown L.A. (close to the Fashion District...which is where this season's Project Runway, which I love 'cuz I am a sewer and am the kind of person who would see a pattern in a store that looked similar to what I had in mind but not quite there and I knew I could alter it to make it my own and I loved this) is the place where he feels comfortable. The place where it is almost a plus if you speak Spanish or some sort of Asian language and you are able to buy at about the most wholesale of a price possible.

As we walked around the maze (and seriously, it is like a maze 'cuz you could easily get lost amidst the halls and corridors and alleys, etc. where these shops are located) and knowing my cousin's love for the Dodgers and my now many joyous participations in Manny's grand niece's and nephew's birthday party that how much fun would it be to have mostly 27-year olds enjoy the pinata experience?

Seriously, my cousin technically doesn't NEED anything. To me when most of us are in that place where technically we don't NEED anything, what becomes more cherished is experiencing something that is fun but you didn't expect.

So, we got him a pinata. The thing I hadn't realized before moving here and enjoying all the different experiences I've enjoyed, is that the pinata comes empty. Or at least the to me what I envision as a pinata. As a side note, we were told the new hot pinata to have is one that is already loaded up with many different types of sports balls that birthday participants would be thrilled to end up with as a gift from the pinata experience.

I decided for a birthday party that is supposed to be more about fun and a party that will include mostly people his age is that I would fill it with things that could be practicle, but would also be a little more private. For instance, condoms, diapers, toilet paper and the great stand-by "chiclets". To me it would be fun to see who would go for what and especially since my cousin is a Vegan and most likely most of his friends are as well. So, the chiclets are the most food type thing we included in the pinata.

I also am psyched because our gift (my Man's, Manny and mine) will include Manny in charge of pinata placement. Manny didn't want to hit the pinata. So, his job while he is on my Aunt and Uncle's garage roof will be to dangle the pinata in such a way as to get participant's to take a swing without allowing them to connect with the pinata. These are powerful, older adults. We need and desire the fun to last as long as possible. My additional contribution will be filming the experience with the hope that all involved will be game to allow themselves to let the kid in them takeover and enjoy the entire pinata experience even though most of them will be in their late 20's.

I also want to share how on Thursday I had an amazing breakthrough where I just wanted to practically shout out to the entire universe how I realized that if I am judging certain things to be divine and others as not divine...that is judgment.

Also, that how interesting it is that judgmental is a combo pack of the words "judge" and "mental", which to me, more or less make them the poster children for beliefs and not facts.

So, today as I was walking around downtown L.A. where people who are more an affinity with immigrants, and recent like now or first level immigrants, go to do biz and where you can pretty much get anything wholesale price and about as low as you will find something in L.A., and when I compared that to my experience of last Saturday as I attended the Grand Opening of Heaven on Earth L.A..........I found myself realizing how easy it is to perceive last Saturday's experience as being Divine and how before today, I would have perceived today's experience as Divine, not so much.

But people, there is only divinity. And both are Divine. And if I am perceiving any other way, I am stealing and cheating my self.

The other thing that happened today that I loved is that my man, Manny, who I never would have expected to go with me to one of my spirituality-type places agreed to go. I am not going to try to assume his motivation for this blog post 'cuz truth is I may never actually know his true motivation. What was interesting to me is that the place we were close to that he agreed to go to is the Peace Labyrinth Gardens in L.A. And when we got there, it technically was closed. I didn't remember Saturday was their closed day.

When you find the place and pull into their driveway, you are greeted with a gate and an intercom system that requires you to push the button and to let them know why you are there. So in talking to the voice on the intercom we realized this is my third visit (last time I was also turned away). Second visit they were technically closed also. So, pity, whatever for my third visit and with my promise I would forever remember they are closed on Saturday, we were allowed to come in and walk the labyrinth.

What I found interesting is that three other people stopped us to inquire as to why we were there 'cuz Saturday's are closed to the public. You know 'cuz I have the consciousness that there are no accidents, which is a whole other thing in my mind. It's sort of like the thing I mention with stepping out of the hamster cage when it comes to having problems and then deciding I am going to accept the consciousness that problems only exist if you believe they do...

Anyway, what was such a gift or that I was so thrilled about is that it seems like any man I have ever been in a relationship with has not shared my spiritual bent. That's not to say they aren't Divine. And one of the things I love most about Manny is that he seems to be more of who I would love to be in the sense of expressing a person who is peaceful and happy and loves life and is generous, etc. without going through all the gyrations I feel I need to go through in order to be on his level.

Maybe the better way to explain it is that I don't really share my spirituality. And so to share this with him and feel like he loves me enough to share it with me even if he thinks I'm a "nut job"...well, it meant a lot to me.

So, I was so excited to have us walking the labyrinth together I sort of couldn't really remember the purpose of walking the labyrinth. And yet, how could I remember. There are probably as many good reasons to walk the labyrinth in a walking meditation as there are original snowflakes in the history of time.

I was able to share two of my favorites. One is that as you walk...you feel like you are more and more letting go of anything that is "troubling" you. And the other is that you use the entire time it seems to require to walk the entire labyrinth to be in gratitude. For if truth is that the more you are grateful, the more you attract things to be grateful for...well,

Yet, since I truly do not believe in coincidence (and I am so thrilled with the whole if you stay in the moment and in every moment realize that this moment is awesome and so you can trust that every present moment will be awesome even if you don't know at this moment how that will be true) there is obviously something in the fact we were allowed to participate even though we were reminded three times that this usually is not allowed, I'm also going to let myself be okay enough to not try to figure out what the deal was. Instead, I desire to simply be grateful that even though technically it was closed, we were allowed in.

So, life is wonderful. And if the length of this post because I missed just one day is an indicator to write every day...well, still, the message is the same. As we continue to correct our thoughts, feelings and beliefs to be more aligned with truth...our lives become so much more amazing and wonderful and without seeming to have so much "work" to do so.

Most every Friday evening I have dinner with my aunt and uncle who live in town. Because of my cousin's party, my aunt said maybe we should simply blow off this Friday. Only to have my friend come to me to get together Friday evening to help her with a letter of intent for a job she would love to have.

And so as I continue with this challenge and get more into ho'oponopono, I so have more of a feeling as I put those 10 words out there to the Divine, "I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you."

And I had a point that seemed worthy of writing about and sharing, it seems to escape me at this moment. And so I know it will emerge when it is more appropriate.

If nothing else, though, I can so see how much I have "seen" myself with human vision and not divine vision and defined myself as something so very, very much less than the way Divine perceives me. So, when I repeat the 10 words, there is so much more intent and emotion behind the words.

Okay, this is definitely enough for today.

Thank you again to all of you who read this whenever you find yourself attracted to this blog post. Thank you to all of you who share my life with me. Thank you to God and love. I do feel blessed. And, I know I am more and more flowing and glowing with well-being than I ever expected to.

Namaste.

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P.P.S. How would this change your life if:
1. You understood that in any moment you let go of money or wealth in whatever divine form, you knew your were stimulating the flow of wealth in your life, and
2. You continued to affirm that as the truth of You that You are, money WORKS for You (not vice-versa). For it is the joy of joys of the Universe and forms of Divinity to support us in ways that are joyous and amazing and awesome and blessed in every moment if we will simply believe this is the truth of the way Divine Love always intended for us.

Whoo hoo!

I love you.